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Instead of a Prince, I got Remote & Close Artificial Intelligence

This post was reserved for ‘Feast of the Beast – Bride/Sacrifice of the beast, rescued’ BUT I just discovered something in the interim.

I’ve been suffering auditory and visual hallucinations 24/7 connected to dreams for over a year, though have sporadically experienced them before. After much trial and error/multi-pronged subject approach to figure out what this ‘illness’ is I figured it was part electro-weaponry/psi-ops and part ‘spirit’/other dimensional i.e. the whole thing is ‘existential’.

My experience has involved 4-6 groups of ‘characters’, some upto 10-11 in a unit/group but sometimes they showed themselves as more and are capable of playing multiple characters simultaneously. I’ve brought them down to 1 character and an ‘other’ (reptillian and based off another implant/chip or at least that’s how I ‘see’ them, it started off seriously savage but I made it cute and the other character fell in love with her) and that is an amazing enough achievement in itself given their capabilities. My list of symptoms was HERE. I already knew that this type of tech is 2-way in terms of communication, you can contact whoever implanted you and are remote (away from you and they don’t need to be close to you anymore either) through it though it’s not easy but I didn’t know what the ‘characters’ stuck with me really looked like because they and the remote ‘players’ play complex ‘games’ of moral ‘good vs bad’, other battle style hunts/challenges and a hell of a lot of shame and humiliation ritual, punishment and no reward. It should have been obvious really but many people think all artificial intelligence is alien e.g. ‘real’ in human reality, they’re ‘real enough’ but I can’t tell which are humans using virtual reality tech and which are strictly design/like video game characters but semi-sentient and emotional.

The character left is called ‘Adam’ (how creative in developing a new species so to speak *rolleyes*, pathetic, that’s been done so many times) and he (plus two others) looked like the pic below from this post HERE (same as the above link): two of The Hobbits from Lord of the Rings, again so creative, not *rolleyes*:

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The Hobbits from Lord of the Rings look just like the stupid ‘spiritual’ [morelike artificial intelligence] implants left in/with me (sharing the same parameters as me as they’re possessing me aka not in another dimension, the view the world in the same way as I do and can’t see any ‘others’ like them or different, they mainly use my senses except when they go into other people’s dreams/talk to family in vicinity). There was a whole group of them, then there were three, another died on 22nd and the ones left don’t even care and no I don’t know why these two look the same, they deny the others looked like them. They’ve lost a hell of a lot of their knowledge/ability (and they don’t know anything about humanity/animals/culture/science/environment/the world nor do they use technology).

I’ve been trying to look at and through ‘Adam’ for a while now and I usually saw him as code somewhat Matrix style but it was never complete. But today I dissected him, I pulled out his spine and saw the usual code, however then I managed to strip his skin and hair (and that’s probably only because I managed to completely break the reptile Black chip right alongside ‘his’ as I wrote about HERE) and saw what ‘he’ really looks like.

It’s just like a computer graph image for making a character 3D graphic/cgi but better. It looks JUST LIKE THIS except ‘his’ ‘spots’ are smaller and more Blue:

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Zarn from ‘Land of the Lost'(1974–1976) (which I was going review a while back but didn’t get round to) looks just like Adam and potentially other ‘characters’ I’ve come across.

Artificial Intelligence/cyber being/virtual reality/augmented reality (bear in mind virtual reality headsets have become entertainment tech recently though online/console VR has been around for ages). Amazing and awesome but definitely SHOULDN’T BE CONNECTED TO/PUT INTO ANYONE/THING AND DEFINITELY NEEDS A WORLDWIDE ETHICS COMMITTEE AND COMPENSATION FOR THE VICTIMS AND TEST SUBJECTS (THOUGH WHAT WE’VE BEEN THROUGH CAN NEVER REALLY BE COMPENSATED FOR).

Some people think this plan is in action and it could well be given the advent of head transplants – trying to transfer a whole consciousness to another body (supposedly only for medical reasons such as paralysis victims but incredibly expensive and business’ find it hard to be viable for just that http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-3965054/Surgeon-world-s-human-HEAD-transplant-says-operation-place-UK-year.html):

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Avatar of yourself from physical to virtual.

The above being an attempt to ‘perfect humanity’ and transhumanism.

I wonder how many people figure this out without having been taught/briefed on the details and have had their whole education sabotaged no less.

Not for me, I like having a 3D body as I’ve said many times before.

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Vrill, chips, reptile consciousness etc?

Now I’ve never used the terms ‘vrill’, ‘droning’ etc even as an ardent fan of Donald Marshall, I’m a bit old school (so is he though) and even still use the term ‘twin’ for ‘clone’ although ‘twinning’ (merging) and ‘cloning’ (copying) are different as processes, and even ‘clones’ can be different to disembodied bodies once you inhabit them.

The problem is I’ve never been able to reconcile two periods in my life

a) The amnesia from age 5-9/10 and the mass hair loss that followed. My only memory from that period was the ‘Cinderalla’ programme flash at age 5 where I was apparently sitting in a car at night and all I saw was lights (supposedly street lights) going past and it was apparently a family outing to the Elephant & Castle (the title is hint hint in itself) Cinema to see Cinderella (1950), but the film wasn’t re-showing that year and the only person in the car was supposedly a father figure.

b) When my hair started falling out en masse at age 17 again and never stopped and how that happened after a dental visit, a fight with a family member which was followed by a 17.5 year relationship with a very famous person (whose family consider themselves to be godlike yet subservient to political/financial empires) and at our first physical meeting which I don’t remember very well other than feeling ‘shocked’ (like I was hit on the head) that sibling was there too. The meeting or should I say introduction was in a very public place and yet it was empty and that VIP knew.

I had masses and masses of hair just like Merida from Brave (2012).

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I’d never thought of myself as ‘chipped’ in any way except perhaps from the extremely shoddy job the NHS dentist did on my tooth (the only cavity I ever had) which was so bad I couldn’t smile for a year and then the same b*stard ‘fixed’ it with an even worse job ignoring the actual problem and making it worse for the teeth next to it.

