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Feast of the Beast – Bride/Sacrifice of the beast, rescued.

This post is Pt 2 of my Cinderella post HERE.

Easter is not just a couple of days each year, it’s a procession of events on multiple religious and luni-solar calendars in March/April.

For some reason I thought the Feast of the Beast was an annual event, as part of the usual March/April sacrifices but it seems it’s once every 28 years. The last was was in 2010 and I just ‘happened’ to visit the most important masonic lodge in the UK at that time (someone from work suggested we visit that day).

1982 was the year of the previous Feast of the Beast and coincidentally my birth year, I was 27 turning 28 when I visited in the Grand Lodge which turned to be ‘perfect’ timing given the significance of the numbers 28 and 82 to these people, as explained below. The Grand Lodge in London is on Great Queen Street (notice how it’s not Great King or something masculine) beind Covent/Convent/Covenent Garden previously known as ‘the garden of the Abbey and Convent’. Spring seems to be a thing for me, pretty much all of the voices I’ve heard have been/started in Spring.

The number 28 and 82 importance from the link below:

FEAST OF THE BEAST
By Fritz Springmeier
http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/hardtruth/feast_of_the_beast.htm

In my investigations into the Illuminati, I was provided information from several ex-Illuminati members about an important ritual called The Feast of the Beast. I’ve made references to this ritual occasionally and this attracted some attention by some of my readers. I’ve been asked to write about this ritual over the years, and always found more pressing things to do. My various sources gave their testimony independent of each other and this led me to conclude that the ceremony did indeed exist. A lot of pressure has come down on me, and I felt that I should go ahead and write this article rather than presume that I shall have the chance later.

In simple terms, the Feast of the Beast is a yearlong event that occurs every 28 years and is attended by Illuminati leadership from around the world. It is a very high level ceremony, and would not be recognized at the anarchy ritual level [my comment: the lower levels who think they’re the movers and shakers and decision makers in society] of the Illuminati.

Ritual is very important to Satan, and to the Illuminati. There are a number of reasons to this. One, it provides an excuse to carry out horrible things without having to feel any guilt. A person can explain away things as “It was time for that.” or “That’s the way things are done.” Or, “we must protect these traditions”.

The Feast of the Beast is associated with the number 28 (as well as its reverse 82, and as well as the combination 7 times 4). One of the best books on providing the occult world’s meanings of numbers is Aleister Crowley’s books Gematria and Tables of Correspondences. On page 58 of Crowley’s Table of Correspondences under the Orders of Qliphoth, we’re informed that 28 is the number of the Beast, that is Bahimiron which is Bestial. Crowley also teaches that the number 28 is associated with the unicorn, the peacock, the peacock & the rainbow, artificial glass (& chalcedony which suggests clouds), astrology in general, a number of perfumes such as Rhubarb and Stammonia, and a 3 headed beast (heads of a bull, man & ram) riding a dragon. In his book Gematria, about the numerology of mystic numbers, we are told that in the static universe 28 means power (Netzach, also spelled netsach), and in the world the magician makes it means “My victory, my power.”

(By the way, Netsach is used in the Word of God at 1 CHR 29:11 “Thine, O Lord [YHWH], is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory [netsach], and the majesty…” Netsach means a bright object like a star that one travels toward, it is a shining goal, which has been achieved.)

There is no question that Cabalists view 28 as a very powerful number. Further, when we realize that 28 is also a combination of 7 (perfection) and 4 (also considered completeness or perfection), we can appreciate that 28 on a Magical calendar system is powerful. Accordingly, the Illuminati made note in their rituals in 1982, that 82 is the reversal of 28. According to some, the year long Feast of the Beast occurred in 1982, and the previous one occurred in ’53 or ’54. The next one is to occur in 2009 or 2010.

At the Feast of the Beast, a beautiful bride is trained and presented to Satan, and she may well be a virgin. This ceremony is most likely held at a castle or palace, and is also likely to be held over in Europe for the principle ceremony. Lesser ceremonies may be held here in the states. Witnesses claim that Satan appears and interacts with his human leadership. He provides them with detailed instructions for what he wants done until the next Feast of the Beast. In other words, he provides the top Illuminati hierarchy with their future long-range plans. The actual Feast of the Beast is a yearlong ceremony.

However, there is also a small ceremony performed before the autumn equinox approximately around the 5th to the 7th of September, which is a Marriage to the Beast ceremony, that can also be called The Feast of the Beast. It is a microcosm of the large ceremony. Or perhaps one could call it an imitation. [My comment: it’s Harvest basically, goes with the ‘fertility’/ life and death cycle of the year.]

