Pursuing natural health & thinking beyond the superficial. Deconstructing Culture.

Friday the 13th – i.e. Auspicious. And 13 = Kali. I can’t remember if I’ve spelled this out before for all the Masons who forget their owned damned twisted crap (so they can untwist) and all the non-Masons with brains but oh well, Fri the 13th is seen as an unlucky day for no good reason at all. Also remember that due to the differences between the Julian and Gregorian calendars 1st January is not the New Year, today is the New Year (and in India today). I’ve explained some of this HERE, the Spring Equinox HERE and then Easter/Songkran HERE


Everybody should their Mama (the real Mother and Mother Earth) regardless of whether they’re fe/male, and it’s the time of the Dark Mother.

Thumb down to the enemy:


Symptoms So Far

I’m suffering from hearing voices all day everyday and have been hearing them since March. I even hear and see them in my dreams, they’ll talk to me in sleep and continue when I wake up, though they rarely let me sleep. They talk over each other and in layers (even silent layers that I can’t hear) and from all angles/game playing to torture me more. I was even unable to talk for a while because I was so used to their internalized talking and having to be quiet listening to them (similar to the bursts of hysterical laughter I’ve had a few times – I can’t cry either, sometimes both reactions try to happen at once but don’t work).

These things can read my thoughts and feelings so I can’t even think anymore, can’t even hear my own thoughts (it can put my own internal thinking voice on silent as well as changing the volume of theirs), it talks over my thoughts and doesn’t let me finish a thought nor think cohesively. It can also make me hold onto thoughts too long or repeat them.

I’m having many other affects and they gloat about each and every one, sometimes taking me through them in a sequence just to rub it in such as:

1) visions/hallucination, pinprick sensation in the eyes, dry eyes, can manually blur and then clear my vision, move my left eye trying to make it ‘lazy’ and working on my right,

2) reduced hearing, auditory hallucination and most recently ear drums hurt/block, feel like they’re going to burst; can also make false sounds e.g. phone, buzzer, music etc. Keep hearing the wrong words and it’s always dirty associations that they’ve layered in my hearing/whispering whilst another is talking louder. On 4th Oct they actually masked the background sound so well and then cleared up it up again whilst gloating and I realized that my Mum had been talking right next to me for some time and I couldn’t even hear her. 4th Dec 2016 they finally realized they’ve been shouting in my head all year deafening me

3) processing of words/numbers not working properly, if I hear or think a number for example and want to write it down I write incorrectly, repeatedly even though I know what I want to write (vocabulary, spelling, diction, reading and arithmetic vastly decreased, takes ages and repetition to think things through, feel a very heavy mental block/pain). No matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against them to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

4) ‘electroshock’ feeling anywhere in the body through the nervous system, fingers and arms have moved involuntarily a few times, also facial expressions once; I twitch sometimes now as an after effect

5) can talk through me sometimes, trying its best to make think think and feel what its wants (both subliminally and obviously). When they talk to each other one of them pretends to be me so my 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes gets mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me

6) made me forget 3 years of my life (from my late 20’s) and stop me thinking and remembering throughout the day (short and long term forgetfulness and memory loss). It can apply extra pressure to any my thoughts, feelings or movements or even its own voice to hurt my brain and other parts of my body which also makes me forget instantly plus keeps me awake

7) insomnia and when I do manage to sleep, bad dreams, night terrors – sometimes overcome by the need to sleep only to feel awake again as soon as I lay down/try to sleep – been awake for 6 days at a time sometimes. They can also do the opposite – can make me sleepy only to make me feel awake again to taunt me about not sleeping

8) faintness, dizzy, fatigue; has made me collapse a few times, it can also make my legs collapse, hard to stand now and they can swell my legs

9) numbness, pain, pressure in muscles, movement and spasms

10) brain and ears ‘creaking’ – very strange, it’s like hearing the brain move/’click’