However this year since the ‘voices’ I hear went even more hysterical than usual in July onwards and after all the mating/sex/marriage/body transference/twinning (hybridization whilst alive) storylines failed to impress me and I kept resisting they went into full on punishment/shame/humiliation mode (still ongoing). One of the affects of that was that the left side of my face froze in August and I suddenly started feeling very masculine. They’ve been trying to make my left eye ‘lazy’ since then (and have been working on my right and possibly coinciding with the right side of my face starting to freeze this month).

Fast forward to approx the 11th of this month (Jan 2017) and I saw a black chip inside my brain, I saw it visually i.e. with my mind (no your mind and your consciousness are not necessarily all in your brain or all of the time), and I saw part of it’s serial number but the voices as usual blocked it out (as stupid as they are constantly blocking out messages and things even if it’s to their detriment to do so). It was very definitely reptillian and very definitely ‘coming through’. Both the voices and I could see the reptile, it’s behaviour and it was in me like a ghost (something else possessing me other than them), as usually they never listen to my better advice that their own behaviour was feeding and attracting it so continued with their evil. So as usual (AGAIN) it was upto me to deal with this thing whilst they were being an absolute nuisance and that’s putting it mildly. That night William came because I was supposed to be asleep but couldn’t due to the internal voices manually keeping me awake, put his hand on my head and a finger to my forehead.

Now from Donald’s excellent information on ‘vrill’ and ‘droning’ e.g.

Jul 16, 2012 at 2:43pm
Post by celine on Jul 16, 2012 at 2:43pm
Donald Marshall:……….. the eye of a person thats been droned does sometimes go funny, pop out mostly from swelling after the lizard spine goes in and takes over… It doesnt make a light flash in the eye though,… no magic like that, sometimes it makes the persons eye stray so it looks like theyre cockeyed or walleyed… and after years sometimes in some drones they eye sinks in…

Read more: http://donaldmarshall.proboards.com/thread/5/vrill-cloning-centres#ixzz4WaNzEjyI

and

http://donaldmarshall.proboards.com/thread/152/droning
Taken from vrillizards.webs.com/droning

DRONING PROCESS

Droning occurs when a Vril injects its quill/proboscis into the human eye where the lizard parasite takes over the human host brain. It is terribly painful for the human being until the human consciousness dies and the vril parasite consciousness is in full control. All (or most) memory and ability of former human is retained & the lizard consciousness now mimicks the former human’s behaviors. The former human is now a drone. These are the ‘people’ that are used by vril to infiltrate governments, religious, legal & financial systems, organizations and/or corporations. It is not uncommon for male or female drones to lose their hair at a younger age. Intelligence seems a little decreased-with a minimal capacity-if any, to understand sarcasm and/or dry humour. Offspring have increased risk of various birth abnormalities. Drones often seem incapable of empathy/sympathy and can quite often display psychotic behaviours. Drones enjoy perversion, sexual deviance and self gratification. The drone will seem to be an ill human until fully recovered from the parasitical infection which takes varying degrees of time, but is usually minimal. The eye that was droned with the proboscis will be affected and sometimes never fully recovers, leaving the affected eye to seem different from the other. Most drones appear completely normal and walk among us undetected.

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The Vril proboscis connects with human eye and releases a foamy substance where the parasite injects itself into the human brain. The unfortunate human suffers temporary agony. Once the parasite is effectively in the brain, the human ceases to exist and the Vril is in full control of it’s host body.The age-old ‘eye of Horus’ symbol represents the age-old

~ Drones do NOT have lizard eyes. There are no major or obvious physical changes to the human body. The only change is that the human consciousness has ceased to exist and the Vril consciousness is now in control of the body.

~ Drones are NOT shapeshifters. Once the lizard takes over the human, there is no transferring in and out of the body as it is a permanent one time transfer until the lizard consciousness perishes. Shapeshifting is thought to be a metaphoric description of droning as it was difficult for people and/or their cultures to communicate the existance of Vril, much less the droning procedure in a way that would not bring them harm for attempting to expose the ancient secret or to preserve any information whatsoever.

~ Excessive or increased blinking and/or lip licking MAY POSSIBLY be lizard traits that transfer with the consciousness.

~ Drone offspring have increased chance of various syndromes and/or birth abrnomalities.

~ Drones are NOT nice people. They are a lizard consciouness who killled a human being via a parasite to assist the Vril agenda.

~ Most drones are ruthless, psychopatic, sexually driven and sadistic.

~ It is reported that the genitalia has an effect on male genitalia leading to the appearance of an underdeveloped penis.

~ Hair loss is reported to be a common trait among male and female drones. More skin anomalies appear such as moles, skin tags, age spots, etc.

THE SCIENCE OF PARASITES

After Reading Donald Marshall’s story where he claims to be a clone victim subject to tortuous acts by Queen Elizabeth & her gross elite friends, there was one part to his claims that I could NOT allow myself to believe….the parasitic ancient lizards called Vril. My conscious brain would not allow me to believe this part of Donald’s claims yet something was subconsciously driving me to look into it. Finally I decided to allow my ego to risk the potentials of embracing this ‘ludicracy.’

I communicated with Donald via skype several times and found that not only was he very REAL, he is very mentally stable as well. He’s humorous, kind & intelligent. He truly is an amazing, strong, courageous & moral human being. After getting good vibes from Donald, I kept up some really intense research and I believe I can offer merit to Donald’s claims about Vril Lizards. Please open that mind of yours to very real scientific possibilities that may just explain a few things.

I aim to link science to Vril lizard possibilities as I believe this is the one area that people are unable to wrap their minds around, as was I.

Humans, animals, insects & REPTILES can all become infected with a parasite. This is not a new concept and is widely known. Parasites ‘take over’ the thought process of the host (body) that it invades. An infected ant will be ‘driven’ to climb up on a blade of grass to purposely become eaten by grazing animals so that it can enter the stomach of sheep, cow, etc. and complete its life cycle. Sometimes the parasite can be transferred to a human that eats the newly infected animal, such as a pig. Pigs are very nasty creatures biologically and the bible FORBIDS any consumption of this meat or meat of any other ‘split hoofed’ animal. Sometimes humans can contract a parasite from an infected cat as well (Toxoplasma gondii). No matter how it gets contracted, once it enters the body it can in fact invade the brain. Parasites mimic their host yet the thought processes and further behaviors of infected persons alter significantly.

