How often does William go there? Spoilt b*stards aren’t you.
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This is just a therapeutic post for myself.
There is a game with no name, played all over the world by people of a mercenary nature. Like spies and bounty hunters they have to protect some people and attack others and ultimately regardless of who they work for, it’s for their own ego boost/gain to play.
Note: Remember hunting is not the same as a sport – the victims, targets, marks don’t get a say. They’re not even informed of the rules nor can they defend themselves.
Every member in this game is out for themselves/their pack. To keep their skills honed they’ll divide themselves and surround a person to either defend or attack. It’s role playing. They have no interest in the victim other than their role at the time.
One version of this game played in the UK is for one team to get a target from point A to B relatively safely.
One version played in the UK from US players with UK assistance is time sharing a victim to build up a scenario with them and then start attacking and defending, sometimes they change sides and the victim never knows. The problem is their attack skills are far better than their defense skills so a ‘win’ for the defending side isn’t much of a win, actually it’s a miracle if they manage it, that’s how amateurish they come off as. If they ever had to defend themselves they’d be goners, they’d probably just run and hide leaving everyone but their nearest and dearest to fend for themselves since they don’t use the limited skills they have to help anybody.
All I have to remember is that “William always gets his mark” so because he dislikes losing ‘all’ I have to keep doing is putting pressure on the slow, useless slapper to hurry up and no I’m not giving him anything, no “fringe benefits”. He’s “the best we have to offer”, gawd this maiden in distress has been robbed.
I wish he’d gone to Virgina instead like he was supposed to and played the storyline on the lawmakers there instead of bothering me, although of course I wish none of this had ever happened and that people like that didn’t exist.
This post is Pt 2 of my Cinderella post HERE.
Easter is not just a couple of days each year, it’s a procession of events on multiple religious and luni-solar calendars in March/April.
For some reason I thought the Feast of the Beast was an annual event, as part of the usual March/April sacrifices but it seems it’s once every 28 years. The last was was in 2010 and I just ‘happened’ to visit the most important masonic lodge in the UK at that time (someone from work suggested we visit that day).
1982 was the year of the previous Feast of the Beast and coincidentally my birth year, I was 27 turning 28 when I visited in the Grand Lodge which turned to be ‘perfect’ timing given the significance of the numbers 28 and 82 to these people, as explained below. The Grand Lodge in London is on Great Queen Street (notice how it’s not Great King or something masculine) beind Covent/Convent/Covenent Garden previously known as ‘the garden of the Abbey and Convent’. Spring seems to be a thing for me, pretty much all of the voices I’ve heard have been/started in Spring.
The number 28 and 82 importance from the link below:
FEAST OF THE BEAST
By Fritz Springmeier
In my investigations into the Illuminati, I was provided information from several ex-Illuminati members about an important ritual called The Feast of the Beast. I’ve made references to this ritual occasionally and this attracted some attention by some of my readers. I’ve been asked to write about this ritual over the years, and always found more pressing things to do. My various sources gave their testimony independent of each other and this led me to conclude that the ceremony did indeed exist. A lot of pressure has come down on me, and I felt that I should go ahead and write this article rather than presume that I shall have the chance later.
In simple terms, the Feast of the Beast is a yearlong event that occurs every 28 years and is attended by Illuminati leadership from around the world. It is a very high level ceremony, and would not be recognized at the anarchy ritual level [my comment: the lower levels who think they’re the movers and shakers and decision makers in society] of the Illuminati.
Ritual is very important to Satan, and to the Illuminati. There are a number of reasons to this. One, it provides an excuse to carry out horrible things without having to feel any guilt. A person can explain away things as “It was time for that.” or “That’s the way things are done.” Or, “we must protect these traditions”.
The Feast of the Beast is associated with the number 28 (as well as its reverse 82, and as well as the combination 7 times 4). One of the best books on providing the occult world’s meanings of numbers is Aleister Crowley’s books Gematria and Tables of Correspondences. On page 58 of Crowley’s Table of Correspondences under the Orders of Qliphoth, we’re informed that 28 is the number of the Beast, that is Bahimiron which is Bestial. Crowley also teaches that the number 28 is associated with the unicorn, the peacock, the peacock & the rainbow, artificial glass (& chalcedony which suggests clouds), astrology in general, a number of perfumes such as Rhubarb and Stammonia, and a 3 headed beast (heads of a bull, man & ram) riding a dragon. In his book Gematria, about the numerology of mystic numbers, we are told that in the static universe 28 means power (Netzach, also spelled netsach), and in the world the magician makes it means “My victory, my power.”
(By the way, Netsach is used in the Word of God at 1 CHR 29:11 “Thine, O Lord [YHWH], is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory [netsach], and the majesty…” Netsach means a bright object like a star that one travels toward, it is a shining goal, which has been achieved.)
There is no question that Cabalists view 28 as a very powerful number. Further, when we realize that 28 is also a combination of 7 (perfection) and 4 (also considered completeness or perfection), we can appreciate that 28 on a Magical calendar system is powerful. Accordingly, the Illuminati made note in their rituals in 1982, that 82 is the reversal of 28. According to some, the year long Feast of the Beast occurred in 1982, and the previous one occurred in ’53 or ’54. The next one is to occur in 2009 or 2010.
At the Feast of the Beast, a beautiful bride is trained and presented to Satan, and she may well be a virgin. This ceremony is most likely held at a castle or palace, and is also likely to be held over in Europe for the principle ceremony. Lesser ceremonies may be held here in the states. Witnesses claim that Satan appears and interacts with his human leadership. He provides them with detailed instructions for what he wants done until the next Feast of the Beast. In other words, he provides the top Illuminati hierarchy with their future long-range plans. The actual Feast of the Beast is a yearlong ceremony.
However, there is also a small ceremony performed before the autumn equinox approximately around the 5th to the 7th of September, which is a Marriage to the Beast ceremony, that can also be called The Feast of the Beast. It is a microcosm of the large ceremony. Or perhaps one could call it an imitation. [My comment: it’s Harvest basically, goes with the ‘fertility’/ life and death cycle of the year.]
It was also claimed by one informant that the Feast of the Beast in 1982 was the 13th from 1618, and that the Feast of the Beast in 1618 had been a significant event.
The Illuminati have certain people assigned to focus on spiritual power. Some readers may remember that I have explained that the Collins family was brought into the hierarchy because they were so powerful magically. The Rothschild’s have the financial power, but the Collins family has been very powerful witches. Women are spiritually very powerful in the Illuminati, and some women in the Illuminati are very important in planning and making the rituals successful. I write this because those Illuminati members who are part of the spiritual section of the Illuminati are going to be better informed than other sections (say the political, scientific or financial sections) on ritual background of the Feast of the Beast. The number 28 is said to come from Babylonian magic, the lunar calendar, and a woman’s menstrual cycle.
Ancient Babylon divided their day into 12 hours (each of their hours is two of ours). And each Babylonian hour was divided into 30 minutes (so their minute was 4 of our minutes. The Lunar month was 30 days. Seeing how all these 12’s and 30’s occur, it is not surprising that they used a base 60 numbering system. That means you counted to 60 before you got to 10. This is called a sexagesimal system or base 60 system. I was told that the number 28 played a role in the Babylonian calendar but what it was is not clear to me. Anyway, it is likely the number 28 has occult connotations that go back to Babylonian magic. The powerful Rothschild’s love Babylonian magic, so it is no surprise that witnesses have seen the leadership of this bloodline at the Feast of the Beast ceremonies.