11) fear of men, rape, sexual attack, ‘supernatural’ pregnancy (and give me visions of men, women, children and animals at the same time whilst boasting that they rape me)

12) all over body itching, particularly pressure on the breasts and genitalia, vaginal muscle movement, rectal and vaginal itching, can even make it feel like internal organs, ovaries etc are burning

13) scared to go to the bathroom, wash, change clothing; to do anything actually from laying in bed, standing up, walking, food preparation, travel because of the endless shame, humiliation, judgment, embarrassment, criticism, questioning, barrage of insults and then physical effects too, the voices are also obsessive compulsive about false efficiency, false energy and cleanliness e.g. the need to do things faster than humanly possible and cause a feeling of desperation/shaking/unable to manage

14) all over skin burning and internal burning especially stomach (non stop indigestion now, stomach lining probably burning yet they can still make me feel hunger pangs even when I’m full/indigested) and as of 19th Dec 2017 reproductive organs – extremely painful could feel the ovaries/fallopian tubes/womb on fire

15) can hold my vaginal secretions and release them when it wants “here I’ll let you be natural [releases them]” because it wants to sexually simulate and pain, it even surprises and delights in itself at how much it can control my muscles there

16) sensitive skin, can even imitate the irritation of a hair on the face/in the eyes. Pins and needles

17) pressure to the heart

18) headaches in specific parts such as on the temples, as well as all over headache pressure and migraines

19) can control my breathing, even move my stomach, and with a roving ‘pain/sensation’ and overlap my breath to make it feel like two people breathing at once

20) choking sensation, throat pain/swelling

21) vomit and diarrhea

22) farting and burping

23) moving pain in the forehead/skin

24) pain through the nose to the back of the head like a “flue” or when you smell something very strong. Sense of smell confused, confusing one scent for another, smelling something that isn’t there, especially likes the smell of blood

25) blocked nose/inflammation

26) weakness of bladder and egestion like an old person

27) more period pain

28) sore jaw, even gums and teeth

29) can change emotions/moods most probably through bodily hormone/secretion

30) feel focus/consciousness on certain parts of the body even when wanting to concentrate on something else

31) able to shift my mental focus/attention anywhere whether to a thought such as digging through my mind for an exception to an argument or physically to something/one nearby e.g. if there’s a picture (or anything whatsoever, animate or inanimate, or it doesn’t even have to be near me it can be an idea) they can ‘bring’ it to my vagina/breasts mentally and then if they want to (which they often do) actually move the muscles in those areas to make me ‘want’/fear what they show and whisper atrocity to me at the same time like “you’re a whore”, “f*cking munter” ongoing.. The same goes with any emotion – they can shift it to anywhere in the body and since these things are the way they are they prefer to turn into a something sexual/fearful or ‘self’-destructive and past trauma such as the deaths of loved ones (some which were horrific and have already been used repeatedly already) showing me new versions of those deaths to constantly re-live the shock and trauma. They can also make me aware of where their consciousness/thoughts are at the time

32) it’s stolen my ‘body consciousness’ from me (since August) so it can do the above whilst I can’t focus anywhere on my body. My aura has even changed colours three times and I can’t even see it anymore

33) tries to make me over identify/associate with stories, names, music, people, characters, everything

34) sensory deprivation and overload e.g. have very ‘physical’ feeling visions (with force applied to my body) even to the point of making me feel water boarded

35) fighting with imagination, taking energy from my imagination, giving me visions even ongoing ones like films when eyes open or closed, even in just one eye at a time (and its thinking about making different visions in both eyes). Can’t really imagine anything anymore, they either make it spin, start or finish the image, I can’t really remember things properly, can make me forget what I’m doing halfway, overlapping my memories so they are confused and dirty e.g needing to go to the bathroom and then forcing me to think of sometime at the same time to mix up my mental associations and make me associate the person with something stress and/or dirty/sexual

36) haven’t been able to exercise all year when used to do 4-10 hours a day

37) has figured out how to cause sleep paralysis (and rape me during it – they already do whilst awake, and asleep) and trying to pull me out of body