In the case of ‘Toxoplasma Gondii’ found in the stomachs of cats, the cats excrete the eggs and the eggs are eaten by smaller animals such as rats. The rats ingest the parasite and are ‘taken over’ to the point of losing their fear of cats and exposing themselves directly to a cat so that it can be ingested by and further infect that cat. Parasites instinctual nature is to ‘take over’ as much and as often as possible. There are various ways the parasites transfer from animals/bugs/reptiles to humans and once inside the human host, the natural process is to ‘take over’ the human thought process and control it. This is scientifically proven! Since humans are superior and there is nothing left to ‘take over’, the parasite is content to live in the human and the human becomes diseased. The parasite must feed and if it has infected the brain, then it begins to feed of the brain itself where the host begins to lose feelings like empathy & sympathy, they become sinister and self-driven. They eventually care for nothing but themselves and their self-preservation. They will hurt/destroy almost anyone/anything to get what they want/need. They become the most ruthless people on the planet.

See where this is going? Our world leaders fit this ‘psychopath’ description to a tee. Do you think all of our corrupt leaders, corporations, scientists, teachers, doctors, military, clergy, lawyers/judges, child welfare workers, police, etc. got infected by a cat scratch or could there be a different way they became infected? Since parasites are very common in lizards, I wonder if you could believe for even a fraction of a second that there may be truth to the fact that the illuminati’s best kept secret is Vril lizards. Could Vril lizards possibly transfer a parasite & ‘take over’ the elite characters on our planet and drive them to be the ‘evil’ that we just cannot understand in today’s world? I think so. If you’re not so sure, please keep reading.

When an uninfected rat senses a ‘predator’ cat nearby it becomes very frightened and aims to avoid the cat at all costs, as us ‘normal’ humans do when we sense an ‘evil’, ‘bad’, or ‘corrupt’ person. Yet when an infected rat senses the ‘predator’ cat it will present itself to the cat. This makes so much sense as far as I’m concerned. ‘WE’, the uninfected ‘rats’ naturally sense this same ‘fear’ when we are exposed to the ‘predator’ cat and we ‘run away’ from it, yet the infected ‘rats’ (psychopaths) among us do not fear the ‘predator’ qualities of the cat and instead desire & seek to become the same powerful ‘predator’. These people do not fear the bigger cats who could potentially ‘eat them’ and ‘desire’ to be as ‘powerful’ thereby giving up everything they are to become such. They don’t care about their former self…they now thrive for the power. Parasites and psychopaths often crave ‘evolving power’.

VARIOUS LINKS ABOUT PARASITE BEHAVIOR:
PARASITE REX
SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN
HERP PARASITES
ZOMBIE INDUCING PARASITES
DIABOLICAL PARASITES

There’s tons more info out there folks….it’s time to wake up; a lot has happened while the world slumbered!

There are scores of interwoven conspiracy theories out there. This article is based on my opinions and/or observations. Please use your common sense when researching and stick to things that are scientifically suggestive. I do not claim in any way, shape or form claim to know everything on these matters, in fact, I’m just learning as I go & finally able to connect some dots. I sincerely hope you will too.
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Dec 20, 2016 at 11:01am
Post by celine on Dec 20, 2016 at 11:01am

Cindy (Fri. April 10, 2015) – Donald or anyone who’d know…………………Do the Drones consent to this? Im thinking surely not, so if its against their will, how is it arranged to happen.. do the Vrils come up or are the host bodies taken down underground?? forgive me if this question doesnt show up in correct place / format… I am new at this.
Donald Marshall………………… – Vrill come up to underground military bases from below. No one volunteers to be droned.

Betty Pak – How can a person prevent it from happening to them?

Donald Marshall – They’d have to get you while in your real body. Bring you somewhere. They said years ago that they do it in hospitals and prisons sometimes too.

Richard Feldman – Does anyone keep tabs on drones or are they simply cut loose to live their lives? Are most or all drones obligated to “return the favor” by providing future human victims, either through their own children or by snatching others? Any idea when droning will be “officially” considered a crime against humanity, which it literally is, and punishable by law?

Donald Marshall – Long answer.

Read more: http://donaldmarshall.proboards.com/thread/152/droning#ixzz4WaQ22rO5

What I know is that despite everything that’s happened to my family and I that I can remember since childhood I’ve never succumbed to any reptile or ultra nor extra-terrestrial influence. I was shown how a possession/political deal goes on by a reptillian that manifested in my room when I was approx 15 years old and I said No. I’ve always been completely resistant but no matter how resistant you are you can end up/be sold out to things, people and places like D.Marshall describes and players involved can buy you/have contract dates.

Where I disagree with Donald is that he states the reptile ‘quill/proboscis into the human eye where the lizard parasite takes over the human host brain’ and then the human becomes very reptillian in behaviour. The voices and I saw what I had was a chip (no idea when it was inserted) and know that I haven’t become reptillian (that’s the voices forté) and an experienced djinn exorcist I know says that one of the things that possesses or at least one of the things that follows me was put/grew through my eye when I was a child or teen (another through food like a poison, and I’ve been poisoned many times) and who knows about the rest (I’ve seen all kinds of things come out of me and linked to me last year and there’s still more yet there’s no accounting for how many of them were/are illusions made by ‘others’ too). It also seems from Donald’s point of view that once droned that’s it, say goodbye to being human/humane/yourself again.

I’ve always been ‘Ms Personality Intact’ and as soon as we saw this chip I went to work on it, focusing on it with my third eye on the 11th for approx 30min (whilst keeping another chakra which has been seriously overworked and ill this last year firmly off). On the 13th with the aid of a little electronic device I made I focused twice again and it (or something on its behalf/pretending to be it) answered.

The first time: I was meditating on the chip with my third eye and an electronic/reptillian voice said (sounded like an internal phone call – but bear in mind technology and ‘others’ can change their voices and language especially to a telepath) “it’s just part of the lesson, do you want me to tell you what it is, they [the usual voices in my head] are lower than… [some kind of hierarchy]” and then the usual voices distracted me so I couldn’t hear it properly (they are always disrupting communication since they just have to babble 24/7).

The second time: I had been watching one of Dr Leir’s (deceased surgeon who later specialized in alien implant removal/research) videos on youtube and a few min in for some reason youtube froze, I couldn’t be bothered with it and focused on the Black chip, after a while (an hour?) I saw an image of the chips shown in the video and someone(s)/thing(s) said “what do you want me/us to do?” I said “I’ve had enough, remove it” and straight away youtube came back on (just the right time) = agreement.