It was also claimed by one informant that the Feast of the Beast in 1982 was the 13th from 1618, and that the Feast of the Beast in 1618 had been a significant event.

The Illuminati have certain people assigned to focus on spiritual power. Some readers may remember that I have explained that the Collins family was brought into the hierarchy because they were so powerful magically. The Rothschild’s have the financial power, but the Collins family has been very powerful witches. Women are spiritually very powerful in the Illuminati, and some women in the Illuminati are very important in planning and making the rituals successful. I write this because those Illuminati members who are part of the spiritual section of the Illuminati are going to be better informed than other sections (say the political, scientific or financial sections) on ritual background of the Feast of the Beast. The number 28 is said to come from Babylonian magic, the lunar calendar, and a woman’s menstrual cycle.

Ancient Babylon divided their day into 12 hours (each of their hours is two of ours). And each Babylonian hour was divided into 30 minutes (so their minute was 4 of our minutes. The Lunar month was 30 days. Seeing how all these 12’s and 30’s occur, it is not surprising that they used a base 60 numbering system. That means you counted to 60 before you got to 10. This is called a sexagesimal system or base 60 system. I was told that the number 28 played a role in the Babylonian calendar but what it was is not clear to me. Anyway, it is likely the number 28 has occult connotations that go back to Babylonian magic. The powerful Rothschild’s love Babylonian magic, so it is no surprise that witnesses have seen the leadership of this bloodline at the Feast of the Beast ceremonies.

This has been a look at one of the most important secret Illuminati ceremonies, a ceremony based on Babylonian and Cabalistic Gematria, where important policy is planned, and having as its participants Satan (who appears as a man/shape shifting reptile) and the leadership of the Illuminati.

I visited a library in the Grand Lodge and was espied by someone who found me interesting. When it comes to masonic symbolism there are three main levels depicted; the gate/outer wall, the inner and the temple/house/city whatever imagery (the mountain/pyramid/triangle and inner levels is going further). The man who saw me met met afterwards and said “you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve seen here, who are you?” I didn’t answer and left, then I saw him in my dreams. We were outside the gates of a lodge and he asked me again who I was, I can’t remember what I said to him before I just slipped through the gates easily as I’ve always done, past the main door and into the inner sanctum. You see it doesn’t matter whether you’re a member or not or what level you think you are, the Earth was made not made to be sectioned off nor given political boundaries. You can not tell a part of the Earth* that some are welcome and some are not from the indigenous and expect the Earth to comply, you have to alter the landscape and build divisions to forcibly keep creatures in and out, then have enforcement to give yourselves authority to decide who can pass. The same goes for ‘spiritual’ or ‘other physical’ layers which many masonic buildings represent or an eruv for example, anyone can pass through as long as they’re capable or enabled by a higher level. So whilst he was left outside the gates, clinging to them and calling to me I went through and have always done in any simulation as well whether floors/ceilings, doors, walls, windows, barriers, stairs, lifts (remember how Alice got through the door/wall to get to Wonderland) or whatever are used.

That said, he didn’t give up straight away. I saw him again once or twice, the most vivid time I was dress in a White gown in what looked like a forest or woodland somewhere on a path/dirt road and apparently I was in danger from some kind of beast, when in this damsel in distress scenario he suddenly like a knight in shining armour. He grabbed me in his arms and swept me into the air carrying me over a hole in the ground (I’ve been in similar situations before like huge holes in the ground surrounded by steep spiraling stairs, usually I get myself out) thus saving me from the beast, whatever it represented. I really hate these theatrical games, but masons and their employees love them so and have embedded them into law from falsifying lore.

*any section above, in between or below us and remember it is not actually ‘as above so below’ i.e. us mere mortals going through what the ‘gods’ ‘above’ are experiencing (remember not all of them live above or in space) they choose through their minions what it is we go through.

Possible Annual ‘Feast of the Beast’?:

Occult Holidays and Sabbats – from http://www.cuttingedge.org/
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/cienciareal/cienciareal20.htm

2. Spring Equinox – 13 weeks – Minor sabbath but does require human sacrifice
a. March 21-22 – Goddess Ostara – Note: Easter is the first Sunday after the first new moon after Ostara. March 21 is one of the Illuminati’s Human Sacrifice Nights
b. April 1 – All Fool’s Day, precisely 13 weeks since New Year’s Day!
c. April 19 – May 1 – Blood Sacrifice To The Beast. Fire sacrifice is required on April 19.
d. April 30 – May 1 – Beltaine Festival, also called Walpurgis Night. This is the highest day on the Druidic Witch’s Calendar. May 1 is the Illuminati’s second most sacred holiday. Human sacrifice is required

Possible Apocalypse ‘Feast of the Beast’?:

http://www.texemarrs.com/032017/feast_of_beast.htm

In the Gospels we are told that Jesus our Lord has prepared a future great marriage supper, or feast, of the Lamb. Invited will be all who believe in Christ Jesus. It will be a glorious time of celebration and fellowship.