This has been a look at one of the most important secret Illuminati ceremonies, a ceremony based on Babylonian and Cabalistic Gematria, where important policy is planned, and having as its participants Satan (who appears as a man/shape shifting reptile) and the leadership of the Illuminati.
I visited a library in the Grand Lodge and was espied by someone who found me interesting. When it comes to masonic symbolism there are three main levels depicted; the gate/outer wall, the inner and the temple/house/city whatever imagery (the mountain/pyramid/triangle and inner levels is going further). The man who saw me met met afterwards and said “you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve seen here, who are you?” I didn’t answer and left, then I saw him in my dreams. We were outside the gates of a lodge and he asked me again who I was, I can’t remember what I said to him before I just slipped through the gates easily as I’ve always done, past the main door and into the inner sanctum. You see it doesn’t matter whether you’re a member or not or what level you think you are, the Earth was made not made to be sectioned off nor given political boundaries. You can not tell a part of the Earth* that some are welcome and some are not from the indigenous and expect the Earth to comply, you have to alter the landscape and build divisions to forcibly keep creatures in and out, then have enforcement to give yourselves authority to decide who can pass. The same goes for ‘spiritual’ or ‘other physical’ layers which many masonic buildings represent or an eruv for example, anyone can pass through as long as they’re capable or enabled by a higher level. So whilst he was left outside the gates, clinging to them and calling to me I went through and have always done in any simulation as well whether floors/ceilings, doors, walls, windows, barriers, stairs, lifts (remember how Alice got through the door/wall to get to Wonderland) or whatever are used.
That said, he didn’t give up straight away. I saw him again once or twice, the most vivid time I was dress in a White gown in what looked like a forest or woodland somewhere on a path/dirt road and apparently I was in danger from some kind of beast, when in this damsel in distress scenario he suddenly like a knight in shining armour. He grabbed me in his arms and swept me into the air carrying me over a hole in the ground (I’ve been in similar situations before like huge holes in the ground surrounded by steep spiraling stairs, usually I get myself out) thus saving me from the beast, whatever it represented. I really hate these theatrical games, but masons and their employees love them so and have embedded them into law from falsifying lore.
*any section above, in between or below us and remember it is not actually ‘as above so below’ i.e. us mere mortals going through what the ‘gods’ ‘above’ are experiencing (remember not all of them live above or in space) they choose through their minions what it is we go through.
Possible Annual ‘Feast of the Beast’?:
Occult Holidays and Sabbats – from http://www.cuttingedge.org/
2. Spring Equinox – 13 weeks – Minor sabbath but does require human sacrifice
a. March 21-22 – Goddess Ostara – Note: Easter is the first Sunday after the first new moon after Ostara. March 21 is one of the Illuminati’s Human Sacrifice Nights
b. April 1 – All Fool’s Day, precisely 13 weeks since New Year’s Day!
c. April 19 – May 1 – Blood Sacrifice To The Beast. Fire sacrifice is required on April 19.
d. April 30 – May 1 – Beltaine Festival, also called Walpurgis Night. This is the highest day on the Druidic Witch’s Calendar. May 1 is the Illuminati’s second most sacred holiday. Human sacrifice is required
Possible Apocalypse ‘Feast of the Beast’?:
In the Gospels we are told that Jesus our Lord has prepared a future great marriage supper, or feast, of the Lamb. Invited will be all who believe in Christ Jesus. It will be a glorious time of celebration and fellowship.
In Judaism, Jesus is despised and he and his followers are cursed. Instead of the marriage supper of the Lamb, the Jews say there will come a great Feast of Leviathan. At this Feast, the Jews will, it is claimed, literally be served a great sea serpent beast, the Leviathan. Righteous Jews will eat of this Beast while Gentiles, simultaneously, are punished. Those who agree to give the Jews all their wealth and possessions will be spared. However, even the Gentiles who do this will be forced to become slaves of Jewish Masters. Those who refuse will be beheaded. They must die.
Feast of Leviathan
This great Feast of Leviathan—I call it the Feast of the Beast in my new book—will take place on the Jewish Day of Purification. Other prophetic events will also transpire on the Day of Purification. The Holy Serpent of the Jews will crown the Jews as “gods” and reward them the entire earth as their fiefdom. They will be collective rulers of the world, so powerful that no-one will dare oppose them. Furthermore, on that Day, evil and good shall be united. That is, good shall become evil and evil good.
The Holy Serpent, as I carefully document in my explosive new book, Holy Serpent of the Jews, is Leviathan. He is worshipped by many Talmudic and Kabbalistic rabbis as their Deity. Leviathan is the One to whom many Jews pray. They believe he is the Light of the World, the Most Holy. It is the Holy Serpent that gives the Jews their miraculous power to conquer all other peoples and subjugate them.
Gods and Goddesses
Tree of Life
In their Tree of Life, as depicted in the Kabbalah, the Holy Serpent is woven throughout. He reigns over all the deities, including the Mother Goddess, Binah, and the Daughter Princess, Malkuth. He enjoys sex with both the Mother and the Daughter and thus regenerates the earth. All the deities in the Tree of Life are his divine sparks, and the Jews often pray to the individual deities.
For readers who are unaware of the multiplicity of gods and goddesses in Judaism, what I report here may seem incredible. Nevertheless, it is true. The Jews have many deities but, for convenience, they group these deities together. The Jews, in their successful attempts to deceive the curious among the Gentiles, slyly evade their questions. Remember, in the Talmud, the Jews book of Law, the Jews are warned not to reveal its teachings. To reveal these things to a Gentile, warns the Talmud, is punishable by death.
Their Serpent God and Angel of Help
The Jews’ Holy Serpent is to ordain the deadly Feast of the Beast. His name is Leviathan, and Rabbi Michael Higger, in his fascinating book, The Jewish Utopia, speaks of Leviathan, the “piercing serpent.” Interestingly, the Jews choose Leviathan as their “God” and companion, even as their “Angel of Help.”
They do so in spite of—or perhaps because of—the fact that Job 41:34 proclaims that Leviathan is king of the proud: “He beholdeth all high things: he is a king over all the children of pride.”
The Holy Bible tells us that Satan is father over the arrogant and the proud and that it is the meek that shall inherit the earth. Jesus looks for a humble heart. He abhors the prideful. But the Jews’ religion in vastly different, and they believe their pride shall gain for them their kingdom when that momentous Day of Purification arrives.
Destiny of the Children of Pride
As Jesus testified to the Jews, “Ye serpents, ye generation of vipers, how can ye escape the damnation of hell?” (Matthew 23:33) Thus, in my revealing new book, Feast of the Beast, I convincingly prophesy the future fate of the people whom God identifies as the “Children of Pride.” God says that they and their Serpent King shall suffer a horrible torment in hell. We read in Isaiah 27:1:
“In that day the Lord with his sore and great and strong sword shall punish leviathan the crooked serpent; and he shall slay the dragon that is in the sea.”
Why would they eat their god? Unless of course to get power like those who purposely invoke ‘others’ to have sex with but either way that’s not the actions of a devotee/worshipper, it’s that of someone who wants something like most people who when they worship something/one they usually ask for a blessing/prosperity/help and in more extreme cases there’s sex magick (which is also in religions).