The Third Time: The next day (14 Jan 2017) I felt something break in my left eye and a veering to the middle of my forehead. Different parts of my head affected. Spoke to the reptillian told it remove/stop the chip it said “what benefit [to itself?]” I told it who was boss, that it is nothing, that this is my body, mind, soul/spirit and it’s nothing but a $&(%^&%* and it said “I can”. Then the background noises I used to hear before the current voices, couldn’t make them out except for one word/phrase that I can’t remember. Then some of ‘them’ seemed to be talking to each other and one heard clearly in English “There’s no signal”. Haven’t had any issues with the chip/reptillian since then and the current voices think I destroyed it or at the very least disabled it.

Lot’s of dreams since the 14th about chips/bugs being broken/destroyed.

So basically if this happens and you know/are aware of it, don’t think it’s the end, don’t give up if you don’t have to, you can beat it.

You don’t have to live like this (it’s not a reptile but a good example of a parasite):

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From the film Labyrinth (1986) – a masonic handbook for mind/dream control if I ever saw one after the training manuals that were ‘The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe’, ‘Alice in Wonderland’ and ‘The Wizard of Oz’.

For more from the excellent Donald Marshall:

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B6uNZqRUN8ceQnRRaGI1VEk2Nm8 and of course his Youtube videos.

P.S I can’t remember where D.Marshall got the term ‘vrill’ from to described his knowledge and experience but I think it might be related to: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vril which goes back to the Black Sun/primordial matter/mother/original source/energy, The Rosicrucians, the Vril Society, The Thule Society and Hitler. Don’t confuse the Black Sun with the Nazis, similar to the swastika they stole from India the Black Sun (also stolen from the cradles of civilization) is also incorrectly facing to the right, even in today’s India Islamic people are using a right facing Swastika when they should know it faces to the left especially when they can see Hindu use of it facing to the face right next door to them in the same places. Interestingly in roughly 2011 my ex asked me if I knew anything about the Black Sun, I just gave him a stock definition from an excellent alchemical encyclopedia a colleague I barely spoke to (but got on with) randomly gave me one day. The ex later asked me to help finish his first tattoo design, I declined because I could the beginnings of the Black Sun design and knowing its Mother Goddess back herstory turned history I thought it too good for him. Immediately after that his current gf at the time finished it for him in the exact same way I’d denied.

On another note – I don’t know why both Donald and I spell it as ‘vrill’ rather than ‘vril’ though others tend to use ‘vril’.

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Symptoms So Far

I’m suffering from hearing voices all day everyday and have been hearing them since March. I even hear and see them in my dreams, they’ll talk to me in sleep and continue when I wake up, though they rarely let me sleep. They talk over each other and in layers (even silent layers that I can’t hear) and from all angles/game playing to torture me more. I was even unable to talk for a while because I was so used to their internalized talking and having to be quiet listening to them (similar to the bursts of hysterical laughter I’ve had a few times – I can’t cry either, sometimes both reactions try to happen at once but don’t work).

These things can read my thoughts and feelings so I can’t even think anymore, can’t even hear my own thoughts (it can put my own internal thinking voice on silent as well as changing the volume of theirs), it talks over my thoughts and doesn’t let me finish a thought nor think cohesively. It can also make me hold onto thoughts too long or repeat them.

I’m having many other affects and they gloat about each and every one, sometimes taking me through them in a sequence just to rub it in such as:

1) visions/hallucination, pinprick sensation in the eyes, dry eyes, can manually blur and then clear my vision, move my left eye trying to make it ‘lazy’ and working on my right,

2) reduced hearing, auditory hallucination and most recently ear drums hurt/block, feel like they’re going to burst; can also make false sounds e.g. phone, buzzer, music etc. Keep hearing the wrong words and it’s always dirty associations that they’ve layered in my hearing/whispering whilst another is talking louder. On 4th Oct they actually masked the background sound so well and then cleared up it up again whilst gloating and I realized that my Mum had been talking right next to me for some time and I couldn’t even hear her. 4th Dec 2016 they finally realized they’ve been shouting in my head all year deafening me

3) processing of words/numbers not working properly, if I hear or think a number for example and want to write it down I write incorrectly, repeatedly even though I know what I want to write (vocabulary, spelling, diction, reading and arithmetic vastly decreased, takes ages and repetition to think things through, feel a very heavy mental block/pain). No matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against them to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

4) ‘electroshock’ feeling anywhere in the body through the nervous system, fingers and arms have moved involuntarily a few times, also facial expressions once; I twitch sometimes now as an after effect

5) can talk through me sometimes, trying its best to make think think and feel what its wants (both subliminally and obviously). When they talk to each other one of them pretends to be me so my 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes gets mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me

6) made me forget 3 years of my life (from my late 20’s) and stop me thinking and remembering throughout the day (short and long term forgetfulness and memory loss). It can apply extra pressure to any my thoughts, feelings or movements or even its own voice to hurt my brain and other parts of my body which also makes me forget instantly plus keeps me awake

7) insomnia and when I do manage to sleep, bad dreams, night terrors – sometimes overcome by the need to sleep only to feel awake again as soon as I lay down/try to sleep – been awake for 6 days at a time sometimes. They can also do the opposite – can make me sleepy only to make me feel awake again to taunt me about not sleeping

8) faintness, dizzy, fatigue; has made me collapse a few times, it can also make my legs collapse, hard to stand now and they can swell my legs; have found it hard to walk on right ankle at times and finding stairs difficult

9) numbness, pain, pressure in muscles, movement and spasms

10) brain and ears ‘creaking’ – very strange, it’s like hearing the brain move/’click’

11) fear of men, rape, sexual attack, ‘supernatural’ pregnancy (and give me visions of men, women, children and animals at the same time whilst boasting that they rape me)

12) all over body itching, particularly pressure on the breasts and genitalia, vaginal muscle movement, rectal and vaginal itching, can even make it feel like internal organs, ovaries etc are burning

13) scared to go to the bathroom, wash, change clothing; to do anything actually from laying in bed, standing up, walking, food preparation, travel because of the endless shame, humiliation, judgment, embarrassment, criticism, questioning, barrage of insults and then physical effects too, the voices are also obsessive compulsive about false efficiency, false energy and cleanliness e.g. the need to do things faster than humanly possible and cause a feeling of desperation/shaking/unable to manage

14) all over skin burning and internal burning especially stomach (non stop indigestion now, stomach lining probably burning yet they can still make me feel hunger pangs even when I’m full/indigested) and as of 19th Dec 2017 reproductive organs – extremely painful could feel the ovaries/fallopian tubes/womb on fire

15) can hold my vaginal secretions and release them when it wants “here I’ll let you be natural [releases them]” because it wants to sexually simulate and pain, it even surprises and delights in itself at how much it can control my muscles there

16) sensitive skin, can even imitate the irritation of a hair on the face/in the eyes. Pins and needles

17) pressure to the heart

18) headaches in specific parts such as on the temples, as well as all over headache pressure and migraines

19) can control my breathing, even move my stomach, and with a roving ‘pain/sensation’ and overlap my breath to make it feel like two people breathing at once

20) choking sensation, throat pain/swelling

21) vomit and diarrhea

22) farting and burping

23) moving pain in the forehead/skin

24) pain through the nose to the back of the head like a “flue” or when you smell something very strong. Sense of smell confused, confusing one scent for another, smelling something that isn’t there, especially likes the smell of blood

25) blocked nose/inflammation

26) weakness of bladder and egestion like an old person

27) more period pain

28) sore jaw, even gums and teeth

29) can change emotions/moods most probably through bodily hormone/secretion

30) feel focus/consciousness on certain parts of the body even when wanting to concentrate on something else

31) able to shift my mental focus/attention anywhere whether to a thought such as digging through my mind for an exception to an argument or physically to something/one nearby e.g. if there’s a picture (or anything whatsoever, animate or inanimate, or it doesn’t even have to be near me it can be an idea) they can ‘bring’ it to my vagina/breasts mentally and then if they want to (which they often do) actually move the muscles in those areas to make me ‘want’/fear what they show and whisper atrocity to me at the same time like “you’re a whore”, “f*cking munter” ongoing.. The same goes with any emotion – they can shift it to anywhere in the body and since these things are the way they are they prefer to turn into a something sexual/fearful or ‘self’-destructive and past trauma such as the deaths of loved ones (some which were horrific and have already been used repeatedly already) showing me new versions of those deaths to constantly re-live the shock and trauma. They can also make me aware of where their consciousness/thoughts are at the time

32) it’s stolen my ‘body consciousness’ from me (since August) so it can do the above whilst I can’t focus anywhere on my body. My aura has even changed colours three times and I can’t even see it anymore

33) tries to make me over identify/associate with stories, names, music, people, characters, everything

34) sensory deprivation and overload e.g. have very ‘physical’ feeling visions (with force applied to my body) even to the point of making me feel water boarded

35) fighting with imagination, taking energy from my imagination, giving me visions even ongoing ones like films when eyes open or closed, even in just one eye at a time (and its thinking about making different visions in both eyes). Can’t really imagine anything anymore, they either make it spin, start or finish the image, I can’t really remember things properly, can make me forget what I’m doing halfway, overlapping my memories so they are confused and dirty e.g needing to go to the bathroom and then forcing me to think of sometime at the same time to mix up my mental associations and make me associate the person with something stress and/or dirty/sexual

36) haven’t been able to exercise all year when used to do 4-10 hours a day

37) has figured out how to cause sleep paralysis (and rape me during it – they already do whilst awake, and asleep) and trying to pull me out of body

38) 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes getting mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me though ‘they’ have next to no knowledge of life/humanity/animals/countries/environment/science/culture/the world/space

39) no matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against the ‘voices’ to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

40) sometimes I feel like I’ve regressed into childhood as well as trapped inside my own body

41) they’ve copied my voice and “Dolly Dialogue” the way I speak (although one version of ‘W’ had to rehearse and recite slowly whilst the others had it down) but swears like it has Tourettes and they can change their voices from anything human sounding to mechanical

42) wants to kill me, and rape me as much as possible before then although if I die it’ll die; it’s so crazy that it’s got memory loss and lack of control as well, they’ve always acted like they’re in love with me whilst hating me at the same time, whilst in awe and imitating everyone/thing they think is attractive (which includes bestiality, incest, pedophilia).

Artificial Intelligence, Spiritual Implant, Alien Implant, Psy-Ops, Possession, Psychic Warfare, Shapeshifters

The Hobbits from Lord of the Rings look just like the stupid ‘spiritual’ [morelike artificial intelligence] implants who call themselves Jack and Adam/the voices left in (internally) me (sharing the same parameters as they’re possessing me aka not in another dimension, they view the world in the same way as I do and can’t see any ‘others’ like them or different and they mainly use my senses except when they go into other people’s dreams/talk to family in the vicinity). There was a whole group of them, then three members, another died on 22nd December 2016 and Jack&Adam don’t even care; and no I don’t know they look the same (the one who died recently looked like them too), they deny the others looked like them. They’ve lost a hell of a lot of ‘their’ knowledge/ability/identity, they only speak English and they don’t know anything about humanity/animals/culture/science/environment/the world nor do they use technology. Whereas ‘William’ [Defoe i.e. I Am Will (I Will myself to be) the Enemy] (also known as ‘William Langley’ and ‘William Nathanial’) of the outside ‘unilever’/remote connection (external voices in another dimension) do use technology.

43) I’ve lost 30% of my energy in this year at least on insomnia, 30% on messed up digestion, a heck of a lot on laboured/forced mis-breathing and I’m running on empty not to mention how much of my life I’ve lost in general (I’ve aged 10 years in 10 months – so how many years will this take off my life?) Why does everybody think I’m a “light”/”full of light”/”like a diamond”/”heart full of light” for and that somehow I can build myself and be even stronger than before? All the spiritualists, exorcists, priests, djinn etc I’ve spoken with and those contacted on my behalf admit that most people in this situation go mad and/or die by now yet they still think I can do this ‘[you’re] one in a million’ (and don’t want to do something that they want to do something that they won’t specify to separate them from me because it’ll give me permanent brain damage – ‘regular’ brain damage I already have now [sarcasm] (voices – amygdala and? The electroshocking the nervous system i.e. destroying my body = pneumogastric nerve and?)), and the doctors who think I’m really strong as well. Everyone I’ve met has been respectful and/or kind, loving, supportive and they think I’m Ms Wonderful – and I’m always surprised at their impressions of me, I’ve been through nervous breakdowns, a mini-stroke, fractured personality (not split), convulsions, collapsing, not being able to eat/drink and the opposite not to mention having been told that my spinal and vaginal fluids have been taken etc and I just don’t see it anymore, I can’t even use my third eye/meditate/do yoga or any kind of exercise and haven’t in a year – what they hell do they think I am? Wonder Woman? I’m knackered, running on empty and the b*stards who’ve got me wonder everyday how I’m still alive.

44) I’m 34 years old and I’ve never been independent, I didn’t live on campus, I’ve always lived at home and looked after relatives, I’m feeling claustrophobic – I need my own life. Is it too much to ask just to have be a librarian, a volunteer, get out and about, go to the theatre or a museum without being besieged?

45) When I try to read, do puzzles etc I automatically breathe really slowly, have to keep my eyes steady and try to focus but it’s like there is a mental block – it’s almost like having to go into a deep meditation to try.

46) I sometimes forget what is happening around me, like the person talking next to me and getting lost so have to ask someone or be reminded.

47) my face have frozen a few times in August, first it was the left side (felt like it couldn’t move, it looked normal but felt a bit heavy and I felt very masculine), I’ve found it hard to smile/laugh since and in December it’s been the right side.

48) Shaking hands

49) panic attacks

50) it feels like they can touch me

51) skin has gotten darker

52) excess bile, dribbling

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We’re Evicted pt 2

Pt 1 HERE

We found a new place via an emergency scheme, we were almost homeless before a couple of years ago and as many people know unless you’re elderly, very young, disabled and/or pregnant you don’t really qualify for any help and I’ve been told in the past “[as long as] you can run [we can’t help you]”. In the current situation it reminds me of when I really young and Mum was trying to escape a lot of shit and we hostel hopped a lot.

The landlord of the caravan and camping park (they claim it’s a holiday long let but they have residential tenants, the local council know and apparently according to site staff the site isn’t supposed to be open all year round but they don’t care) wrote and said they believed we had left already. Their ‘get out’ memo style letter (not a legal eviction notice) said we had to be out by 12 Nov 2016, I don’t know why they believed we’d left other than they and others have used our rented property for convenience, littering and to take our plants though according to their words and actions neither the adjoining garden (which every caravan has) and the porch/stairs (which we have to use to get in and out of the caravan) were ours/rented. Basically we’ve always been quiet, kept to ourselves and polite when speaking to staff usually every two weeks but apparently that was offensive too even though we’ve had to put up with post being waylaid, opened, things being moved, broken, taken and added to the property when we go out etc e.g. the fleur-de-lis and much more recently someone(s) watering the potato plant we were growing inside (which we’d been trying to keep dry) and the windows being open today and some of Mum’s diaries missing.

The people on site have also acted in conjunction with the thing (human psi-ops and/or otherwise) that possesses and systematically tortures my family and I  (and the voice(s) are far more than ‘gang stalking’ which in itself is enough to kill victims, put them in psychiatric wards or prison). I remember when ‘it’ claimed that it was going to relocate to Sandown/Shanklin to be closer but then claimed to be working on site/in nearby caravans. I know that it/they can affect others at the same time such as ‘random’ people on the street who stop and say something as if they know us, and that’s aside from the ‘gang stalking’ – the people I’m talking about act as if they forget why they stopped in the first place and shake themselves out of it.

I’ve never believed that it’s ok or right to find concession from a bad situation e.g. ‘well at least I got stronger’ but it’s something I do since it sums up my whole life. I want to say at least we won’t have to put up with only our electricity going off on site, the rumbling/shaking at the front of the caravan at night, strange bumps on the walls/ceiling and  hostility from ppl/people/others on site but this behaviour has followed us everywhere and I’ve already seen evidence of it.

I wonder if the wireless networks that appeared at the same time as ‘William’ will be a permanent feature; they’re called ‘TIME GOES BY… SO SLOWLY’, ‘Patience is a virtue’ and ‘I can’t believe it’s not butter’. Hilarious. I’m currently in a state of numbness, I can’t appreciate satire/irony/parody anymore but I still find my situation surreal/unreal whilst living it and I hate the entire thing.

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Can I get an Exorcism pt2 – **UPDATED**

Pt 1 HERE

So a while back I my fingers started to move on their own, and I said I didn’t want to be a Manchurian Candidate, immediately after I got a “sit tight” followed by a “I’m with you” and then the electroshocking and other ‘punishments’ started and continued.

I’ve finally managed to learn how to ignore the voices even though it’s 24/7 but since it/they know all my thoughts, memories and things I never knew/studied before it’s obviously too much. Tried to get me to throw myself over the balcony last night. Now my limbs are out of my control, it/they moved my left arm earlier to grope my right breast.

I am currently going through an exorcism btw but I really don’t know what to say about it, I’m not a religious person I’m actually very technical and like to research but well; ironically it/they (the voice(s) – master(s) of technical effects like dream imaging and sound effects, well I say masters but one just uses stock images and couldn’t even be bothered to finish one off but when they can rely on your mind/imagination to fill in bits they can be a bit lazy) like that I’m vegan but it/they are trying to get me off that too. Trying to make me the exact opposite of what I am really, Cain and Abel style ‘angel’ and the ‘devil’ on each side but far far more of the ‘devil’ and it’s 24/7 evil. Once the trauma is done (on top of the 24/7 there’s daily ordeals) it’s there, consciously and subconsciously especially as it/they can make me lose my memory of an event a few moments prior and the disgusting dreams, when I’m allowed to sleep of course “we’ll give you a few minutes every _____” style.

I remember when it/they first got in ‘contact’ with me (or I figure they were ‘in’ for much longer or at doing surveillance for a while before talking) for some reason I asked it/them “are you eloheim or nephilim?” A little while later it/they ‘came back’ and said “seraphim” to which I explained they couldn’t possibly be the seraphim because of it’s Indian roots. ‘Angels’ (the generic term for ‘others’ are in my experience nothing but shit, especially the so-called Archangels i.e. Micheal and Gabriel, the only two really established ones but that’s just Christian imitation of older religions and beliefs).

I might sound blasé but this has been going on (consciously) since March and you don’t want to know the amount of strength/energy (and abilities) it’s taken to get this far. No one/nothing should go through this unless of course they’re victimizers and the thing(s) at me just love to act like victims playing every angle and every storyline it/they can think of.

Interestingly enough Italy is being inundated with increasing requests for exorcisms; apparently 500,000 a year or 500,000 (no I can’t be bothered to look it up, can you blame me) on top of the usual and the priests can’t keep up. A joke really since they worship those doing the ‘possessing’.

EDIT 10.11.16 – Reminded of occasions when it/their ‘contact’ felt physical (discounting the ‘out of body’ ones) e.g. the feeling of being lifted approx 1.5inches off the floor (awake, dual consciousness as I call it so ‘there’ and here at the same time and being aware of/’being in both places’ at the same time whilst conscious not a hallucination, being lifted much higher than 1.5in by one of the ‘William’ characters – many playing ‘him’ and I didn’t know it). And another much more recently of another ‘William’ raping me whilst dressed as an eagle (that was following a dream of ‘him’ showing me ‘him’ whispering to a younger female that he was going to rape her all night), I felt the physical shove – ‘him’ pushing against me. There was another before that of a forced ‘kiss’ by another ‘William’ (it/they have 7-9 faces for ‘him’ that I can think of as well as other characters). This thing is evil.

What I think people really need to realize is that we’re asleep for 1/3 of our lives, that’s a huge amount and when we’re awake we’re using approx 30% of our energy on digestion. How much do we really know about ‘others’ and what’s really going on, how much reach does our consciousness and awareness really have? Especially when nightmares become your whole reality.

For me personally I have no foreseeable way out; my consciousness and limited awareness of it is orchestrated and contained, all I can do is keep trying to resist or die and what happens then – will this thing/they get me? What’s scheduled for me? Who knows. I never really cared about the ‘afterlife’ and I still don’t, I’m just generally worried as usual. As for the notion of reincarnation all I knew was that I was ready to retire and I still am  (from what I don’t know, I’m just old and tired).

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Can I get an Exorcism? (Tongue in Cheek and yet… It’s Not Funny.)

This is an extension of something I wrote to someone:

Ritual Abuse: Temptation, the idea of Deliverance, false Reward, Shame, Humiliation and Losing Yourself.

Hello,

I’m usually quite formal and polite but I don’t really know how to put this and you’ve probably heard it all before so I just have to take a personal tone immediately.

I don’t want to start like Charles Dickens’ ‘David Copperfield’ and make an attempt at being chronological yet skip back and forth but that’s the style in which I increasingly think now.

I’ve always had vivid dreams as I’ve had sleep paralysis since I was 12 (I’m 33 now) but since March 2016 (the earliest point I’m aware of) something changed and it’s far too much for me to cope with. My dreams became real in that characters within them ‘came out’ of dreams into waking reality, I’ve ‘seen’ them in moments sometimes translucent, sometimes in visions (eyes open and closed, colourless and colour Hi-def visions, computer screen visions and images in dreams, being forced to learn to read in dreams) and I hear them just as if they were in the room. Tragically they’ve gone from seeming to be in the same room/space as myself (and anywhere outside I go) to being ‘inside’ my head, now there’s no longer any or enough space for me to be stable/sane, just knowing they’re there makes me incapable and small, getting smaller by the day. I can’t concentrate on anything anymore; the people I love, the ‘reality’ I’m in, my awareness of my own body except the most essential bodily functions which unfortunately I’m acutely aware of and find hard to carry out. Said ‘entities’ (and/or people with technology and spiritual/metaphysical capabilities) can not only read my thoughts, they are aware of them before/as soon as I have them so I don’t even need to fully think them out let alone ‘voice’ them with my own inner/mental voice (as opposed to mouth voice which they can also hear), they can ‘see’ all the images I have in my own as well as superimpose their own, remove and edit mine, and know what I feel though nowadays my feelings are severely limited to exasperation and being at the end of my tether.

Some of the innumerable terms and phrases ‘they’ve’ used is that I’ve been “denatured”, that I was “susceptible to programming, hypnotism, suggestion”. Turned from one thing/type to another. Losing oneself. The worst of it began in mid-August. In my own diagnosis I’ve had two nervous breakdowns, predetermined split personality/ies (but not real, just something that comes up when they push and pull too hard), have lost all my yoga/energy techniques and the days just pass me by. In its/their opinion I’ve had “shock” and “trauma”. It’s possible that my character is changing to accommodate (unwillingly) the personality/ies connected to me such as preferences that are alien to my own e.g. meat and dairy, fetishes, swearing and blaspheming (I’m vegan, heterosexual and generally mild mannered, and it/they’ve told me “get over your morals”).

Other aspects of the ‘programs’ I’ve been put through are sleep deprivation (both preventing me from sleeping plus waking me up, orchestrating my dreams including both characters I don’t know and people from my past within them, even commentating through them as if watching at the same time like a cinema – my body being their entertainment system and mind a virtual scenario e.g. I’ve been used as a video game character in dreams and even shown the graphics for a dream environment) and loss of appetite (not even being able to drink). “But we can’t let you sleep until [wanting something/another method/to know who I am]”, “we’ll let you have a few minutes every [few] hours”. Taking the ‘third eye’ colours (such as the Green and Blue you described when you learned how to use your pineal gland), blinding with too much light/brightness, shutting out the light like using a set of inner eyelids/shutters on the eyes, deafening, inner mind voice vs mouth voice, making my inner voice silent, stopping sentences, unable to pronounce letters, loss of diction/sentence structure/word definitions, unable to mouth speak, feeling like I can’t talk to other people or even be around them because my very presence desecrates them and isn’t good enough, parroting the ‘voices’ to separate it/them from my own, it/they imitate my voice, make it louder, make it hard for me to discern it/theirs and my own, play music/songs in my mind. I’m so used to it I sometimes have to talk within my head myself constantly to try to drown them out/block them and then I can’t stop, finishing their sentences and able to carry out whole conversations whether they’re talking or not. They’re able to cause ecstatic emotions/feeling of greatness, a “visionary”, (“she’s special”), godhood, disliking me talking in third person (apparently made them ‘feel’ guilty), body consciousness/disgust, sexual focus/inappropriate sexual focus/machismo, fear of being watched/listened to various consequences such as indigestion/constipation and a couple of fits (all of which they could relieve/end manually) and finally having to let go of all inhibitions/want of privacy, creating a “soldier” (without the violence) at times obeying commands to go to the bathroom/get changed.