In Judaism, Jesus is despised and he and his followers are cursed. Instead of the marriage supper of the Lamb, the Jews say there will come a great Feast of Leviathan. At this Feast, the Jews will, it is claimed, literally be served a great sea serpent beast, the Leviathan. Righteous Jews will eat of this Beast while Gentiles, simultaneously, are punished. Those who agree to give the Jews all their wealth and possessions will be spared. However, even the Gentiles who do this will be forced to become slaves of Jewish Masters. Those who refuse will be beheaded. They must die.

Feast of Leviathan

This great Feast of Leviathan—I call it the Feast of the Beast in my new book—will take place on the Jewish Day of Purification. Other prophetic events will also transpire on the Day of Purification. The Holy Serpent of the Jews will crown the Jews as “gods” and reward them the entire earth as their fiefdom. They will be collective rulers of the world, so powerful that no-one will dare oppose them. Furthermore, on that Day, evil and good shall be united. That is, good shall become evil and evil good.

The Holy Serpent, as I carefully document in my explosive new book, Holy Serpent of the Jews, is Leviathan. He is worshipped by many Talmudic and Kabbalistic rabbis as their Deity. Leviathan is the One to whom many Jews pray. They believe he is the Light of the World, the Most Holy. It is the Holy Serpent that gives the Jews their miraculous power to conquer all other peoples and subjugate them.

Gods and Goddesses

Tree of Life

Tree of Life

In their Tree of Life, as depicted in the Kabbalah, the Holy Serpent is woven throughout. He reigns over all the deities, including the Mother Goddess, Binah, and the Daughter Princess, Malkuth. He enjoys sex with both the Mother and the Daughter and thus regenerates the earth. All the deities in the Tree of Life are his divine sparks, and the Jews often pray to the individual deities.

For readers who are unaware of the multiplicity of gods and goddesses in Judaism, what I report here may seem incredible. Nevertheless, it is true. The Jews have many deities but, for convenience, they group these deities together. The Jews, in their successful attempts to deceive the curious among the Gentiles, slyly evade their questions. Remember, in the Talmud, the Jews book of Law, the Jews are warned not to reveal its teachings. To reveal these things to a Gentile, warns the Talmud, is punishable by death.

Their Serpent God and Angel of Help

The Jews’ Holy Serpent is to ordain the deadly Feast of the Beast. His name is Leviathan, and Rabbi Michael Higger, in his fascinating book, The Jewish Utopia, speaks of Leviathan, the “piercing serpent.” Interestingly, the Jews choose Leviathan as their “God” and companion, even as their “Angel of Help.”
They do so in spite of—or perhaps because of—the fact that Job 41:34 proclaims that Leviathan is king of the proud: “He beholdeth all high things: he is a king over all the children of pride.”

The Holy Bible tells us that Satan is father over the arrogant and the proud and that it is the meek that shall inherit the earth. Jesus looks for a humble heart. He abhors the prideful. But the Jews’ religion in vastly different, and they believe their pride shall gain for them their kingdom when that momentous Day of Purification arrives.

Destiny of the Children of Pride

As Jesus testified to the Jews, “Ye serpents, ye generation of vipers, how can ye escape the damnation of hell?” (Matthew 23:33) Thus, in my revealing new book, Feast of the Beast, I convincingly prophesy the future fate of the people whom God identifies as the “Children of Pride.” God says that they and their Serpent King shall suffer a horrible torment in hell. We read in Isaiah 27:1:

“In that day the Lord with his sore and great and strong sword shall punish leviathan the crooked serpent; and he shall slay the dragon that is in the sea.”

Why would they eat their god? Unless of course to get power like those who purposely invoke ‘others’ to have sex with but either way that’s not the actions of a devotee/worshipper, it’s that of someone who wants something like most people who when they worship something/one they usually ask for a blessing/prosperity/help and in more extreme cases there’s sex magick (which is also in religions).

Remember, when thinking about the leviathan one should think of the behemoth. In some circles the bethemoth was/is masculine and the leviathan feminine (even though you don’t oft find reference to the leviathan’s sex). What I don’t agree with is that the leviathan and the behemoth will fight to the death at the end of time nor that since they’re alike that only the leviathan is related to ‘Satan’ but then the bible does confuse ‘devil’ vs ‘satan’ (terms which have their roots in pre-Vedic ‘Hinduism’) and ‘lucifer’ types of ‘angels’ and other species. Apparently the behemoth was separated from the leviathan at the beginning of creation such as Ialdabaoth from Sophia (when he claimed to the be the creator) in Gnosticism who was later called Samuel who some think of as ‘Satan’ in the bible. Or the later (but based on earlier) four classical great novels of China where a character called the Monkey King or the Sun King (typical – a male ‘sun’ deity seen as the highest god) acts like he’s greater than Buddha and then has to travel to India for ‘Buddhist’ scrolls.* By separating the behemoth from the leviathan it’s easy to call one masculine and the other feminine and in the apocalypse both will come together to kill each other becoming ‘nothing’ or ‘one’ again so in a way two sexes coming together [again] to make a single sex, androgyny. That does tie into root cultures that claim in the beginning there were only females or feminine creatures and they were divided to make female and male and in current times people are looking to artificial intelligence and singularity. Many like to think we’re in the end times.

However both creatures are seen as monsters, like the division of land and sea i.e. the separation, shifting, rise and fall of the continents one is a sea creature and one a land animal, so why is one seen as related to ‘Satan’ and not the other and why given that both creatures are destructive (which is seen as bad in the bible unless ‘God’ is doing it) is the leviathan/female considered evil? Demonizing the feminine and typically making it serpentine and serpents/snakes as evil such as the snake in the Garden of Eden and the separation of the sexes their i.e. most commonly Eve being made from Adam’s side. There is confusion there with the snake representing knowledge and wisdom with evil, or older goddesses with the newer form of ‘the’ ‘devil’/’Satan’. (Sidenote – for those who think ‘Satan’ is reptile though it represented by both remember that snakes and reptilians are different races though there is crossover and snakes are not always seen as evil whereas reptilians generally are. Snakes are often associated with ancient goddesses and gods whether ‘good’ or ‘bad’.)

*Budda the person is based on an Indian noble who sought to extend the version of Hinduism at the time to the East and somehow he came the centralized fat male Buddha we see today even though it is actually female and based on on the Taras and Mahavidyas from pre-Vedic ‘Hinduism’ (an assortment of Indian subjects that later became modern/post-Vedic Hinduism). He and those who helped him did a great job on continuing masculine monotheism.

French Connection?

Today is ‘Go For Broke’ day in the USA and whilst I’ve been wondering about my life it seemed as good a day as any to write this.

I hear voices and those voices have multiple personalities in a very virtual reality way. This started 24/7 after some voices/characters came ‘out’ of a dream and spoke to me claiming to be “4th dimensional entities” and proceeded to go ‘into’ my head and installed a ‘surveillance system’ “to prove we love you/care about you” and the word ‘QUEEN’ flashed in the top of my mind. One said “I feel like a quasi-necrophile”.

I started hearing voices and seeing things much earlier though; the voices:
1) Feb/April 2009 – Paris as written about HERE.
2) 2013 – A dream or vision of an old French friend I had in primary school but all grown up and arguing with others about bringing me to France.
3) March/April 2014 – We ended up living on the Solent right opposite France. A voice telling me it would help me financially and then I won £600 just enough to pay that months rent/utilities.
4) Feb 2015 – Three White looking fleurs-de-lis sigils (French for ‘lily’ meaning I/Eye/Iris/Lily/Lotus and common in French heraldry) were left where we were living whilst we were out. They’re iridescent and shimmer in Pink, Green, Blue and Purple. As written about HERE. We’ve often found things moved or missing but not usually added once we found a guru sigil on the inside door step and two big, wool blankets in the bin before we moved in; one Red with a tiger, the other Green with what I thought was a tulip and a random group of people outside calling me ‘Tiger Lily’ afterwards. As written about HERE. Another place we stayed someone left a chess Black Queen figure, a playing card and two jasper stones.
5) April 2015 – a voice telling me not to be so picky and speed up editing a review I was writing.
6) March 2016 – dreams, voices, visions 24/7 from people/beings that call themselves ‘fourth dimensional entities’.

Since then I have had all sorts of government, international institutions, scientific, investment, energy, news networks look at my blog, some of which included in the list below. I would like to know how to go about removing/dealing with the voices/visions from these ‘entities’. They consistently ask me who/what I am. That’s the million dollar (a gold necklace anyone) question. I’m just me, plain old me, human and proud of it.

WORLD GOVERNMENT BODIES:
Foreign And Commonwealth Office
United Nations HQ – New York
World Health Organization – Geneva
Department Of The Interior, Office Of The Secretary – Denver, Colorado
House of Commons – UK
State of Washington
State of New Jersey
US Dept of Defense Network
National Health Service (NHS) – UK
Irish Government
Northern Ireland Civil Service
Center for American Progress – Washington D.C
City of Pasadena – California
Centre De Traduction Des Organes De L Union Europe (Translation Centre of the bodies of Europe Union) – Luxembourg
Defense – Georgia US
Transport For London
Department of Agriculture and Food – Western Australia
Oklahoma Office of Management and Enterprise Service
Lafayette Consolidated Government – US
New York City Health & Hospitals Corporation
POST Luxembourg
The City & County Of Swansea – UK
State Of North Dakota Ltd
Information Society S.a – Greece

TECHNOLOGY:
Tenet Scientific Production Enterprise Llc – Ukraine
The Boeing Company – California
Lockheed Martin Corporation – Denver, Colorado AND Fairfield, Connecticut AND Texas
National Aeronautics And Space Administration – NASA – Alabama US
Max-planck-institut Fuer Kernphysik – Max Planck Institute for Nuclear Physics Germany
Lembaga Penerbangan Dan Antariksa Nasional (Lapan)- Indonesian Government National Institute of Aeronautics and Space
Mobile Aerospace Engineering – Alabama US
Institute of Mathematics and Informatics – Lithuania
Karisruhe Institute of Technology – Germany
Wuttisak Pharmacy Co ltd – Thailand
Aerovironment – California
Computer Sciences Corporation – Australia
Institutul Național de Cercetare Dezvoltare în Informatică (National Institute for Research and Development in Informatics) – Romania
Bae Systems Applied Intelligence US Corp
FMC Corporation (Central Engingeering Laboratories) Government Affairs – Virginia, US
Leidos – Technology for Defense, Intel, Homeland, Civil & Health – Virginia, US
Afghantelecom Government Communication Network – Apo Armed Forces Europe, US
Research Machines – UK
Hewlett-Packard Company
CNRS Centre De Calcul De L’in2p3 – The National Center for Scientific Research – France
Cisco Systems Ironport Division – US

ENERGY:
Manitoba Hydro International – Canada
Hurricane Electric – Netherlands
Philadelphia Gas Works
Ngy Energy – US
Power Grid Corporation Of India Limited
DEFRA (Department for Environment, Food & Rural Affairs) – UK

MEDIA:
Disney Worldwide Services – London AND Los Angeles
NbcUniversal
Springer Science and Business Media BV – Netherlands
Nielsen Media Research
Russian Central Telegraph – Moscow
ITV Plc – London
Facebook HQ – California
Al-jazeera – Doha-based state-funded broadcaster owned by the Al Jazeera Media Network, which is partly funded by the House of Thani, the ruling family of Qatar.
Sc Lithuanian Radio And Tv Center
Youtube LLC

UNIVERSITIES/EDUCATION/RESEARCH:
Oxford University
Harvard University
King’s College London
Yale University
Cambridge University
Chanakya National Law University Patna – India
Leipzig University – Germany
University of Warwick
Orange County Dept of Education – California
London Grid For Learning
Norwegian University of Science and Technology
University College London
Canadian Dept of Education
Edinburgh University
Princeton University
Brown University
Universitaet Der Bundeswehr Muenchen – Military/Applied Sciences University
National Institute of Fashion Technology – India
Boston University – Massachusetts US
Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz Universität Hannover
Monash University – Australia
Indian Institute Of Technology – Roorkee
New York University
California State University
Santa Clara County Office of Education – California
Howard University – Washington D.C
University Of New Mexico Health Sciences Center
Ask4 Limited – UK
Renater – France
University of York
Centre College – Kentucky US
Concordia College – US
Danmarks Tekniske Universitet – Technical University of Denmark
Vanderbilt University – Tennessee US
Florida Agricultural And Mechanical University
Georgetown University – Washington D.C
Queen’s University Belfast
Australian Academic And Research Network
Croatian Academic And Research Network
California Education And Research Federation Network
The Singapore University Of Technology And Design
Nevada System Of Higher Education
Central Methodist University – US
California State University, Office Of The Chancellor
Taiwan Academic Network
The Agency of vocational training and Employment – Belgium
Jisc – UK
New York City Public Schools
Washington School Information Processing Cooperation
New South Wales Dept of Education – Australia

INVESTMENT/FINANCE:
Pricewaterhouse Coopers LLB
Department of Finance – Western Australia
Barclays Capital London
HSBC – Hong Kong
Credit Suisse Group – London
Capital One Financial Corporation – Virginia US
Macquarie Bank Limited
Fidelity Investments
The Berkeley Group Holdings plc – UK
Mercer US – EU division
Allstate Insurance Company – US
Deutsche Bank – Singapore
Willis Group Services Ltd – UK
Accor Hotels (corporation)

FASHION:
Steve Madden (National US fashion chain)
Jacques Moret – New York
Polo Ralph Lauren – Worldwide
Forzani Group Limited – Canada

OTHER:
Royal Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (RSPCA)
The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints – Utah, US
International Livestock Research Institute – Kenya
Fitzpatrick, Cella, Harper And Scinto – US

https://fashionthatpays.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/predators-lust-want-total-control/

In regards to public media the desired ending is always the same, no matter how much truth is in the vehicle e.g. film, song, series, characters etc, no matter how much they’re coded/symbolic. In regards to Momo – the point was to make the Mother figure into the Daughter figure to control her. And for those of you desperate for the ‘French connection’ in my life one of the names is in there.

In the book ‘Lolita’ – Dolores ‘Lo’ ‘Lola’ ‘Dolly’ at 12-years-old (when my ‘grooming’ was ‘activated’ with induced sleep paralysis) is sexually abused and turned into Lolita ‘the perfect lover’ [corrupted form of ancient Indian Ultimate Mother Goddess Creator of All ‘Lalit[h]a’] through the grooming, trauma/confusion/predatory behaviour and then ‘goes off the rails’ (out of the arches/off the train) only to be ‘rescued’ by her abuser/orchestrator/handler/contaminator. She is poignantly his ‘landlady’s’ daughter, and for his plot to work he must become the Father and her demoted in status to his daughter. Dolores/Dolly reminds him of an older/earlier ‘love’ Anna-Bel[l].

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Symptoms So Far

I’m suffering from hearing voices all day everyday and have been hearing them since March. I even hear and see them in my dreams, they’ll talk to me in sleep and continue when I wake up, though they rarely let me sleep. They talk over each other and in layers (even silent layers that I can’t hear) and from all angles/game playing to torture me more. I was even unable to talk for a while because I was so used to their internalized talking and having to be quiet listening to them (similar to the bursts of hysterical laughter I’ve had a few times – I can’t cry either, sometimes both reactions try to happen at once but don’t work).

These things can read my thoughts and feelings so I can’t even think anymore, can’t even hear my own thoughts (it can put my own internal thinking voice on silent as well as changing the volume of theirs), it talks over my thoughts and doesn’t let me finish a thought nor think cohesively. It can also make me hold onto thoughts too long or repeat them.

I’m having many other affects and they gloat about each and every one, sometimes taking me through them in a sequence just to rub it in such as:

1) visions/hallucination, pinprick sensation in the eyes, dry eyes, can manually blur and then clear my vision, move my left eye trying to make it ‘lazy’ and working on my right,

2) reduced hearing, auditory hallucination and most recently ear drums hurt/block, feel like they’re going to burst; can also make false sounds e.g. phone, buzzer, music etc. Keep hearing the wrong words and it’s always dirty associations that they’ve layered in my hearing/whispering whilst another is talking louder. On 4th Oct they actually masked the background sound so well and then cleared up it up again whilst gloating and I realized that my Mum had been talking right next to me for some time and I couldn’t even hear her. 4th Dec 2016 they finally realized they’ve been shouting in my head all year deafening me

3) processing of words/numbers not working properly, if I hear or think a number for example and want to write it down I write incorrectly, repeatedly even though I know what I want to write (vocabulary, spelling, diction, reading and arithmetic vastly decreased, takes ages and repetition to think things through, feel a very heavy mental block/pain). No matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against them to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

4) ‘electroshock’ feeling anywhere in the body through the nervous system, fingers and arms have moved involuntarily a few times, also facial expressions once; I twitch sometimes now as an after effect

5) can talk through me sometimes, trying its best to make think think and feel what its wants (both subliminally and obviously). When they talk to each other one of them pretends to be me so my 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes gets mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me

6) made me forget 3 years of my life (from my late 20’s) and stop me thinking and remembering throughout the day (short and long term forgetfulness and memory loss). It can apply extra pressure to any my thoughts, feelings or movements or even its own voice to hurt my brain and other parts of my body which also makes me forget instantly plus keeps me awake