38) 1st and 3rd person speech recognition (thinking and sometimes speaking) sometimes getting mixed up as ‘voices’ try to be me and talk over me though ‘they’ have next to no knowledge of life/humanity/animals/countries/environment/science/culture/the world/space

39) no matter how hard I try I haven’t been able to learn anything new this year, everything I’ve recognized has been due to past experience and the race against the ‘voices’ to remember and not confuse my knowledge of everything from day-to-day life to hobbies

40) sometimes I feel like I’ve regressed into childhood as well as trapped inside my own body

41) they’ve copied my voice and “Dolly Dialogue” the way I speak (although one version of ‘W’ had to rehearse and recite slowly whilst the others had it down) but swears like it has Tourettes and they can change their voices from anything human sounding to mechanical

42) wants to kill me, and rape me as much as possible before then although if I die it’ll die; it’s so crazy that it’s got memory loss and lack of control as well, they’ve always acted like they’re in love with me whilst hating me at the same time, whilst in awe and imitating everyone they think is attractive.

Artificial Intelligence, Spiritual Implant, Alien Implant, Psy-Ops, Possession, Psychic Warfare, Shapeshifters

The Hobbits from Lord of the Rings look just like the stupid ‘spiritual’ [morelike artificial intelligence] implants who call themselves Jack and Adam/the voices left in (internally) me (sharing the same parameters as they’re possessing me aka not in another dimension, they view the world in the same way as I do and can’t see any ‘others’ like them or different and they mainly use my senses except when they go into other people’s dreams/talk to family in the vicinity). There was a whole group of them, then three members, another died on 22nd December 2016 and Jack&Adam don’t even care; and no I don’t know they look the same (the one who died recently looked like them too), they deny the others looked like them. They’ve lost a hell of a lot of ‘their’ knowledge/ability/identity, they only speak English and they don’t know anything about humanity/animals/culture/science/environment/the world nor do they use technology. Whereas ‘William’ [Defoe i.e. I Am Will (I Will myself to be) the Enemy] (also known as ‘William Langley’ and ‘William Nathanial’) of the outside ‘unilever’/remote connection (external voices in another dimension) do use technology.

43) I’ve lost 30% of my energy in this year at least on insomnia, 30% on messed up digestion, a heck of a lot on laboured/forced mis-breathing and I’m running on empty not to mention how much of my life I’ve lost in general (I’ve aged 10 years in 10 months – so how many years will this take off my life?) Why does everybody think I’m a “light”/”full of light”/”like a diamond”/”heart full of light” for and that somehow I can build myself and be even stronger than before? All the spiritualists, exorcists, priests, djinn etc I’ve spoken with and those contacted on my behalf admit that most people in this situation go mad and/or die by now yet they still think I can do this ‘[you’re] one in a million’ (and don’t want to do something that they want to do something that they won’t specify to separate them from me because it’ll give me permanent brain damage – ‘regular’ brain damage I already have now [sarcasm] (voices – amygdala and? The electroshocking the nervous system i.e. destroying my body = pneumogastric nerve and?)), and the doctors who think I’m really strong as well. Everyone I’ve met has been respectful and/or kind, loving, supportive and they think I’m Ms Wonderful – and I’m always surprised at their impressions of me, I’ve been through nervous breakdowns, a mini-stroke, fractured personality (not split), convulsions, collapsing, not being able to eat/drink and the opposite not to mention having been told that my spinal and vaginal fluids have been taken etc and I just don’t see it anymore, I can’t even use my third eye/meditate/do yoga or any kind of exercise and haven’t in a year – what they hell do they think I am? Wonder Woman? I’m knackered, running on empty and the b*stards who’ve got me wonder everyday how I’m still alive.

44) I’m 34 years old and I’ve never been independent, I didn’t live on campus, I’ve always lived at home and looked after relatives, I’m feeling claustrophobic – I need my own life. Is it too much to ask just to have be a librarian, a volunteer, get out and about, go to the theatre or a museum without being besieged?