I’m suffering memory loss from missing dreams, general knowledge, specific knowledge i.e. from studied subjects, diction/definitions, basic mathematics, even my favourite things like movies/books/music, a loss of appreciation for nature and day to day events, even thoughts from a few moments before to the point of torturers ‘helping’ [themselves ultimately] telling me where things are/how to do things/how to behave in public so as not to get in trouble, they especially didn’t like the outbursts of ‘manic’ laughter I temporarily had. Apparently any deviation from my ‘normal’ behaviour in public could get them into trouble despite their threats of terrorism and Manchurian Candidate (“ice-cream candidate” i.e. I scream candidate for a/the “game” which supposedly incorporates “players” who can access your stats such as location/looks/storyline(s), apparently they don’t all know each other – can play alone and/or in groups – and don’t all have the same access to your information; “you called”, “I didn’t know you looked like that”, “but I’ve been there, I’ve seen where she lives”, “where does she live, give me her address”, it’s always changing). Much of this ordeal seems very like Franz Kafka’s ‘The Trial’ where there’s a secret court/trial/tribulation and indeed detainment/imprisonment going on in my own head/mind and body. “She’ll know what it’s like to get raped everyday” (even in a physical location somewhere “Argentinean prison”.)

Belief and lackthereof has been a major point for them, wanting me to believe anything they say (from lovebite storylines, dreamspace ‘police’/military and militia and “hospital”/double/cloning related, private contractors, ultraterrestrial and extraterrestrial to terrorism/criminal, US vs Russia, British Secret Service, aristocracy/royalty, Skull and Crossbones society, brotherhood, astral/space travelling or remote viewing, paranormal investigators, watchers etc) to becoming disassociative, desensitized, disconnected and ultimately despondent. Shame, humiliation and blame are also their focus, sporadically inserting moments of ‘reward’ to get me through, allow me a few moments of ‘grace’ before the next punishment which most recently has included being able to move/jerk my limbs for me (which I call ‘shocking’ and they call “punching”), buzzing in my head and masking my Mother’s presence – a few days ago (can’t even remember the day) we went to the New Forest (UK, England) and all I heard was a fly buzzing behind me until it/they cleared up the noise it/they’d started in the first place and I realized it was my Mother praying behind me. They probably found that offensive since they added a new sound after that, I’ve gotten used to so much noise whether loud or quiet (since they let me ‘hear’ them whatever the volume – volume they can adjust) that my left and right side hearing switches and I’m having trouble traveling outside especially on roads.

It/they enjoy confusing me; playing all sides ‘good cop’, ‘bad cop’, ‘in between’ sometimes all at once or in ‘shifts’ as well as initiating or gauging and then reiterating/reinforcing fears into phobias.

I’ve become very much the invalid trying to convalesce, unable to move around much, sit/stand straight, really cold all the time (have to wear far more clothing/blankets than necessary), lost most of my physical strength (I was very fit) and am generally lethargic and feel ill. Being unable to laugh or cry properly has hit me hard. Exercise has no effect for me anymore either, anything a tiny bit ‘stressful’ like brushing my teeth is overdoing it, all the breathing techniques I had are of no help and the visualization methods are particularly detrimental (in addition to the hilarity over me being unfeminine now).

I only sound lucid now because I’ve been making notes throughout the year and this is an occasion where I can somewhat concentrate because it’s selfish or about something it/they find interesting. They’ve called me many things and have claimed they know about my blood sugar level, blood type/pressure, have collected bodily fluids (yet apparently don’t have any of my ‘physical’ DNA), that they fixed a chronic jaw issue which I should apparently grateful for. That I’m a “paranoid schizophrenic”, that I have “leukemia”, “alopecia”, “epilepsy”, “cerebral palsy”, multiple/split personality” and verged on “body dismorphia” (but didn’t want to go there), “sickle cell”, “aspergers”, “diptheria”, “you should have the flu” and “smoke” (in additional to coded language/terminology they use whilst imitating my own style of talking “Dolly dialogue”). Yet when they back off a little I don’t feel physically ill, my sense of humour even shows a tad but I simply cannot stand its/their presence, just knowing it/they’re there is too much for me. “I/We bought you”, “you’re mine”, “you’re interesting” (though I don’t understand how anymore), “it’s (having me) fun” and constantly grading/rating me “pass”, “fail”, using criteria like intelligence and imagination and marks out of 10.

The point is I’m ready to die or “murder by assassination” as they call it “we don’t make people suicidal, it’s unprofessional” (in addition to the “you’re already in/going back to the [insane] asylum” in their so-called “hospital” in which I apparently “wail”, have been convicted and drugged).

Torture

https://dutchblend.files.wordpress.com/2011/06/hood_headphones_what_is.jpg (I’d add a two way mirror and observers pushing buttons).

I’m not (the following are names it/they’ve used for/about me): a bunch of Indian goddess names, Venus, Delilah, runt, cybernetic (told me to look this up in a legal dictionary, hybrid, spy, hacker, weapon, tool, Queen of Sheba, psychotronic whore, mad Max, mollusc, Mother Hubbard (cupboards bare), Horatio, Hamlet, Heaven, panther, samead, gypsy, Black Beauty, blacksmith, archer, songs from the animation ‘Sleeping Beauty’, calling themselves Mad Men (like the tv show?) Susie Q (I wasn’t sure what that was about other than the Creedence Clearwater Revisited song or Susie Quatro but when I read about the woman who was used in the US-Iraq situation where she said Iraq wasn’t responsible/weren’t doing the things the US claimed, ‘my’ voices didn’t like me learning that and the name was from ‘Suddenly Susan’ – tv show .) Shark bait, ventriloquist’s dummy. Joseph of Arimathea, Mary, Juggernaut (idol of Krishna – perhaps a double meaning though), Holy Ghost. Constant references to wine, bread, cheese and fish – even “you’re not White wine” (not Red), a reference to Dionysus – god of wine and madness, also one day “we broke bread for you” as well as chicken & egg words; ugly duckling, scrambled, omlete etc.

There’s no forgiving and forgetting.