Remember, when thinking about the leviathan one should think of the behemoth. In some circles the bethemoth was/is masculine and the leviathan feminine (even though you don’t oft find reference to the leviathan’s sex). What I don’t agree with is that the leviathan and the behemoth will fight to the death at the end of time nor that since they’re alike that only the leviathan is related to ‘Satan’ but then the bible does confuse ‘devil’ vs ‘satan’ (terms which have their roots in pre-Vedic ‘Hinduism’) and ‘lucifer’ types of ‘angels’ and other species. Apparently the behemoth was separated from the leviathan at the beginning of creation such as Ialdabaoth from Sophia (when he claimed to the be the creator) in Gnosticism who was later called Samuel who some think of as ‘Satan’ in the bible. Or the later (but based on earlier) four classical great novels of China where a character called the Monkey King or the Sun King (typical – a male ‘sun’ deity seen as the highest god) acts like he’s greater than Buddha and then has to travel to India for ‘Buddhist’ scrolls.* By separating the behemoth from the leviathan it’s easy to call one masculine and the other feminine and in the apocalypse both will come together to kill each other becoming ‘nothing’ or ‘one’ again so in a way two sexes coming together [again] to make a single sex, androgyny. That does tie into root cultures that claim in the beginning there were only females or feminine creatures and they were divided to make female and male and in current times people are looking to artificial intelligence and singularity. Many like to think we’re in the end times.
However both creatures are seen as monsters, like the division of land and sea i.e. the separation, shifting, rise and fall of the continents one is a sea creature and one a land animal, so why is one seen as related to ‘Satan’ and not the other and why given that both creatures are destructive (which is seen as bad in the bible unless ‘God’ is doing it) is the leviathan/female considered evil? Demonizing the feminine and typically making it serpentine and serpents/snakes as evil such as the snake in the Garden of Eden and the separation of the sexes their i.e. most commonly Eve being made from Adam’s side. There is confusion there with the snake representing knowledge and wisdom with evil, or older goddesses with the newer form of ‘the’ ‘devil’/’Satan’. (Sidenote – for those who think ‘Satan’ is reptile though it represented by both remember that snakes and reptilians are different races though there is crossover and snakes are not always seen as evil whereas reptilians generally are. Snakes are often associated with ancient goddesses and gods whether ‘good’ or ‘bad’.)
*Budda the person is based on an Indian noble who sought to extend the version of Hinduism at the time to the East and somehow he came the centralized fat male Buddha we see today even though it is actually female and based on on the Taras and Mahavidyas from pre-Vedic ‘Hinduism’ (an assortment of Indian subjects that later became modern/post-Vedic Hinduism). He and those who helped him did a great job on continuing masculine monotheism.
The following article is quoted from: http://vigilantcitizen.com/vigilantreport/the-world-of-mind-control-through-the-eyes-of-an-artist-with-13-alter-personas/
The World of Mind Control Through the Eyes of an Artist with 13 Alter Personas
By VC on September 22, 2011 Vigilant Reports
Kim Noble is a rare occurrence: a trauma-based mind control survivor with over 13 alter personas who don’t know each other but who all paint. She has suffered DID and MPD (dissociative identity disorder and multiple personality disorder) for most of her life, as a result of an extremely traumatic childhood. Each one of her alters paints with a personal and distinctive style but they all have one thing in common: they reveal the dark world of mind control programming, from its horrific techniques to its symbolism. We’ll look at the works of this unique artist who reveals a world that is totally hidden from the masses.
Many articles on this site point out the presence of mind control symbolism in popular culture. Photo shoots, music videos and movies often glamorize and trivialize mind control and its symbolism by associating it with famous stars and trendy happenings. The fact however remains that these references celebrate one of the most abominable practices known to man: trauma based mind control, also called Monarch programming. Originating from the secret CIA project called MK-Ultra, Monarch programming subjects its victims to some of the most sadistic tortures conceivable (for more details on Monarch programming see the article entitled Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control).
The works of Kim Noble vividly document the life of a mind control slave through the eyes of 13 alter personas. While a few of these alters paint peaceful landscapes and nature scenes, most of them depict horrific aspects of mind control such as physical torture, electroshock, violent abuse, dehumanization and dark occult rituals. The stories told by these paintings are almost too much to bear, yet they likely actually happened to Kim Noble as they precisely reflect accounts of other Monarch survivors. Looking at the works of Kim Noble not only reveals gritty details of an abominable practice carried on by “elite” organizations, it reveals the symbolism that is also thrown in our faces on a daily basis through corporate-owned mass media. Let’s look at the life and works of Kim Noble.
Who Is Kim Noble?
I have the feeling that Kim Noble herself would have trouble answering this question. Here’s the biography found on her official website.
“Kim Noble is a woman who, from the age of 14 years, spent 20 years in and out of hospital until she made contact with Dr Valerie Sinason and Dr Rob Hale at the Tavistock and Portman Clinics. In 1995 she began therapy and was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (originally named multiple personality disorder). D.I.D is a creative way to cope with unbearable pain. The main personality splits into several parts with dissociative or amnesic barriers between them. It is a controversial disorder but Kim has had extensive tests over 2 years by leading psychology professor at UCL, John Morton, who has established there is no memory between the personalities and that she has the misfortune of representing the British gold standard over genuine dissociation.
Having no formal art training, Kim and 13 of her personalities (alters) became interested in painting in 2004 after spending a short time with an art therapist. These 12 artists each have their own distinctive style, colours and themes, ranging from solitary desert scenes to sea scenes to abstracts, collages, and paintings with traumatic content. Many alters are unaware that they share a body with other artists.
What is remarkable to all is both the quality of their work and the speed of their progress. Within five years of starting to paint they have already had seventeen successful solo exhibitions and participated in an equal number of group exhibitions. Kim was also the first Artist in Residence at Springfield University Hospital in Tooting, South West London.”
Despite the fact that she has to live with 13 alter personas – who randomly take control of her body – Kim Noble is fortunate enough to be living a relatively normal life. The fact that the programming stopped at a young age has helped her become “well-adjusted”. She has a teenage daughter named Aimee, who was mostly raised by the motherly alter named Bonny.
In the past few years, Kim Noble enjoyed some mainstream exposure and was featured in national newspapers such as Telegraph – Kim Noble, The Guardian – Kim Noble, The Independent – Kim Noble and several others. She even appeared at the Oprah Show, where she was interviewed and was shown switching personas. As you might expect from mainstream media, the coverage of Noble’s condition was extremely superficial and focused on exploiting the “freak” aspect of her condition for shock value. The true cause of her condition, trauma-based mind control, which is extensively described in her works, is almost never mentioned.
Although most articles and interviews about Noble “applauded” her courage and whatnot, none of them dared discussing the core message of her work and the system that it describes. Many of Noble’s paintings depict terrible scenes of organized, institutionalized and systematic violence, torture, and child abuse combined with elaborate occult symbolism. It is obvious that the trauma Noble went through was not caused by a single sadistic father but by an organized entity that held many children. The only article I found delving into the mind control aspect of Noble’s work was The Art of Dissociation from the excellent website Pseudo-Occult Media. However, to most newspapers, Noble’s work is nothing more than an example of “outsider art” (a term popularized by trendy art-world douches to identify art created by people with mental problems). Most observers are fascinated by the fact that each one of Noble’s alters paint with a distinctive style, but it’s as easy to recognize that her collective works describe her past as a Monarch programming victim.