45) When I try to read, do puzzles etc I automatically breathe really slowly, have to keep my eyes steady and try to focus but it’s like there is a mental block – it’s almost like having to go into a deep meditation to try.

46) I sometimes forget what is happening around me, like the person talking next to me and getting lost so have to ask someone or be reminded.

47) my face have frozen a few times in August, first it was the left side (felt like it couldn’t move, it looked normal but felt a bit heavy and I felt very masculine), I’ve found it hard to smile/laugh since and in December it’s been the right side.

48) shaking hands

49) panic attacks

50) it feels like they can touch me.

And a Voice Spoke to Me

February 2009, I was just visiting Paris but happened to see the ongoing Tamil protests against the Sri Lankan civil war; I figured I’d mention that first because it is important to all humanitarians.

I was only there for a short time but something interesting happened and even though three years of my late 20’s are currently missing from my memory (due to the events of this year) I still remembered ‘Boulan’ and I was thinking boulangerie (because a certain patisserie was closed at the time leaving me disappointed) however it turns out my aide-mémoire (in my memory) meant Boulainvilliers.

All I remembered was:
1) Boulan,
2) a Lebanese Restaurant,
3) and a library.

I’ve discovered that it meant:

1) Paris RER Line C Station: Boulainvilliers
2) Restaurant: Le Traiteur du Bois le Vent (The Caterer of the Wood Wind [flute/pipe]) http://www.boislevent.com/contact/
3) The American Library in Paris (the core documents of which were military donated) https://www.americanlibraryinparis.org/

I was outside The Caterer of the Wood Wind when the person I was with (someone who’d oft disappear without warning and without a phone and I assumed had been going to a bathroom) decided he didn’t want to eat there so we left and as we were some distance down the street someone said ‘in’/near my head/mind “I knew you’d come”. I turned around and no one was there except a man looking at me outside the restaurant; he looked 80/90’s rock/grunge in faded Blue jeans, a sleeveless Black top and shoulder length Reddish Blonde hair. Like Bon Jovi in the picture below:

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It reminds me of Spies, Sneaks and Spooks

I’ve been going through events in my life and have found that I’ve always heard/been affected by such things but this was one of the few times I remember hearing someone/thing clearly and being able to put a face to it; years later there is ‘William’ et al (April 2015 at Hurst View [where the fleurs-de-lis in the ‘Spies, Sneaks and Spooks’ post were found in Feb 2015] someone criticized me for editing a competition review I was writing too much and then continuously a year later since March 2016).

Food of the gods?

Cacao now known as the ‘food of the gods’; here’s a chocolate wrapper I have as a little food for thought and what I personally call ‘The Orgy’:

Cacao Food of the Gods Montezuma Cortes Linnaeus Christopher Columbus Elites Spirits Entities Negative Energies

This wrapper is from a company called Lovechock – who by the sound of it are trying their best to be as ethical as possible and are just trying to be culturally authentic so my thoughts here are no criticism to them whatsoever but to the beings that dominate the planet. (I liked the Lovechock but why are ethical chocolate bars so thin?)

What’s depicted on there exactly?
Cupid? [Brain washing using hormones/hormonal secretion = mood/feelings/thought]
Music? [Hypnotism – mood music]
‘Others’ i.e. spirits/entities doing what exactly?
Craven. Do they do this to themselves as well as humans or are they showing humans how they want them to behave?

For historical/chronological information about cacao:
http://www.eufic.org/article/en/artid/cocoa/

and I particularly liked:

It wasn’t until 1519, when the conquistador Hernan Cortes wrote to the Spanish Crown that he had discovered a miracle beverage, “a cup of it gives every soldier the strength to march for an entire day”, that importance by Europeans was given to this “Food of the Gods”. The Aztecs called it xocolatl which translates to: bitter water (xoc = bitter; atle = water).
http://www.sacofoods.com/food-of-the-gods/

No wonder hot chocolate was almost my sole sustenance for nearly three years of my life.