7) insomnia and when I do manage to sleep, bad dreams, night terrors – sometimes overcome by the need to sleep only to feel awake again as soon as I lay down/try to sleep – been awake for 6 days at a time sometimes. They can also do the opposite – can make me sleepy only to make me feel awake again to taunt me about not sleeping

8) faintness, dizzy, fatigue; has made me collapse a few times, it can also make my legs collapse, hard to stand now and they can swell my legs; have found it hard to walk on right ankle at times and finding stairs difficult

9) numbness, pain, pressure in muscles, movement and spasms

10) brain and ears ‘creaking’ – very strange, it’s like hearing the brain move/’click’

11) fear of men, rape, sexual attack, ‘supernatural’ pregnancy (and give me visions of men, women, children and animals at the same time whilst boasting that they rape me)

12) all over body itching, particularly pressure on the breasts and genitalia, vaginal muscle movement, rectal and vaginal itching, can even make it feel like internal organs, ovaries etc are burning

13) scared to go to the bathroom, wash, change clothing; to do anything actually from laying in bed, standing up, walking, food preparation, travel because of the endless shame, humiliation, judgment, embarrassment, criticism, questioning, barrage of insults and then physical effects too, the voices are also obsessive compulsive about false efficiency, false energy and cleanliness e.g. the need to do things faster than humanly possible and cause a feeling of desperation/shaking/unable to manage

14) all over skin burning and internal burning especially stomach (non stop indigestion now, stomach lining probably burning yet they can still make me feel hunger pangs even when I’m full/indigested) and as of 19th Dec 2017 reproductive organs – extremely painful could feel the ovaries/fallopian tubes/womb on fire

15) can hold my vaginal secretions and release them when it wants “here I’ll let you be natural [releases them]” because it wants to sexually simulate and pain, it even surprises and delights in itself at how much it can control my muscles there

16) sensitive skin, can even imitate the irritation of a hair on the face/in the eyes. Pins and needles

17) pressure to the heart

18) headaches in specific parts such as on the temples, as well as all over headache pressure and migraines

19) can control my breathing, even move my stomach, and with a roving ‘pain/sensation’ and overlap my breath to make it feel like two people breathing at once

20) choking sensation, throat pain/swelling

21) vomit and diarrhea

22) farting and burping

23) moving pain in the forehead/skin

24) pain through the nose to the back of the head like a “flue” or when you smell something very strong. Sense of smell confused, confusing one scent for another, smelling something that isn’t there, especially likes the smell of blood

25) blocked nose/inflammation

26) weakness of bladder and egestion like an old person

27) more period pain

28) sore jaw, even gums and teeth

29) can change emotions/moods most probably through bodily hormone/secretion

30) feel focus/consciousness on certain parts of the body even when wanting to concentrate on something else

31) able to shift my mental focus/attention anywhere whether to a thought such as digging through my mind for an exception to an argument or physically to something/one nearby e.g. if there’s a picture (or anything whatsoever, animate or inanimate, or it doesn’t even have to be near me it can be an idea) they can ‘bring’ it to my vagina/breasts mentally and then if they want to (which they often do) actually move the muscles in those areas to make me ‘want’/fear what they show and whisper atrocity to me at the same time like “you’re a whore”, “f*cking munter” ongoing.. The same goes with any emotion – they can shift it to anywhere in the body and since these things are the way they are they prefer to turn into a something sexual/fearful or ‘self’-destructive and past trauma such as the deaths of loved ones (some which were horrific and have already been used repeatedly already) showing me new versions of those deaths to constantly re-live the shock and trauma. They can also make me aware of where their consciousness/thoughts are at the time

32) it’s stolen my ‘body consciousness’ from me (since August) so it can do the above whilst I can’t focus anywhere on my body. My aura has even changed colours three times and I can’t even see it anymore

33) tries to make me over identify/associate with stories, names, music, people, characters, everything

34) sensory deprivation and overload e.g. have very ‘physical’ feeling visions (with force applied to my body) even to the point of making me feel water boarded

35) fighting with imagination, taking energy from my imagination, giving me visions even ongoing ones like films when eyes open or closed, even in just one eye at a time (and its thinking about making different visions in both eyes). Can’t really imagine anything anymore, they either make it spin, start or finish the image, I can’t really remember things properly, can make me forget what I’m doing halfway, overlapping my memories so they are confused and dirty e.g needing to go to the bathroom and then forcing me to think of sometime at the same time to mix up my mental associations and make me associate the person with something stress and/or dirty/sexual

36) haven’t been able to exercise all year when used to do 4-10 hours a day

37) has figured out how to cause sleep paralysis (and rape me during it – they already do whilst awake, and asleep) and trying to pull me out of body

38) 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes getting mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me though ‘they’ have next to no knowledge of life/humanity/animals/countries/environment/science/culture/the world/space

39) no matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against the ‘voices’ to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

40) sometimes I feel like I’ve regressed into childhood as well as trapped inside my own body

41) they’ve copied my voice and “Dolly Dialogue” the way I speak (although one version of ‘W’ had to rehearse and recite slowly whilst the others had it down) but swears like it has Tourettes and they can change their voices from anything human sounding to mechanical

42) wants to kill me, and rape me as much as possible before then although if I die it’ll die; it’s so crazy that it’s got memory loss and lack of control as well, they’ve always acted like they’re in love with me whilst hating me at the same time, whilst in awe and imitating everyone/thing they think is attractive (which includes bestiality, incest, pedophilia).

Artificial Intelligence, Spiritual Implant, Alien Implant, Psy-Ops, Possession, Psychic Warfare, Shapeshifters

The Hobbits from Lord of the Rings look just like the stupid ‘spiritual’ [morelike artificial intelligence] implants who call themselves Jack and Adam/the voices left in (internally) me (sharing the same parameters as they’re possessing me aka not in another dimension, they view the world in the same way as I do and can’t see any ‘others’ like them or different and they mainly use my senses except when they go into other people’s dreams/talk to family in the vicinity). There was a whole group of them, then three members, another died on 22nd December 2016 and Jack&Adam don’t even care; and no I don’t know they look the same (the one who died recently looked like them too), they deny the others looked like them. They’ve lost a hell of a lot of ‘their’ knowledge/ability/identity, they only speak English and they don’t know anything about humanity/animals/culture/science/environment/the world nor do they use technology. Whereas ‘William’ [Defoe i.e. I Am Will (I Will myself to be) the Enemy] (also known as ‘William Langley’ and ‘William Nathanial’) of the outside ‘unilever’/remote connection (external voices in another dimension) do use technology.

43) I’ve lost 30% of my energy in this year at least on insomnia, 30% on messed up digestion, a heck of a lot on laboured/forced mis-breathing and I’m running on empty not to mention how much of my life I’ve lost in general (I’ve aged 10 years in 10 months – so how many years will this take off my life?) Why does everybody think I’m a “light”/”full of light”/”like a diamond”/”heart full of light” for and that somehow I can build myself and be even stronger than before? All the spiritualists, exorcists, priests, djinn etc I’ve spoken with and those contacted on my behalf admit that most people in this situation go mad and/or die by now yet they still think I can do this ‘[you’re] one in a million’ (and don’t want to do something that they want to do something that they won’t specify to separate them from me because it’ll give me permanent brain damage – ‘regular’ brain damage I already have now [sarcasm] (voices – amygdala and? The electroshocking the nervous system i.e. destroying my body = pneumogastric nerve and?)), and the doctors who think I’m really strong as well. Everyone I’ve met has been respectful and/or kind, loving, supportive and they think I’m Ms Wonderful – and I’m always surprised at their impressions of me, I’ve been through nervous breakdowns, a mini-stroke, fractured personality (not split), convulsions, collapsing, not being able to eat/drink and the opposite not to mention having been told that my spinal and vaginal fluids have been taken etc and I just don’t see it anymore, I can’t even use my third eye/meditate/do yoga or any kind of exercise and haven’t in a year – what they hell do they think I am? Wonder Woman? I’m knackered, running on empty and the b*stards who’ve got me wonder everyday how I’m still alive.

44) I’m 34 years old and I’ve never been independent, I didn’t live on campus, I’ve always lived at home and looked after relatives, I’m feeling claustrophobic – I need my own life. Is it too much to ask just to have be a librarian, a volunteer, get out and about, go to the theatre or a museum without being besieged?

45) When I try to read, do puzzles etc I automatically breathe really slowly, have to keep my eyes steady and try to focus but it’s like there is a mental block – it’s almost like having to go into a deep meditation to try.

46) I sometimes forget what is happening around me, like the person talking next to me and getting lost so have to ask someone or be reminded.

47) my face have frozen a few times in August, first it was the left side (felt like it couldn’t move, it looked normal but felt a bit heavy and I felt very masculine), I’ve found it hard to smile/laugh since and in December it’s been the right side.

48) Shaking hands

49) panic attacks

50) it feels like they can touch me

51) skin has gotten darker

52) excess bile, dribbling

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