The “real” Kim Noble does not recall any of the abuse she suffered – several of her alters do, however, and they express all of it in their paintings.
“To all intents and purposes, each of Kim’s personalities is an artist in their own right: Patricia paints the solitary desert landscapes, Bonny’s pictures often feature robotic dancing figures or “frieze people”, Suzy repeatedly paints a kneeling mother, Judy’s canvasses are large, conceptual pieces while Ria’s work reveals deeply traumatic events involving children.
These disturbing images are at the root of Kim’s extraordinary condition; DID is a creative mental survival strategy whereby the personality splits at a young age due to severe and chronic trauma. The number of personalities that exist often depends on how long the trauma lasts. But Kim herself has no memory of being abused as a child; she has been protected over the years by her alters.
“I’ve been told I was abused and to me at this moment in time, it’s too much. It goes in one ear and out the other. It’s no good retraumatising me and telling me something I don’t want to know – in any case, there would be a switch.”
Kim has good reason to fear learning about her past as it’s possible that if she acquires too much information, she won’t be able to cope and will “disappear”. It’s happened twice before. (omega)
This is where it gets really weird – for Kim isn’t Kim at all. The personality I am interviewing is Patricia and it is she who manages her and Aimee’s lives, but Patricia wasn’t always the dominant personality. Before Patricia took over, Bonny held the fort and two years previous to Bonny, it was Hayley.
Kim watches me closely as she explains: “You see Kim is just the ‘house’, the body. There isn’t a ‘Kim’ at all – she has completely split. So we answer to the name Kim but really I am Patricia. When people call us ‘Kim’ I suppose many of us just assume it’s a nickname, but once people know you they don’t use your name very often in conversation.”
Of the 20 or so personalities who share “Kim”, some are easily identifiable: there is 15-year-old Judy who is anorexic and bulimic, maternal Bonny, religious Salome, depressed Ken, sensible Hayley, Dawn, Patricia and elective mute MJ. There are also a handful of children “frozen” in time. A few of the alters know about the DID but many are unaware – or refuse to accept it.
“Judy doesn’t believe in the DID,” explains Kim. “She’s only a teenager and she calls our therapist a nutter when she tries to explain it to her. She’s so young, she doesn’t even think Aimee is her daughter. She knows about me and she thinks that I’m a terrible mother because I’m always leaving Aimee. To her, it’s totally normal to keep coming and going. She probably thinks that you come and go too.”
There are certain “triggers” that can force a change and gradually Kim has learnt what they are in order to avoid them – but it doesn’t stop her switching up to three or four times a day.”
– The Independent, “Kim Noble, a Woman Divided”
Let’s look at some of the works created by some of Kim Noble’s alters as they each provide a different look at the shady world of Monarch programming. Regular readers of the Vigilant Citizen might realize that a lot of the symbolism found in Noble’s paintings are also found in popular culture.
Warning: Several of these paintings depict disturbing scenes which might not be suitable for young or sensitive readers.
Bonny, who was Kim’s “dominant” alter for a few years, is a warm and motherly figure. Most of her paintings portray humans as mechanical robots – which is one of the ways one could describe a mind control slave. Other pieces are more directly related to Monarch programming such as this one, aptly titled “I’m Just Another Personality”.
Golden Dawn is the alter that saw the birth her daughter Aimee. However, Dawn believes that Aimee is still a baby and does not recognize the teenage girl that lives with her. The name “Golden Dawn” has a heavy occult connotation as it is the name of an important and powerful secret society that taught Hermetic Kabbalah, astrology, occult tarot, geomancy, and alchemy to its initiates. It held within its ranks prominent occultists such as Arthur Edward Waite and Aleister Crowley. The process of Monarch mind control combines state-of-the-art “science” (if you can call torture “science”) with ancient occultism, whether it be in hermetic theories, kabbalistic symbolism or invocation rituals. It is therefore no surprise that she was given this occult-inspired name.
Her piece entitled “The Naming” visually depicts the process of creating and naming a new alter.
Most of Dawn’s other paintings feature limbless, mannequin-like figures who are subjected to various methods of torture.
The alter “Key” appears to have a profound understanding of the process of mind control and its underlying occult aspect. The name “Key” might refer to terms such as the “Key of the Mysteries” or “Solomon’s Key” as she seemed to have been programmed to understand some of the occult concepts utilized in mind control. Most of this alter’s works describe the programming process as a kabbalistic “Great Work”, with the Tree of Life (the main symbol of the Kaballah) as the main object of focus.
“It Happens” is an extremely detailed work describing the several layers of programming required to traumatize and program a mind control victim. The title “It Happens” is a disabused way of saying that … all of this really happened.
By overlapping the trauma depicted in “It Happens” with occult aspects of “Golden Kabballah”, we get a rather complete idea of the process of mind control. They schematize, with near mathematical precision, a process that is described by authors on mind control such as Fritz Springmeier.
“The Cabala is synonymous with Hermeticism or Hermetic magic. The Cabala was jewish-babylonian magic. The jewish black magicians brought it to Europe. It began to get widespread notice in Europe after Enlightenment period. The great pyramid according to the occult is a symbol of the Cabalistic Tree of Life–the branches of the tree form the four streams or lines to the base of the pyramid. Because the Cabala is the basis of their hermetic magic, Illuminati systems will be fairly consistent in the make of a slave’s internal Tree of Life and Tree of Evil. (…)
The rooms of the tree of life have names. Essentially, every Illuminati hierarchy victim, has the Cabalistic tree of life placed in them. This tree lies below the other trees. The circles that make up the internal Cabalistic Tree of Life are called rooms or quads by the various survivors. Alters can use the internal Tree of Life to work magic internally. It also reminds deeper alters of cult control. The circles of the tree are rooms that can be entered into. Mt. Qabbalah is a figurative mountain in the Cabala.”
– Fritz Springmeier, The Illuminati Formula to Create a Mind Control Slave
This next piece, entitled “Seven Levels” is another highly detailed account of the process of dissociation.
Comprised of several layers, this works depicts, from bottom to top, the “evolution” of a slave from the hell of trauma to the “heavenly” feeling of dissociation. The bottom two layers depict several horrific scenes of trauma. For example, we see in the bottom left corner a pregnant women giving birth to a dead child in a pool of blood under disturbing phrases such as “No Life”, “Death” and “Blood Death All Around”. There are also several caged children, others being electroshocked and others hung upside down. Inverted crosses are found all around these two bottom layers, reminding us that these traumatic events are Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA).
All of this trauma, pain and suffering seems to be “channeled” towards the layers above, consisting of a plethora of occult symbols such as the Tree of Life, the signs of the zodiac and All-Seeing eyes. It is during this occult level that the transformation occurs.
The top layer represents the (only) escape to all this trauma: dissociation. It is represented by an angelic figure rising to the sky. Looking closely however, we see an All-Seeing Eye in the sky, which reminds us that this escape is not true freedom, but a controlled state that has been induced by the handlers.
This alter is a teenage girl who is anorexic. Most of her paintings place a heavy emphasis on the concept of duality – one of the most basic occult concepts exploited by mind control rituals. Duality is an ancient hermetic concept which is traditionally represented with the juxtaposition of the colors black and white, as with the Masonic checkerboard pattern or the symbol of the Ying Yang.
Judy’s works often give a prominent place to the Masonic checkerboard floor, the surface on which occult rituals and ceremonies take place in secret societies. She was probably heavily exposed to the concept of duality (good girl vs evil girl – something that is also found in popular culture) and the symbol of the checkered floor was probably physically used during programming.
The paintings made by Ria Pratt are the most graphic and disturbing but also the most revealing. The alter believes she is a 12 year old girl and has vivid recollections of the trauma she has been subjected to, whether it be physical or dehumanizing. Simply watching these paintings is a difficult experience – it is further disheartening to realize that she actually lived these situations.
Although Kim Noble enjoyed some mainstream exposure, the true source of the artist’s condition – Monarch programming – is nowhere to be found in mass media. Analyzed in its entirety, Noble’s body of work describes a highly organized and complex system that appears to hold great amounts of knowledge- occult and scientific – as well as material resources. This system also appears to literally own humans, mostly children, who are abused and traumatized to create within them programmable alter personas. The fact that no newspapers dared to investigate (or even mention) anything related to MK-Ultra, a program that was proved to use the exact techniques described in the paintings, tells volumes about the power of those operating it. The soulless handlers depicted in Noble’s paintings are not lone psychopaths, but high level officials of the Illuminati system who enjoy media immunity. In fact, they are sometimes part of the media as the worlds of the entertainment business and Monarch programming often collude.
Partly for this reason, the symbolism used during Monarch programming has spilled over to the mainstream entertainment business. Some of the world’s biggest stars are products of mind control. The same symbols used in the programming of Monarch slaves is sent to the world through mass media. High level mind control handlers and slaves (those who have “succeeded” at the various levels of programming) end up operating in show business. Some of our favorite entertainers are nothing more than puppets whose strings are pulled by unseen handlers. These handlers are “unseen” to most, but they certainly make themselves “seen” through the symbolism placed in the media.
Many of the symbols described on this site directly originate from the shady world of Monarch programming, which uses a complex system of occult images and powerful triggers. Although most of us are fortunate enough not to live through the hell endured by these MK slaves, we are still subject to a form of programming using movies, television, music and other forms of mass media. Those who operate behind the scenes attempt to slowly normalize their existence and their depraved behavior. Sadly, the reality is sicker than the fiction.
[NOTE: BELOW IS PART OF THE ARTICLE FROM THE ABOVE LINK: http://vigilantcitizen.com/hidden-knowledge/origins-and-techniques-of-monarch-mind-control/ ]
Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control
By VC on December 12, 2012
Monarch Programming is a method of mind control used by numerous organizations for covert purposes. It is a continuation of project MK-ULTRA, a mind-control program developed by the CIA, and tested on the military and civilians. The methods are astonishingly sadistic (its entire purpose is to traumatize the victim) and the expected results are horrifying: The creation of a mind-controlled slave who can be triggered at anytime to perform any action required by the handler. While mass media ignores this issue, over 2 million Americans have gone through the horrors of this program. This article looks at the origins of Monarch programming and some of its methods and symbolism.
Monarch programming is a mind-control technique comprising elements of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) and Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD). It utilizes a combination of psychology, neuroscience and occult rituals to create within the slaves an alter persona that can be triggered and programmed by the handlers. Monarch slaves are used by several organizations connected with the world elite in fields such as the military, sex slavery and the entertainment industry. This article will look at the origins of Monarch programming, its techniques and its symbolism.
Although the admitted goals of the projects were to develop torture and interrogation methods to use on the country’s enemies, some historians asserted that the project aimed to create “Manchurian Candidates”, programmed to perform various acts such as assassinations and other covert missions.
“What I can say is I now believe that ritual-abuse programming is widespread, is systematic, is very organized from highly esoteric information which is published no-where, has not been on any book or talk show, that we have found it all around this country and at least one foreign country.
People say, “What’s the purpose of it?” My best guess is that the purpose of it is that they want an army of Manchurian Candidates, ten of thousands of mental robots who will do prostitution, do movies, smuggle narcotics, engage in international arms smuggling, all sorts of very lucrative things, and do their bidding and eventually the megalomaniacs at the top believe they’ll create a Satanic Order that will rule the world”. [4. D. Corydon Hammond, Ph.D]
The victim/survivor is called a “slave” by the programmer/handler, who in turn is perceived as “master” or “god.” About 75% are female, since they possess a higher tolerance for pain and tend to dissociate more easily than males. Monarch handlers seek the compartmentalization of their subject’s psyche in multiple and separate alter personas using trauma to cause dissociation.
The following is a partial list of these forms of torture:
1. Abuse and torture
2. Confinement in boxes, cages, coffins, etc, or burial (often with an opening or air-tube for oxygen)
3. Restraint with ropes, chains, cuffs, etc.
5. Extremes of heat and cold, including submersion in ice water and burning chemicals
6. Skinning (only top layers of the skin are removed in victims intended to survive)
8. Blinding light
9. Electric shock
10. Forced ingestion of offensive body fluids and matter, such as blood, urine, feces, flesh, etc.
11. Hung in painful positions or upside down
12. Hunger and thirst
13. Sleep deprivation
14 Compression with weights and devices
15. Sensory deprivation
16. Drugs to create illusion, confusion, and amnesia, often given by injection or intravenously
17. Ingestion or intravenous toxic chemicals to create pain or illness, including chemotherapy agents
18. Limbs pulled or dislocated
19. Application of snakes, spiders, maggots, rats, and other animals to induce fear and disgust
20. Near-death experiences, commonly asphyxiation by choking or drowning, with immediate resuscitation
22. Forced to perform or witness abuse, torture and sacrifice of people and animals, usually with knives
23. Forced participation in slavery
24. Abuse to become pregnant; the fetus is then aborted for ritual use, or the baby is taken for sacrifice or enslavement
25. Spiritual abuse to cause victim to feel possessed, harassed, and controlled internally by spirits or demons
26. Desecration of Judeo-Christian beliefs and forms of worship; dedication to Satan or other deities
27. Abuse and illusion to convince victims that God is evil, such as convincing a child that God has abused her
28. Surgery to torture, experiment, or cause the perception of physical or spiritual bombs or implants
29. Harm or threats of harm to family, friends, loved ones, pets, and other victims, to force compliance
30. Use of illusion and virtual reality to confuse and create non-credible disclosure [8. Ellen P. Lacter, Ph.D., Kinds of Torture Endured in Ritual Abuse and Trauma-Based Mind Control]
“The basis for the success of the Monarch mind-control programming is that different personalities or personality parts called alters can be created who do not know each other, but who can take the body at different times. The amnesia walls that are built by traumas, form a protective shield of secrecy that protects the abusers from being found out, and prevents the front personalities who hold the body much of the time to know how their System of alters is being used. The shield of secrecy allows cult members to live and work around other people and remain totally undetected. The front alters can be wonderful Christians, and the deeper alters can be the worst type of Satanic monster imaginable–a Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde effect. A great deal is at stake in maintaining the secrecy of the intelligence agency or the occult group which is controlling the slave. The success rate of this type of programming is high but when it fails, the failures are discarded through death. Each trauma and torture serves a purpose. A great deal of experimentation and research went into finding out what can and can’t be done. Charts were made showing how much torture a given body weight at a given age can handle without death.” [9. Springmeier, op. cit.]
“Due to the severe trauma induced through ECT, abuse and other methods, the mind splits off into alternate personalities from the core. Formerly referred to as Multiple Personality Disorder, it is presently recognized as Dissociative Identity Disorder and is the basis for MONARCH programming. Further conditioning of the victim’s mind is enhanced through hypnotism, double-bind coercion, pleasure-pain reversals, food, water, sleep and sensory deprivation, along with various drugs which alter certain cerebral functions”. [10. Patton, op. cit.]
Dissociation is thus achieved by traumatizing the subject, using systematic abuse and using terrifying occult rituals. Once a split in the core personality occurs, an “internal world” can be created and alter personas can be programmed using tools such as music, movies (especially Disney productions) and fairy tales. These visual and audio aids enhance the programming process using images, symbols, meanings and concepts. Created alters can then be accessed using trigger words or symbols programmed into the subject’s psyche by the handler. Some of the most common internal images seen by mind control slaves are trees, Cabalistic Tree of life, infinity loops, ancient symbols and letters, spider webs, mirrors, glass shattering, masks, castles, mazes, demons, butterflies, hour glasses, clocks and robots. These symbols are commonly inserted in popular culture movies and videos for two reasons: to desensitize the majority of the population, using subliminals and neuro-linguistic programming and to deliberately construct specific triggers and keys for base programming of highly-impressionable MONARCH children. [11. Ibid.] Some of the movies used in Monarch programming include The Wizard of Oz, Alice in Wonderland, Pinocchio and Sleeping Beauty .
Levels of Monarch Programming
Regarded as “general” or regular programming, ALPHA is within the base control personality. It characterized by extremely pronounced memory retention, along with substantially increased physical strength and visual acuity. Alpha programming is accomplished through deliberately subdividing the victims personality which, in essence, causes a left brain-right brain division, allowing for a programmed union of Left and Right through neuron pathway stimulation.
BETA is referred to as “sexual” programming (slaves). This programming eliminates all learned moral convictions and stimulates the primitive instinct, devoid of inhibitions. “Cat” alters may come out at this level. Known as Kitten programming, it is the most visible kind of programming as some female celebrities, models, actresses and singers have been subjected to this kind of programming. In popular culture, clothing with feline prints often denote Kitten programming.
DELTA is known as “killer” programming and was originally developed for training special agents or elite soldiers (i.e. Delta Force, First Earth Battalion, Mossad, etc.) in covert operations. Optimal adrenal output and controlled aggression is evident. Subjects are devoid of fear and very systematic in carrying out their assignment. Self-destruct or suicide instructions are layered in at this level.
THETA – Considered to the “psychic” programming. Bloodliners (those coming from multi-generational Satanic families) were determined to exhibit a greater propensity for having telepathic abilities than did non-bloodliners. Due to its evident limitations, however, various forms of electronic mind control systems were developed and introduced, namely, bio-medical human telemetry devices (brain implants), directed-energy lasers using microwaves and/or electromagnetics. It is reported these are used in conjunction with highly-advanced computers and sophisticated satellite tracking systems. [13. Patton, op. cit.]
So today is World Meteorology Day and Be a Millionaire Day; I’m not in the mood to talk about the former (although it seems the day was indented for the sake of unity in uniform measurement – which I’m not necessarily into), not even astronomy or cosmology so I’m going for the latter.
I always figured “if I had the money” and since I’m not a prick or greedy that means a lot less than a million (but still sky high nigh almost impossible or at least astronomical in odds to the likes of me) I’d be doing more than just consistently evaluating my lifestyle, trying to live by example and helping. Like many I figured I’d “do more” but more what? Ok I’ve had many ‘standout’ ideas on top of the default more giving/donation, more teaching, more environmentally friendly, more DIY (mum and I have always makeshifted well and our energy use tiny but having as many engineering, building, carpentry, tailoring, plumbing, mechanic skills is always better in this world) etc but in the last 7-ish years I was inspired by an eatery brand layout called EV (part of a chain called Taz).
The layout consists of three eateries next to each other; a salad bar cum health shop where they make fresh bread, pastries, cakes and of course loads of different salads (Anatolian, Turkish, Lebanese style so not the boring or artery clogging condiment or digestive rotting meat or lacto egg heavy Western types many think of as ‘salad’ – or even ‘veg’ which just tends to be side or individual & few types of vegetables, not creative or interesting let alone healthy…) Next to that is the restaurant and next to that the bar – so an environment for different moods, settings and times. All had great bright and airy yet intimate interiors; the salad bar was more ‘Earthy’ with gorgeous wooden furniture and rustic colours, the restaurant more chic and classy yet still continuing with the trailing plants (and frog art hmm) and the bar more contemporary but all had traditional details incorporated really well (and a modern ‘Moroccan-esque’ bathroom).
So basically I figured I liked the different functions of each place but really interested in the salad/health bar and bakery. I’d make one (with different interiors – can’t copy lol – though I haven’t thought of them) even more functional. I’d try to keep the holistic feel and would use the place as a ‘soup kitchen’ in ‘closing time’ but obviously wouldn’t turn down homeless in regular hours and would have a special discount service with delivery for local people such as the elderly, less mobile and nurseries/pre-schools. Obviously the place would be vegan and would have to based in an area to grow and access the kind of variety you find in ‘ethnic’ areas where small supermarkets and markets easily outdo and outsell the big chain supermarkets when it comes to fruit, veg, herbs, nuts and seeds (and in much bigger sizes from fresh to preserved). I remember Turkish shops selling various olives considered delicacies even in London – not the rubbery, small, almost bland, pitted or badly preserved ones found on standard pizzas et al – for £4 and then later £5 a kilo and yes I bought’em in bulk and they lasted months and then shock horror! At one of the temporary outdoor exhibition/foodie fests at the Southbank (posh side) they were selling them for £20 a kilo!!! Even the more common stuffed ones! 😮 They had the audacity to say because they were selling by weight it was fair and people agreed with them! So a portion of olives costs you £6 quid… I’m not even going on to the preserved ginger.
I’m thinking the growing area might be turned into or extended to a community organic scheme so people can help grow the food as well as their own subsidized or free. I wanted to have more than just the ‘soup kitchen’ element i.e. a hostel too for both temp and longer term stay and maybe assistance to independence but maybe I’m thinking too big and expensive *sigh*. Oh well better to daydream, plan and do good things than the usual waking and sleeping nightmares.
Great song, great film though I wouldn’t spend it stupidly on the big house(s) which are fun but I only think of them as ok when thinking about everybody having them (I already picked one or two out in a one of award posts previously but prefer cob houses or homes built into the landscape not plonked on top it ‘I’m the king of the castle’ style – those are only really nice for looking at and design interest), or walk heck live-in boutique like closets, masses of media and ‘toys’, vehicles etc of the brain cell damaged and generally mentally challenged control freaks. It’s uplifting and helpful to look stylish/attractive but it has to have REAL substance, it has to be ethical and have meaning. I like brains, beauty, brawn and brilliance – not the bimbo way of life, survival or showing off and neediness.
For some reason I thought of posting this today, it’s a piece I wrote years ago on Sleep Paralysis. I had to find it first as I hadn’t read it since I posted it and then I saw the date I wrote it: 24th May 2003. Why am I not surprised? It’s been exactly 11 years.
The video below is confusing out of context, but it’s like the anime Hell Girl where the victims are pushed into killing those who’ve victimized them and are then seen as sinners and are forced to suffer because killing or retribution/being vigilante is seen as wrong in culture unless it’s deemed acceptable such as killing in war or for ‘food’. It’s not the same as victims turning into victimizers but it’s portrayed that way. That’s why she says “to fight evil in all it’s shapes and forms…” she can use killers to destroy Evil but not real sinners to fight sinners as she goes on to say “you need not fear us unless you are a darkheart, a vile one who preys on the innocent…“.
Remember anything/one that’s been microchipped can be controlled/interfered with and don’t confuse innoculations with vaccinations, fillings/pills etc with medicine or ‘help’ e.g. chipping pets. Ever wonder about tinnitus and why it doesn’t go away by covering/blocking the ears? The air is filled with sounds you can’t hear and waves you can’t consciously feel all the time en masse, honestly think you’re not affected?
Anyway, here it is unedited:
Have you ever been TRAPPED in sleep… 24.05.2003
Advantages: None, unless you learn to master lucid dreaming from it though
Disadvantages: See op
I was going to post this as a poem but decided that it and/or I may be of possible help to anyone who actually does suffer from this. I will describe it as basically as possible otherwise I might confuse or write a novel – both being undesirable :). This is a topic that is very important to me and I have studied it at great length and detail over the past 8 years, so don’t worry I shouldn’t be too inaccurate :), I just hope I don’t’ forget anything too important because there is just so much to say!
WHAT IS SLEEP PARALYSIS?
It is a sleeping ‘condition’ that usually occurs during states of half consciousness, meaning when the subject is half awake either literally just before falling into full on sleep or just before waking up. (However, it’s been known to occur during sleep in very severe cases or to certain people and then normal dreams can follow.) Even though there has been much research there is no concrete explanation for it and no real cure, sometimes it is down to the individual and their own will power to fight it. In contrast to popular belief it is not a symptom of Narcolepsy. Sleep Paralysis is literally what it is called – a state in which the person can not move, talk, in some cases barely see visually (as the eyelids are half closed and one has to seriously struggle to attempt to open them but it wont work) and also rarely it is hard to breathe. One other rare aspect that can happen is a ‘buzzing’ in your head where it feels like your whole head is vibrating painfully and that can spread throughout the limbs but again I stress, this is only in advanced and severe cases. It is usually found in mild cases that all subjects were usually sleeping on their back but in more advanced situations the subject can be sleeping in any position. Sleep Paralysis is the condition where one is literally physically ‘trapped’ in sleep.
HOW FREQUENT IS IT AND HOW LONG DOES IT LAST?
According to most research SP starts in the teenage years, usually after 10 years of age and practically never after 30; it tends to decline after the early twenties but many people still experience it mildly now and then every few years. However, in cases where the subject is more prone to these periods, it can be much more frequent. Sometimes, everyday/night and more then once whilst asleep. They can last anywhere from seemingly a few seconds to a half an hour. Sometimes one can ‘feel’ them coming on during sleep and quickly wake oneself up to escape them. However, it is not so easily evaded, sufferers of SP will know that one feels literally ‘pulled’ back into sleep so if you manage to wake up and feel as if you are about to fall back into deep sleep – DON’T! I’m serious, it’s very, very hard to stay awake when being pulled back into sleep, it’s physically hard because you are so exhausted already so I would suggest immediately jumping out of bed if you can manage and listening to loud music or washing your face, sometimes a drink helps too. The majority of the population will never even realise they have experienced it mildly but for the few who have it bad, it can and does have major effects on their lives and lifestyles.
WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENS DURING SP?
Now this is the million-dollar question, the really horrid part… scared yet?
Ok, there a number of things that can happen during SP alongside the actual paralysis, buzzing, partial blindness and lack of breath that is. What one has to remember that SP is very much a physical and psychological condition, both affecting each other equally like a cycle. SP is the condition in which many people experience ‘hallucinations’ but get this people, these aren’t your regular hallucinations that people self induce with drugs, no way, no how *rolls eyes*. This is serious; it’s practically like reality just in the sleep state. These ‘visions’ are very much ‘real’ to the person and can become more real in advanced cases so to speak, I shall explain. In many cases people can experience ‘waking up’ in the dream and everything is as normal as it would be if you had actually woken up, you may see your partner next to you, get up to go to the bathroom or even talk to people but NOTE these vital signs: there is no electricity, try to flick a switch – it wont work – I assure you that is THE BEST WAY to know you are having an SP episode because sometimes you can go on for ages without even realising. But as soon as you do, or even before as you are ‘walking’ around in you ‘real life vision’ your eyes should be half closed so you are peering through them desperately trying to open them and screaming for help to the people in your vision but they can’t help you, no one can except you – if you feel physically strong enough to force yourself awake. That btw is no easy feat, not in the slightest, it’s hellish and many an occasion its sometimes just easier to lay still in your vision and let it pass no matter how long it takes – this is probably the time where you start praying. HOWEVER, the type of SP I have just described happens in advanced cases where it is linked to Lucid Dreaming hence you are able to ‘move’ and ‘talk’ in the state but not really, only in your head. I shall describe the more common form now.
Regular SP – you can’t move, talk or scream in your vision/sleep period. Try as you might you won’t be able to and damnit, it will hurt trying. This form of SP is most commonly known as the ‘Old Hag Syndrome’ where many people see an old woman sitting on the edge of their bed on their feet or sometimes as an unbearable weight on their chest making it hard to breathe. She may be an old hag and you may think scrawny but honey, nuh-uh, this old gal weighs a ton, you can try to squirm, you can try to push and scream but she ain’t goin’ nowhere. SP is also the condition where many people experience ‘alien abductions and experimentations’, no, it’s not funny for those you who are chuckling – it’s terrifying and traumatic. How would you like to be experimented on in a ‘vision’ but actually FEEL it? See, this is different to the imagination, this FEELS REAL just without the physical scars. In other scenarios many people feel the malevolent presence of menacing spirits/ghosts or what have you in many a case they are just watching, staring and stalking but their presence can be very frightening as they literally appear to be in the room with you. Sometimes, these presences are not so statuesque though… oh yes, they can move and move they do. In many, many cases people have FELT that they were trying to kill them – many a time they have been straddled by these opponents and strangled etc. In other visions, women and men have reported FEELING raped by demons, this is deadly serious because you do FEEL this happening to you, it may be in your mind and not physical but it FEELS physical and it does literally happen to you in your mind and as we feel pain, fear, dread, panic and every other conceivable emotion in the mind it is really like you are being murdered, raped, experimented and watched. Silent now? I know the feeling. The very IMPORTANT part of that is, because you FEEL it happening to you, quite frankly you can and many do develop the psychological complexes that would develop naturally after such an event if it happened in waking reality. Now imagine, this might not even be a single random occurrence, what if it happened every night, over and over again? Can you say Living Hell?
EFFECTS – SIDE EFFECTS – LIFESTYLE ISSUES
1) Obviously, it can leave one very tired, especially if it was a particularly strenuous one that involved much physical tension or if it was long in duration and basically sucked the energy out of you. In most cases taking it easy after you wake up should help and you should fine. In others, this can basically be like chronic sleep deprivation leaving you tired all the time and physically drained. However, the odd thing is, if one hasn’t had one in a while and suddenly has one out of the blue it can have the opposite effect whereby one feels refreshed, alive, invigorated and energised for the day. Very odd, I know but true nonetheless but like I said, this is just initial – it doesn’t last. One is more likely to feel tired and perhaps grouchy afterwards.
2) Being tired all the time can have knock-on effects on your day-to-day life as I probably don’t need to explain as well as mood swings.
3) Headaches, these can happens after a period where one felt difficulty breathing or where the ‘buzzing’ occurred.
4) The psychological effects. I don’t know if I even need to go into these because they are so self-explanatory but I’ll be brief. One ‘dream’ of being killed, raped, experimented on, watched, unable to breathe etc can affect you for a while – one ‘real vision’ can affect you for a LONG while and with frequency and severity, such things just don’t go away. Counselling, medication etc can sometimes be necessary – and just as if it did happen in waking reality, there will be much healing to be done, psychological scars as we all know are the worst and much support, patience and care would be very much appreciated by the subject I’m sure. It’s a sad, sad thing to happen in waking reality, or in these ‘real FELT visions’ – the fear, the absolute terror is very, very real. The emotions are very real just as they would be in any situation, we feel in our minds and this is where the experience is taking place, the assault may not be taking place outside on the street but the emotions are running rampant just as they would if it were. After being ‘raped’ in a vision one would desire a shower straight away just as in real life. I can’t stress the gravity of the situation enough.
5) Appetite – this can either be increased or decreased depending on how you respond to depression, tiredness or general angst.
6) In one documentary I saw on Channel Four years ago, one man became violent in his sleep state, so violent that his wife would grab the baby and run to lock them in themselves in the bathroom at night whenever he had an episode. It became frequent and so he would have to lock himself in the living room before sleep and on the cameras set up beforehand to record him for research, the footage showed him getting up and smashing things, throwing things – general destruction, and he would shout at the same time. All the while he would be oblivious to what he was doing because he was asleep, but sometimes he would remember it the next day. Can you imagine what it felt like for him – he, the husband and father putting his own wife and child at risk whilst he was asleep, and they were at risk from HIM, not some intruder but HIM and he didn’t even know it or couldn’t stop himself. He’s meant to protect them not attack them or put them in danger, talk about serious stress.
6) Most recently I heard that some electronic radiation can cause it, even minimal levels like sleeping right next to an electrical device such as a clock as the vibrations/frequencies are meant to trigger a certain gland in the brain to produce certain chemicals, which in turn induce the state. I’m not quite sure about this particular theory as you can tell, I’m sure it’s perfectly plausible but I don’t know much about it and will have to research it some more.
SUPER BRIEF HISTORY
SP has been a recorded condition since medieval times usually in the form of women being approached sexually in their dreams and being unable to move whilst their visitors ‘pleasured’ them or ‘raped’ them depending on how the assault/seduction was received by the woman. Those alongside the Hag were the most common recordings. However, such a state has been known since way back to the Ancient Egyptians and many other cultures that put it down to indigestion and other such physical aspects affecting people whilst they slept. Up to modern day, many people, doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists alike have dismissed this condition as myth/fantasy and have placed it in the scientific ‘dustbin’ so to speak but hey, they should try telling that to the people who actually experience it, try telling them that their trauma is all unfounded. However, there has been and is much research being carried out on this condition but as yet there is no solid ‘cure’ other then long term medication and counselling as well as experimental techniques. The condition, what causes it, it’s long term effects etc – everything basically – is still very much a mystery to the academic world no matter how informed or detailed the papers/thesis might be, no matter the jargon used and the assumptions based (e.g. this link http://www.stanford.edu/~dement/paralysis.html – they say it’s not harmful and then go on to talk about the anxiety and terror felt HA!) – there are no definite answers yet.
Alright, that is as much as I should really say now since I think I have already written a mini novelette and probably put most of you to sleep – or wait, no, that’s not advisable in this case! Sorry, bad pun *looks ashamed* just trying to add some life :). But seriously, take into account that in most of my description in this op applies from mild to extreme cases. In general, most people are never aware that they may have had an SP episode because it was so mild and momentary, it is only the unfortunate few who experience ‘uphill’ struggles or should I say what feels to be like actual physical battle to wake up and even then they may succeed in ending the vision but only to go into another dream and not waking reality and then perhaps more SP to follow.
Here are two informative links for anyone who may be interested in further reading:
If anyone has any questions about SP don’t hesitate to ask because it is likely that I left out lots of information in my haste, I will gladly answer them to the best of my knowledge or try to refer you to source that might have the info. I’ll just state that I am NOT a professional researcher or advisor in any way whatsoever; let’s just say that I know way too much about this subject, and no – that’s not a good thing. If you think that you suffer from SP (and not just experience it out of hypochondria after reading this op – of which if you do, I apologise in advance) and believe it to be of the more serious kind in comparison to the mild rare occasions then I would suggest consulting your doctor who can then advise you properly. If you do find that you suffer from SP, already know that you do, have in the past, or do in the future; you have my deepest and sincerest sympathies.
Below is a poem that I composed a few months ago describing the basic feeling of non-mild SP in comparison to another occurrence, this time in nature as a metaphor to emphasise the feeling and emotions more clearly. I hope you enjoy it, as morbid as that may sound.
The maelstrom of Sleep Paralysis
A torrent of emotion
A storm of pain, passion and delusion
Thunder and lightening, it’s a hell of fury and confusion
Forever a battlefield of ceaseless confrontation
… Herein lies the maelstrom
I lay there, still and breathless
Seemingly at peace and unnaturally motionless
My head is spinning and delirious
I try to cry but choke instead
I try to scream but my voice is dead
Faster and faster, circling, churning and coughing
Colliding and crashing
Waves of darkness and danger,
Slipping, sliding and smashing
The drowning souls falling in a whirl of hazy devastation
Grasping and pleading, the innocents are left thrashing
Choking on despair and desolation, the water gives them such a lashing
Herein lies the maelstrom
I lie here cold and mentally bleeding
Weary and aware that my will is fleeting
Body bruised and hyperventilating
I try to move but am frozen solid
I try to see but my eyes are blinded, my vision squalid
A vicious beast, foaming at the mouth
Gurgling and spitting as it pulls its victims down south
With its overpowering strength and endless desire
It calls your name in a deathly growl for which only demons can aspire
The mist rising and swirling, dancing to an invisible choir
I try to break free in one last savage attempt
Wishing, hoping and praying for the gods to be benevolent
Alas, with a silent wail for what is futile I begin to lament
Tired beyond words and doomed to failure, I accept fate and despise my destiny
I’m at the end of my rope and can no longer cope, no longer believing in bravery against adversity
The buzzing spin of the cycle begins to slow
The awesome density of the colossal surge gradually loses its flow
All that once existed, all that once lived, is now at the bottom, forgotten, for no one to ever know
All the secrets, treasures and fears of those caught within
Are all apart of the maelstrom, in its belly they now live in
I can feel my head clearing; the pain is subsiding
My sleepless sleep is almost over and the chronic fatigue beginning
I want to regain my senses, I want them back now, to escape this wilderness so cruel and unforgiving
All my efforts must not have been in vain, so I can’t rush and be pulled back into that hell
Patience is a virtue so I must give up, give in, and wait to come to, to be released from my cell
The force of violence retreats as the water calms
As quickly as it came the ferocious monster is gone
But forever imprinted in my mind and embedded in my soul
The scars on my skin and the fear in my heart remain ever so strong
The maelstrom is temporarily dormant, it’s held in quiet suspense
I’m allowed to wake, to move, to feel, but I’m offered no rest as I anxiously wait for the next episode to commence…
… I have no time to recover, but in these few moments, I can only yearn for the cure that they are yet to discover