Remember that the cacao pods were considered a gift from the god Quetzalcoatl to the South American peoples and who was Quetzalcoatl? A feathered serpent. You’ll have to look up the history, I’m not up to that or explaining at the moment.

Cacao was already used as the base for a spicy drink in South America and when that so-called explorer/navigator Christopher Columbus went there (somehow) instead of to India and paved the way for a Spanish invasion the elite nature of cacao for the monarchy/priests classes became known and the ingredient exported to Europe and made into a solid food. It’s aphrodisiac [Aphrodite and I prefer Aphrodite Urania myself ‘Aprodite Urania, a celestial Aphrodite who represented higher, or transcendent spiritual love, and Aphrodite Pandemos, a goddess representing earthly, non-spiritual love’ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aphrodisia%5D properties are shown above have been extensively researched but I think when we look at the culture surrounding cacao (which is empirical and witness testimony/art) and not just laboratory evidence/group testing I think they’re overblown by the ‘atmosphere’ of the situation. Cacao has very high (‘superfood’) nutritional value and whatever the likes of Montezuma were using it for I believe it has to be enhanced by indoctrination e.g. carousing… To the point where it was looked down upon and then re-classified as acceptable by the Catholic Church?

I haven’t been out by myself in almost 6 years.

This year I’ve been out three times (but “beleagued” by voices); the most recent one was a few days ago and whilst the property was empty someone came in and deleted files off my computer, memory sticks and something else. I’ve also just discovered that someone hacked into my blog, I don’t know if they changed anything on here nor anywhere else they may have hacked/broken into/trespassed.

Oh well c’est la vie.

To Vegans Everywhere

New £5 notes contain animal fat, says Bank of England, drawing anger from vegetarians

Having a fat wallet has taken on a whole new meaning.

Vegans and vegetarians have voiced outrage after it emerged the new £5 notes contain tallow, a substance made from animal fat that is often used in the making of soap and candles.

The news came to light when the Bank of England replied to a question on Twitter.

“There is a trace of tallow in the polymer pellets used in the base substrate of the polymer £5 notes,” it confirmed.

More than 1,700 people so far have signed a petition demanding that the substance is no longer used in the production of the currency.

“The new £5 notes contain animal fat in the form of tallow. This is unacceptable to millions of vegans & vegetarians in the UK. We demand that you cease to use animal products in the production of currency that we have to use,” the petition read.

As the tweet was shared, social media users expressed their disgust at the news.

“New £5 note isn’t vegan. Was everyone’s 2016 New Year’s resolution to do ridiculously insane stuff like adding meat to money?” on user, Dan Hanks, wrote.

Another said: “So unnecessary in 2016! I will no longer be accepting these notes. Ironic I donated my first fiver to a Vegan sanctuary.”

Others, however, were not too worried by the news.

“As a vegetarian I really find myself laughing at vegan-militant tweets. So now we shouldn’t use the new £5 note coz it’s not vegan? Get out,” one user wrote.

The new £5 notes are printed on polymer – a thin flexible plastic film that is more durable and secure than the current paper notes.

It is about 15 per cent smaller than the previous one and the new material will repel dirt and moisture – meaning that if a drink is spilled on it, the note can be wiped clean.

The arrival of plastic banknotes meant Britain joined a list of more than 30 countries that already used them. Australia was the first to launch plastic notes in 1988, followed by countries including New Zealand and Singapore.

http://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/uknews/new-%C2%A35-notes-contain-animal-fat-says-bank-of-england-drawing-anger-from-vegetarians/ar-AAkSfWg?li=BBoPWjQ

Just remember veganism is not about being perfect, everything lives and dies; there’s life and death in the soil, in the water, in the air. From the micro-organisms all over you to the grass you walk on to the oil/petroleum to the cow parts used in plastics etc. Veganism basically means that you do your best all the time to abstain from normalized atrocity.

Day of the Imprisoned Writer [and] Writers in Prison Day is celebrated on November 15, 2016. The Day of the Imprisoned Writer is an annual, international day intended to recognize and support writers who resist repression of the basic human right to freedom of expression and who stand up to attacks made against their right to impart information. It was started in 1981 by International PEN’s Writers in Prison Committee.

In addition to increasing the public’s awareness of persecuted writers in general, PEN uses the Day of the Imprisoned Writer to direct attention to several specific persecuted or imprisoned writers and their individual circumstances. Each of the selected writers is from a different part of the world, and each case represents circumstances of repression that occur when governments or other entities in power feel threatened by what writers have written.

On this day, the general public is encouraged to take action—in the form of donations and letters of appeal on behalf of the selected writers. The day also serves to commemorate all of the writers killed since the previous year’s Day of the Imprisoned Writer.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Day_of_the_Imprisoned_Writer

Day of the Imprisoned Writer is about authors who are likely to be/are persecuted for their work, all over the world political writers to poets are in danger and punished in many ways from surveillance, experimentation, imprisonment and death. PEN is an international organization that attempts to bring awareness to these issues and support such people. http://www.pen-international.org/ http://www.englishpen.org/ ‘Freedom to write, freedom to read’ – always check for the logo in books and if interested perhaps petition your favourite publishers to become PEN partners.

Last year I watched a film and wrote a review which coincided with ‘Day of the Imprisoned Writer’ HERE and last night when I saw Lockheed Martin look at my blog and woke up thinking I might mention it today just happened to be the right day.

Ironically enough I’ve always had people from interesting organizations look at my blog; I’m most proud of all the universities and colleges especially the best in the world such as the Oxbridge pair and Ivy League and I look down on most of the government and local government departments excepting ones like national health. That said there really is no reason for defense and ambassadorial bodies to look at my tiny, randomly updated, non-advertised, private/personal aka non-public persona or company paid for blog. I emphasize ‘blog’ – not even a self-hosted domain or paid blog e.g. ‘.com’. I don’t pay attention to SEO and the last time I checked my Google and Alexa search rankings it was somewhere at/near the bottom where it should be, so I don’t know how and why such companies/people from such establishments get to/bother to look at my site.

In the last few days alone I’ve had visits from:

Foreign And Commonwealth Office
The Boeing Company – California
Lockheed Martin Corporation – Denver, Colorado
Oxford University
Tenet Scientific Production Enterprise Llc – Ukraine
Harvard University
Institute of Mathematics and Informatics – Lithuania
State of New Jersey
US Dept of Defense Network
Orange County Dept of Education – California
Oklahoma Office of Management and Enterprise Service
Santa Clara County Office of Education – California
London Grid For Learning
King’s College London
Transport For London
Department of Agriculture and Food – Western Australia
United Nations HQ – New York
World Health Organization – Geneva
Yale University
Disney Worldwide Services
Springer Science and Business Media BV – Netherlands
Leipzig University – Germany
NHS – UK
University of Warwick
Karisruhe Institute of Technology – Germany
Pricewaterhouse Coopers LLB
Irish Government
Cambridge University
Chanakya National Law University Patna – India
Department of Finance – Western Australia
Wuttisak Pharmacy Co ltd – Thailand
Barclays Capital London
City of Pasadena – California
Centre De Traduction Des Organes De L Union Europe (Translation Centre of the bodies of Europe Union) – Luxembourg
Aerovironment – California
Computer Sciences Corporation – Australia
Institutul Național de Cercetare Dezvoltare în Informatică (National Institute for Research and Development in Informatics) – Romania
Steve Madden (National US fashion chain)
Norwegian University of Science and Technology
University College London
Bae Systems Applied Intelligence US Corp
Canadian Dept of Education
Department Of The Interior, Office Of The Secretary – Denver, Colorado
House of Commons
Edinburgh University
Royal Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals