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The Tomorrow People UK 70's tv sci-fi alternative history mythology show galactic federation aliens

Eh what’s that? You thought the Galactic Alliance (GA) or Galactic Federation (GF – and sometimes Galactic Federation of Light :roll: ) as it’s more commonly called was invented by Star Trek (United Federation of Planets) or Lilo & Stitch? Well I don’t know where nor when they were invented but they do take quite the prominent role in UK tv show ‘The Tomorrow People’ (1973-79). I should say before I continue that people around the world believe in the Galactic Federation, not as a cult following of this somewhat obscure series but as something they’ve heard of, I don’t blame them for that – the idea of a benevolent group of um… Places in our/and or various galaxies having representatives and forming a coalition of peace and keeping the riff raff out but in this tiny life of mine I couldn’t imagine it working. Committees aren’t my thing but then neither are dictatorships and courts are enough to make anyone sick unless they’re addicted to competitive debate and black mass cosplay. That doesn’t stop people hoping though, and believing in things like The Ashtar Command, the Zetas, Adama wait I think he’s GA’s blond blue eyed guy boss head… Lemme see who else the Andromedans, the Pleidians, Cassiopeians, Archons, the peeps from Sirius and Orion can’t miss those celebs out and well everywhere else possible. Again not an unreasonable thing to think there’s life or as many prefer to say ‘intelligent life’ ‘out there’ unless you suffer from excessive arrogance but I’m disenchanted with the Earth and how everything these groups say is too little, too late. Also just because I know something (and I’m not saying the aforementioned aliens are true) doesn’t mean I believe [in] it. I know humanity exists but I have little to no faith in us as a species. Make sense?

Good let’s move on.

The theme tune is fittingly bizarre and intense alongside the image sequence which changes per story arc but has some interesting staple pictures:

The Tomorrow People UK 70's tv sci-fi alternative history mythology show galactic federation aliens

All seeing Eye spy is that a particle accelerator? No wonder CERN had Shiv in their lobby. Ignore the circles forming a circle around the eye, that’s from the video player

There were 8 series with 22 story arcs, story arcs had a varying number of episodes throughout and series 8 had only 1 arc consisting of 4 episodes. The series wasn’t secure, pitted as an alternative Dr Who (1963-present) but not so well produced it saw constant changes to its lineup bar 1 character who apparently cheated his way into the part and if true understandable that he was reluctant to give it up.


Youngsters who represent humanity’s next stage of evolution (if you agree with/believe in the theory of evolution), they are no longer homo-sapiens but homo-superiors. Possessing psionic powers e.g. telepaphy, telekineses and teleportation, and with energy transfer abilities like that can also heal. Having such a stage of self-possession/control they also have different mindsets i.e. they’re not aggressive (but can defend & stun), they don’t kill (excluding ‘lesser animals’ whatever they technically are), they don’t support or take sides with military, they are not patriotic as they work and indeed exist to advance all humanity and they’re moderators in the galaxy at large.

They do not start out at members of the GF because Earth does not have enough of a telepathic population to qualify but over the series they gain exceptional status of honorary members as ambassadors of an ’emerging planet’. Plotwise they mostly start without knowing about the GF or who their local representative of the GF is and yet John, the fist known Tperson built their secret lab in an abandoned London underground station with some help from the GF and their biological computer TIM has the voice of their GF representative Timus and knowledge of the GF. John at 17 is a scientist/inventor and also the unofficial leader – it had to happen sometime eh instead of the tech ‘guy’ being in the background although I’ve seen an awesome cartoon called ‘Detentionaire’ (2011-15) where the tech guy is also the big thug bully and the protagonist a boffin or an ‘original [cool] boffin’ as some of us used to call ourselves in school… I chuckled when the first time the Tpeople come into contact with the GF over some notorious galactic criminals was in Kennington where I grew up (and the weird things that happened there).

What are their goals in life – to find and help other Tomorrow People adjust to their growing pains since becoming a Tperson is a bit like puberty except for the first few it was almost fatal and only gets easier the more Tpeople there are, to prevent them falling into the hands of unscrupulous people like various military and governments who see them both as a threat and potential weapons, and to generally ‘do the right thing’ but sometimes that turns into doing the pragmatic thing and helping parasites in order to ultimately save Earth. I found those occasions particularly distasteful given I’m not an end justifies the means person. Overall though I could sympathize and empathize with them, they’re damned if they do damned if they don’t since if they told people about themselves they’d be subject to all kinds of harassment and negativity, people who’d begrudge, try to debunk/humiliate them and feeling the need to prove they’re just as ‘special’ whilst those with power/money try to use/abuse them. In the series we come across telepaths who aren’t Tpeople and the difference seems to be that anyone can be telepathic but a Tperson emerges out of the concern for the welfare of others. Jealousy is an issue, both telepaths and non-telepaths don’t listen to Tpeople because they’re too busy hating them and jumping to assumptions.

Arguably the Tpeople are not actually tomorrow people but original/early Earth peoples/beings as described by old cultures when referring to really bygone days, the iconic ‘golden age [of everything]’ or ‘when I were a lad/lassie err I mean my great, great, great, greatgreatgreat, great, great so and so was around things were better, life was simpler, people weren’t as disgusting, ‘orrible and generally deserving of a good slap’ etc.

The lineup of the Tpeople changed regularly throughout the series and I found most of their exits to be unsatisfactory, they just disappeared never to be seen again and sometimes we got a short explanation before quickly moving on. Overall there were 9 members with John being the most dominant one so you often to and fro between liking/disliking him, Elizabeth who was a rare Black actress lead on tv at the time and the show played to that big time mentioning her skin colour as much as possible but interestingly for all the [top notch and true] talks she gives on social prejudice we never see her discriminated against for that rather people are impressed with her colouring especially those who’ve never seen a dark skinned person before. That said when she’s not talking we don’t often see her do much of anything and in that respect I preferred Carol who was always ready to get involved, she good at both talking and physically helping out and seemed to have boundless energy which I admired. The two really stand out characters for Stephen and later Mike – they were younger mid-teens and did the most undercover work, Stephen was quite the well mannered knight in shining armor and Mike was my favourite (probably because at first he reminded me of me and then later I found him sweetly amusing); he was a regular London boy whereas John and Stephen were posh, he looked after his mum and sister, kept an eye out for the people on his block and wasn’t satisfied when he realised the law is hypocritical to class, he was also abit of a gentleman towards females like Stephen. The other Tpeople weren’t given as much of a chance but they included: Kenny, a 12 year old Black boy who seemed to like his solitude, apparently his acting was deemed as wooden but I liked him, Tyso another younger boy from gypsy lineage, lives in a caravan with his family and is generally willing and eager to help out, Hsui-Tai a mid-teen Chinese girl who didn’t have much of a part but did well when paired with Andrew a young-midteen Scottish boy who split his time between Tpeople HQ and his home up north, they both had strong heritage in their clothing & accents and just generally got on well together.

The Tomorrow People UK 70's tv sci-fi alternative history mythology show galactic federation aliens
The Tomorrow People UK 70's tv sci-fi alternative history mythology show galactic federation aliens

On a sidenote – their ability to teleport was called ‘jaunting’, a name I wasn’t keen on, and they were able to jaunt short range but with the help of a belt (and later bracelet) they could go long distance and with TIM’s help even further.


Ah well here’s where you might get some more interesting info than you usually find elsewhere:

  • The Galactic Police I mean Federation cover 64 million planets spread over 5 galaxies.
  • Enough telephathic creatures make a planet eligible for membership, otherwise it’s a ‘closed planet’ i.e. a no-go area but that doesn’t stop non-telepathic races visiting since they’re not members and they can do whatever they want with said planet/inhabitants as the GF have a ‘non-interference’ policy on those. Apparently telepathic planets require permission so if you’re not telepathic you’re open-house, ouch.
  • There are 1 million+ ’emergent’ planets revolving around an insignificant sun, insignificant solar systems, in the rim of a rather insignificant galaxy, double ouch.

That said depending on the personality of your GF representative, they might be more or less caring of your emergent status – in our case our rep is seemingly well meaning and slyly uses the Tpeople to help out in areas where their skills are needed but can’t officially send them e.g. to closed planets where people have been enslaved.

  • The GF headquarters is called The Trig.

Another organization which may or may not be linked to the GF is the ‘Eternal Order of Time Guardians’, they are time travelers who use ‘tine lanes’ and ensure that events happen as they should or stay happened as they were… In one story arc Peter (the Time Guardian, also telepathic) is captured and needs the Tpeople to help him ensure that a rogue time traveler doesn’t make the Roman empire last longer than it did. It involves the death of another boy who did die at that time, they have an opportunity to change that but should they – it’s a moving story and I could feel just as Elizabeth showed the helplessness of feeling what’s the point in having power if you don’t/can’t use it to help and the sacrifice of one life is just one sacrifice too much, if someone needs help right in front of you how can you ignore it, and yet if they hadn’t the Roman empire would have spread, conquered, enslaved and continued to do so into space. These are the kinds of situations the Tpeople face all the time and I don’t always agree with their choices but it’s not easy when you’re massively outnumbered, that majority including groups/other animals who prey on you and when you can only trust each other otherwise you’ll end up in a not so nice end or existence of torment and then who’ll try to alleviate the mass suffering?

Sidenote – Peter calls the Tpeople ‘homo novus’ i.e. new man.

There were times when I wanted to give the GF a good swift kick up the backside. What’s the point in saying you won’t interfere and talk about free will, then watch all and sundry ravage a planet? The final episode echoed my sentiments – in which we’re shown the GF judiciary process similar to our court system where it can easily be about theatre and saving face in front of the public but of a very niche class in private. They can say whatever they want to/about you but if you say anything that possibly offends their fragile egos it’s contempt of court and that is somehow a criminal offence. (There’s a story arc in ‘The Rockford Files’ private detective US tv show 1974-80 that eloquently portrays how contempt of court and being held indefinitely without proper charges and trial is a convenient way of preventing/postponing justice by lawmakers, many of whom were born into or had the way paved into their profession, and have their own agendas besides or instead of responsible ‘authorities’.) The final arc also shows what happens to those who are technologically forwards and socially backwards.


Given that the production/visuals of the show left a lot to be desired especially in comparison to today’s standards it helped that the balance between story and acting really made this show interesting. The problem was that the stories and acting were hit and miss, when they had it they had it and when they didn’t it was obvious. Storylines covered all kinds of ground from reptilian shape shifters to mining the Earth, slavery on other planets, the Scottish Rite, sleep/dream manipulation, Ancient Egypt and the use of the pyramids, war in space etc. I think however the acting was at its best when they didn’t have to compete with bad stages & costumes and when they were focused on things they could probably relate to if they were really in the position such as the exploitation of power, bureaucracy, people willingly continuing the enforcement of barbaric practices taught and enacted upon them by masters just so they & ‘theirs’ can have relative safety/status in comparison to those they sell out, military/espionage – there’s one episode where a Russian female Tperson meets a most awful death and her bravery is truly befitting of her title. People are all too quick to use them as tools, she had no choice but she also knew what she had to do and damn well did it.

Then there were the low points like the Loch Ness Monster angle, the ‘bubble suits’ made out of bubble shaped alien skins that then possessed people, a reanimated Hitler made of green gloop and controlling others with black goo and it all started with the occasion they decided to do comedy in a dominatrix episode where for the one and only time they made fun of the alien characters, put them down and generally considered them pointless. In all of the other story arcs no matter how ridiculous the costumes were, or how strange the customs, how much they disagreed with or couldn’t understand them such as the silver men which religious fervor and a great big statue they believed guided them or beings who committing atrocities left, right and centre the Tpeople still showed them respect but for one episode the decided to go anti-feminist with the usual ignorant stereotyping and interestingly enough out of all the aliens it was pre-historic Mother Goddess culture that got twisted and got the brunt of it. Ironically they were also the only aliens that they incorporated into Earth culture but where they claimed they fitted in well, in Earth culture it’s shown that the ‘universal goddess’ theme was overthrown via degradation, demotion, deception, deviation, disrepute and dissemination in the Freemason usurper system which brought us ancient to modern day religions/patriarchy. From that story arc the series went downhill, the script wasn’t as gripping, the numbers of episodes per story were reduced and there were only a couple of highlights towards the end.

Before that they were quite meticulous in their culture/mythology for example most ‘alternative’ folk think that if reptilians exist then they’re the top dogs on this planet. However at the top of their pantheons usually sits a male known for his All Seeing Eye, it’s not often pointed out really so when I saw that the mechanoid/humanoid (reluctant to call it a cyborg or android) with the big ol’ serpent symbol on him was actually working for a cyclops I thought “not bad, not good either because it’s really crappily done but at least they got it in there” i.e Ra & his descendents in ancient Egypt became known for the one-eye, Shiv the alpha male of the vedic-Hindu pantheon is known for his enlightened third eye which only opens to destroy enemies and later there was Odin of the Norse pantheon. Plus the show not only put the upper hierarchy in there but the lower section too aka the human deviant group with ‘dinosaur’ on the back of their clothing. They are the human/dino hybrid made by reptilians to make lesser reptoid noble/ruling families i.e. the upper levels of the masonic degrees. (Two of those human hybrid/society that has secrets reps, the brothers Harding who have a US connection, after working against the Tpeople decide to protect them doing much of the physical violence that the Tpeople cannot and I don’t think I’ve seen a car – that belongs to one of them – covered in so many insignias before.)

Interestingly enough in the early episodes some of the sounds used, particularly piercing and droning ones may have an numbing/tiring effect on you that lifts as soon as they stop.

Ultimately the series seemed to express that war will never end as long as there are people who benefit in some way and consider war/espionage as duty/patriotism, a career and status. Many service personnel go on about ending war and the next best weapon will end war forever but as Elizabeth highlights with example after example the same train of thought was used with every stage of weapons development, each new type of weapon or spying strategy was going to put an end to war once and for all and it never did because without admitting it some people profit from war and want it to continue whilst they use those who need something to live/die for and an outlet for frustration to fight for them. Hence it’s misguided to go on about ‘serving one’s country’ when one’s nobles are busy marrying, going to the schools/educational institutes of, the weddings, parties etc of those they tell the public are the enemy and they have various levels of immunity and data secrecy from their ‘own people’ that lasts as long as they see fit. It’s even more pointless arguing such things with the TPeople who are beyond political boundaries and represent all of humanity instead of those who pit masses of people against others in their ancient grudge matches.


It was a very interesting show that wasn’t managed very well and perhaps before its time which isn’t a bad thing but meant that it was easily ignored and changed by later generations in remakes.

I also don’t see the point of the TPeople being young, they mention a couple of times that people with telepathic abilities can still become TPeople but we never see it and all new TPeople are kids (not goat children). It fits in with the whole ‘the children are the future’ line that we get all the time in media and education (whilst simultaneously dumbing them down) but what about TPeople or potential TPeople who’ve been blocked, drained, restrained/suppressed/oppressed etc? If they reach a certain age [range] are they past their use by date? What about all the adults in the GF? Did they start as children/teens and then just get older? I believe more in the present, we’re all responsible for our present and have the responsibility of remembering our past, I don’t want to focus on the future and live vicariously through children, I want to get as much done today as possible and not lose sight of the time I have. I’m also not keen on the idea of preferring young people because of their energy levels, I don’t think that’s fair on them or us older folk, there’s many factors that if removed from our lives we feel healthier, younger and stronger, I don’t think it’s fair to our body’s cellular memory to say I’ve reached an age like 30 and now it’s time for the next gen nor do I think it’s right to make adults of children (though of course youth is not an excuse for everything). Poor children, eldest children and children from single parent/other relative/guardian families already have enough of that as it is. Plus I’m not a vampire, I want my own energy thank you very much.

Last but not least by any means the TPeople don’t care any more about non-human Earth animals than normal whereas they’re not speciesist when it comes to aliens or at least aliens they can understand (since we see animals like horses on other worlds). That’s not homosuperior to me.

A short story from Terry Pratchett:

Death and What Comes Next (2002)

When Death met the philosopher, the philosopher said, rather excitedly: “At this point, you realise, I’m both dead and not dead.”

There was a sigh from Death. Oh dear, one of those, he thought. This is going to be about quantum again. He hated dealing with philosophers. They always tried to wriggle out of it.

“You see,” said the philosopher, while Death, motionless, watched the sands of his life drain through the hourglass, “everything is made of tiny particles, which have the strange property of being in many places at one time. But things made of tiny particles tend to stay in one place at one time, which does not seem right according to quantum theory. May I continue?”

YES, BUT NOT INDEFINITELY, said Death, EVERYTHING IS TRANSIENT. He did not take his gaze away from the tumbling sand.

“Well, then, if we agreed that there are an infinite number of universes, then the problem is solved! If there are an unlimited number of universes, this bed can be in millions of them, all at the same time!”



Death nodded at the bed. CAN YOU FEEL IT MOVING? he said.

“No, because there are a million versions of me, too, And…here is the good bit …in some of them I am not about to pass away! Anything is possible!”

Death tapped the handle of his scythe as he considered this.


“Well, I’m not exactly dying, correct? You are no longer such a certainty.”

There was a sigh from Death. Space he thought. That was the trouble. It was never like this on worlds with everlastingly cloudy skies. But once humans saw all that space, their brains expanded to try and fill it up.

“No answer, eh?” said the dying philosopher. “Feel a bit old-fashioned, do we?”

THIS IS A CONUNDRUM CERTAINLY, said Death. Once they prayed, he thought. Mind you, he’d never been sure that prayer worked, either. He thought for a while. AND I SHALL ANSWER IT IN THIS MANNER, he added. YOU LOVE YOUR WIFE?



“Yes. Of course.”


“Certainly not!”


“But of course we can make choices between-“


“Was that sarcasm?”


“Oh, come on! I know what you’re implying, and I’ve never believed in any of that Heaven and Hell nonsense!”

The room was growing darker. The blue gleam along the edge of the reaper’s scythe was becoming more obvious.


Fighting for breath, the philosopher managed to say: “Don’t be silly.”


“We’ve certainly escaped from outmoded superstitions!”


He leaned forward.


“Oh, yes,” said the philosopher.

GOOD, said Death. He got to his feet as the last of the light died, and smiled.


While I think it’s possible for anything to be replicated, included lifeforms and sentient lifeforms (people grow human organs on animals) for anybody with enough clout, curiosity, cash or all three, I do find the idea of people being everywhere all that time in all space even unreal space tiresome (and the cloning is highly aggravating).

The problem is of course most of the time we don’t know what’s real and what’s not, we see things topsy turvy physically and mentally and let’s just say understanding is not one of our strong points.

On a sidenote – ‘Death and What Comes Next’ could seem to be contradicting his collaboration with Steven Baxter in ‘The Long Earth’ (2012) but not really, in TLE there is one of you that moves, whereas in the above theory which doesn’t in my view really have a name since you see bits of it all over it describes there being any number and indeed an infinite amount of ‘you’ mirrored, if not fractured. Also the above story talks about a multi-verse whereas TLE is about using the space on Earth in layers although the following books in the series branched out into space, of course :roll:

On a sidenote sidenote – TLE was a major disappointment for me, it wasn’t recreational at all because it totally sold out to masonic religion and was so weighted with references and symbolism it moved slower than a tortoise with constipation, it also wasn’t funny. Pratchett without humour! It bore little resemblance to the original story ‘The High Meggas’ (1986) which was actually gripping, it didn’t have humour either but at least it did ‘survivalist’ well. And what was the point in changing Anna Shea’s name to Sally whilst leaving the other two as they were? I’m not tempted to read the rest of the series, I preferred it when he parodied or was just part-semi-historian/part-fiction-author referring to things like native Earth culture, the postal, fiscal and technological changes – at least he didn’t revere them, well he revered the steam engines too much for my liking making them blessed by the goddess and turning them into her so-called children.

Other Weirdness

One teacher wouldn’t let me have books but photocopies of the day’s lesson because as they put it “you see the connections” and so wanted me to annotate and let others read my thoughts. You could say it’s a probabilities thing, some see it as a game, I don’t.

That said when Mum shouts for me as she often does, even on the street and in shops, but in this case to show me yet another crop circle I’ve become so jaded that I feel like saying “oh leave me alone, you know I can’t read those things” but what I verbalize is “oh another one, how interesting, they’ve been busy haven’t they” and I try not to go over and look but she inevitably makes me as well as read the discourses on what they represent, mean, foretell or perhaps foretold. This kind of thing should usually interest me, especially as it’s pretty obvious most of the time which are handmade/crude tool made and which were cut & flattened with exquisite precision, the latter not being likely to have been made at night by a few ‘[intoxicated] pranksters’ in a rush trying not to get caught whilst somehow making and keeping their mathematical works of art symmetrical in such a fine and smooth manner (e.g. lacking coarse edging/edges and debris) and yet they do appear overnight. Where do these pranksters come from, do they spend their lives templating on digital software or perhaps an old box of Spirograph and then honing their skills on some piece of heretofore unknown land before unleashing them on the public, whilst drunk or drugged or both?

However as aforementioned I can’t decipher the bloody things, but many people can it seems and they do so very well, except that their predictions take ages before we know they’ve happened or we guess that such and such an event was what was being talked about. The problem is unless you know, not just believe, that an event was linked then it doesn’t make sense to the rest of us; but maybe that’s the way it’s supposed to be, some messages are supposed to be personal – only for one or a few – and other times someone’s just messing with us.

I hate to wonder what hypothetical scientists would make of our culture with only debris and say media footage to work with; can you imagine extracting data from online, film, tv, news, advertisements, novels etc – what they hell would they think of us? That we’re a bunch of nutters? That’s if they hadn’t already some kind of record preserved differentiating most things (ha since the lines between truth/fiction, real/virtual/unreal are so blurred they might as well not bother), if we haven’t buggered the place up royally with say bio-chemical warfare (look at the state of Iraq) and nuclear fallout (US, Russia and China wanting the ability to nuke anything that comes ‘close’, radiation and explosive blowback be damned) and so all they’d have to really say is “look what they did, the b*stards, we can blame having 4 eyes, 6 fingered hands and 3 legs on them and having to live underground. Hey maybe if we find some amnesiacs we can claim we’re gods and get them to do all the work har har ahhh *trips over some spare appendage*”.

The ‘script’ is a term I found in a book by David Mitchell called ‘The Bone Clocks’ (2014) and I liked the way he used it as a name for the ‘thread’ that connects things/us together, some call it fate/destiny, some call it luck/chance, others causality and then there’s predictions/prophecy.

When I see people referring to famous oracles/prophets tend to err on the side of caution. I’m not a high and mighty skeptic who preaches/criticizes and does little to make things better and I don’t have any problem with the subject of divination, but I do think we’re missing a basic understanding of what a prediction/prophecy is. We make predictions all the time, especially about the weather, and sometimes we talk about them as assumptions and some of us are better at them than others – to the point of having the ‘gift’, the ‘sight’, ‘those things work for you’, ‘psychic’, ’empathetic’ etc. Again I have no problem with the likelihood of those things and just because I can’t do/see something doesn’t mean someone else can’t or it doesn’t exist, doesn’t mean they can or it does either but I think discernment gets pushed aside. People scoff at talking about their work in predictions e.g. stocks and shares being similar to prophecy, but they’re assuming the predictors they look down on don’t have education and intelligence or an ‘interesting’ societal family background. There is a difference between estimating and guessing, supposedly predictions is one and prophecy is the other but I think it’s a fine line between pride and how much you can get paid.

I personally don’t like very simplistic prophecy such as those oft quoted by Nostradamus and the bible. Accounting for the lack of terminology to describe things the seer couldn’t understand is one thing, but less than a handful of vague lines (and in rhyme) are practically pointless to the people you’re trying to warn/educate. Almost any similar event can be attributed to them and usually the detail of those is far better than the prediction. Unfortunately that is the quality of prophecy the public gets the most, a bit like ‘they have nuclear weapons and can detonate them in…’, whereas the notes/messages/reports which give better detail are kept secret for as long as possible and usually until after mass havoc has been wreaked and people left to carry remains of loved ones in plastic bags because what was left of hospitals were run ragged (Isreal vs Palestine) like meat from the butchers which I think is truly sad yet precise phrasing.

National security? Fat lot of good predictions/prophecy does for us then when we barely get to see them and we didn’t appreciate those people in their own time let alone in hindsight (perhaps after being found dead in mysterious or convenient circumstances). They just become one-of-many brief interruptions in day-to-day life.

As far as I’m concerned well known public predictions/prophecy tend to be plans. Plans that have been enacted, maybe not at the time they were planned but plans nonetheless. Whether the predictor/oracle knew about or was part of it is another matter, sometimes people are just more ‘in tune’ with what’s going on but that doesn’t mean they understand it or fully. Divination methods are supposed to help us focus and tell us what is most likely to happen in the situation if there is no significant change/deviation from the path afterall, they’re not certainties. It’s too hard to have the ‘whole’ picture so why do often act as if we do or assume somebody authoritative will know what we don’t and will tell us the truth instead of putting their career and funding/sponsors first?

It reminds me abit of Hercolubus aka Planet X, whatever that disturbance/effects on surrounding areas/bodies/and Earth really is. Research is there and ongoing, it’s been meticulously mentioned in ancient cultures, it’s been denied both forcibly and mockingly, it’s been revealed ‘hey presto’ style like by a magician to the public and the mystery continues. I don’t mind mysteries but some rather do cause tension in ‘real life’. What is real life anyway – when we’re awake? Why do we assume that everything we experience in approx 2/3 of our lives is real and that whole 1/3 we spend sleeping is unreal or made up? Quite the disservice to we do to ourselves there.

Mum believes in Planet X but I’m reticent, and if it does exist I wonder how much of it we’re seeing/will see. Long before the plasma universe come to the front of existential science and before the plasma tubes around the earth were drawn many of us said the sky and indeed the outer atmosphere was like a theatre and perhaps too much so for our liking. Are we really seeing what’s in our sky let alone what’s outside clearly? Long range telescopes and then satellites make it easier but at the same time our sky is currently full of metals that shouldn’t be there, makes clouds appear lighter/brighter/more reflective. Just ripe for an awesome hologram and we have come a long way in that field from using them at national events to replacing computers with virtual terminals in some councils. When I was in school I used to think the sky didn’t look ‘right’; sure there are explanations about how it looks/feels so thick/heavy to have such changeable weather and how we can see ‘colour’ in it like we do large bodies of water, but they didn’t and still don’t satisfy my question of ‘why’. For some reason I imagined the sky as looking more like dawn/sunset all the time, the vastness moving swiftly rather than appearing sluggish. Then I read about beings in other dimensions from different cultures and they had a similar outlook; a recent book by G. Willow Wilson called ‘Alif the Unseen’ (2013) describes it very well as a kind of beautiful twilight, darker than what we’re used to but clear. If we’re living in what is really an illusion/a veil of mirror effects (atmosphere composition) and sleight of hand (pollution) and if indeed that illusion helped allow us to live as we know it in the first place then it is our reality but that doesn’t mean we perceive it as it really is. Abit like living on the inside of a snowglobe. Also many of us have to rely on technology from places that we know were deceptive about cosmic events/bodies including X as well black out areas and are expert at image editing.

I think I’m also hesitant about it because of what Sitchin translated the Sumerians said lived there i.e. the Annunaki, such beings are not strange to old cultures or religion old or new (or all one thing just morphed and disseminated over time) so it doesn’t surprise me that they’d think the mysterious planet/star system was inhabited. What I wonder is why did we think those beings came from there and not Earth, and if they did come from outer space perhaps they’re not who they say and were exiled members of their race? Apparently they were scientists/engineers, nobility and entourage – I wonder if they had god(s). There’s all kinds of possibilities as to what they are doing here (and if they were/are real). I’ve never been against migration in general but I am against invasion and I do think you have to be responsible and conscientious to travel rather than golddiggers and slavers. But then again if it’s inhabited who says the beings that live on it are the ones the Sumerians/Sitchin described? The cradles of civilisation are littered with such beings and X’s orbit was mentioned in old India but not that the Annunaki lived on it. Why is that?

I then think about how people mistake military craft and operations for UFO activity and technically it is UFO activity until they admit it. Military have been living and working underground and on secret bases as part of stock and trade throughout history, even widescale without the public knowing it. India’s Trishaul Airbase (sounds pretty similar to trident eh, no difference – trishul is also the name of a missle) was so secret people didn’t even know what type of jets were coming out of there until the Garudas (MiG-25) were retired. Is it any wonder that people thought they were seeing UFOs in the disputed India/China border too? A lot of people intentionally live secretly, like the realms/homes of the ‘gods’ are in hard to reach places inspiring all kinds of hearsay and not always wrong just misunderstood.

Speaking about military/weapons being named after divinities and their instruments – religion and state are supposed to be separate but religion has always had a major stake in astronomy and were very adept long before modern tech; for people who like to think religion and science are separate it doesn’t help when the Vatican does things like build an observatory next to a telescope of which part is called Lucifer. What is this a race or a partnership? (Lucifer means lightbringer aka illumination and matches used to be called lucifers). CERN had a life size so-called Shiv statue in their lobby though anybody with any history knows that those dance posed statues are really of the pre-Vedic goddess but modern Hinduism would never admit that, let alone the way they’re playing with time/space and upsetting people with large blue beams. Also remember the super laser called Shiva in the 70’s? Why do we keep naming things after gods? That said there’s also a gene called Sonic the Hedgehog but it’s abit taboo and many refer to it by acronym SHH only.

I wonder which side Hollywood is on, it exists to stoke our fire.

One very interesting ‘game’ I haven’t been able to get my hands on is the INWO (Illuminate – New World Order) cards designed by Steven Jackson (role play games maker) in 1994/5 which eerily for many people had portends of events before they happened though as usual whether they referred to the events in question is hot discussion. Either way it’s a very cruel game and not unlike some video games we have now. But why would this be considered prediction and lines from Nostradamus prophecy? Just because one is older than the other? Don’t we still have masonic lodges? Members are considered harmless older generation (they don’t have to be middle age or older) but the practical purpose of joining is to be amongst one’s peers and class, working the way up through their degrees/levels for a less bureaucratic hassle in non-lodge reality and to have influence in the way the local area is run whilst part of a wider network, something that comes ‘naturally’ if the members consist of people with influence, authority or at least professional status. Harmless old guys (and now women) who do ‘juvenile’ and ‘stupid’ things like cosplay, point weapons at each other and chant invocations. Bit like a house of… god? Sounds like a cult really.


Mum once wanted to go to a hypnotism seminar… (The only good thing about it was the food.) There were three males and a woman, two of the men were the mouthpieces, the other the setup/tech guy and the woman had a more hands on approach. I’ve never ridiculed hypnotism, I’m aware that there are various forms and that it does work for and against different people, but this was a sham imo. The main speaker was disabled and played on it for all it was worth saying how it enabled him to get closer to people and talked about behavioural reactions like if someone is upset you go to them and put a hand on their knee and talk in a soft tone. The other guy claimed he wasn’t a somnambulist but apparently the disabled one had the ‘fluence’ over him and could put him under anytime, so ta da at the snap of the fingers he suddenly slumped but managed to remain perched on the edge of the table and was ‘under’. People were impressed, gasping but seriously if you’ve known actors… I wanted to pinch him at least. They said using surroundings to your advantage helps you in hypnosis so when I asked if the psychedelic pattern on the carpet, the drapes and the low fluorescent lighting helped in catalyzing involuntary/natural reactions in people and whether that helped in persuasion they went red, said that if I wanted it to work I mustn’t question so much, (decided I was a problem) and singled me out from then on. They tried to say I was upset and if I wanted I could have my money back and leave. I said I was fine, I just thought I’d understood what they meant and so had asked for confirmation. The main guy came over to me and lo and behold put on a molly coddling voice, put his hand above my knee and tried to ‘soothe’ me, I thought ‘you dirty old….’ he was actually making me uncomfortable and conscious of it in front of everybody and I couldn’t say ‘please could you remove your hand, I don’t like it and I don’t even know you’ because he was disabled and it would look like I was making a fuss or being mean. My sister understood that and said as much to me afterwards. I also knew that the male instructors weren’t on the same page because when talking to me individually they categorized me differently under their ‘three personality types’.

When we were split into groups to try ‘hypnotizing’ each other and when it was my go the lady I was using the technique on said she felt very comfortable and very safe up until I started describing a clown who’d come into the cave. I’d found that strange myself, I’d prepared my speech and then was suddenly talking about a clown and trying to say don’t worry everything is alright but it wasn’t – we both agreed it ruined everything. It turned out the ‘I’m not really a somnambulist but my buddy has full control over me’ guy had come up behind me to watch my turn and that’s when I got uncomfortable and couldn’t keep control of the image. Later when I ended up next to the main ‘teacher’ and before I could say something generically polite he burst out with “there’s lots of people like you, you’re not the only one, there’s lots of people like you, you’re not special” I didn’t know what to say after that so I moved on.

The thing is the woman was doing something different – she was able to discern people’s emotions even when they were blank faced and not moving. She would feel around your magnetic field aka your aura. She did that to my sister who described “it was freaky, I didn’t like it and said nah I’m not doing this”. The rest of us had done a one-on-one exercise where one person was the so-called hypnotist and the other sat with one arm extended from the elbow at waist level and closed their eyes. You then introduce yourself, start describing a scene and see how they react – if they’re supposedly someone who can be hypnotized you can see their eyes move under the lids and their arm moves up to their face which quite frankly just describes normal body movements :roll: but they thought they could use that as proof that you were hypnotized, and smugly in my case. But she was doing something else, something they didn’t talk about let alone teach and at the end when I wanted to talk to her, the tech guy made a big issue of how she must come with him, literally pulling her away from me. I said only a couple of questions please, just a minute and I was as polite as I could be but he wasn’t having it, he’d been in the background until then. That’s not the first time something like that’s happened either – it was exactly the same at a small play I went to where they actually built the temporary theatre in a playground and the building and play were… Unusual. I wanted to compliment the author afterwards but some random guy barged in between and pulled the actress I was asking for directions away and looking at me like I don’t know what.

People are weird and scared. I wonder where they get it from and why it seems to be a justification for bad behaviour.

Mum was briefly into radionics so I bought one of the machines and a simple alternate version. It was very interesting though I don’t know if it worked.

Frequency is a controversial subject; everything vibrates to and reacts with other frequencies. We all have a number/a frequency which is like a signature and we hear frequencies within a range, but we are affected by frequencies around/through us whether we hear them or not. Various frequencies can shift our moods, make us sleepy, more alert, feel relaxed, or fear for example. Many people also suffer from tinnitus which some claim comes from within the ear and others say they are ‘hearing’ in their heads rather than feeling as if it stops at the ears; ultrasonics, Extremely Low or Extremely High Frequencies. Even in quiet times we hear a lot of background ‘noise’ and there’s been increasing reports int he past few years of towns/neighborhoods in the UK hearing intrusive ‘sounds’/booms/piercing noise especially at night and effecting their sleep but there’s no official answer other than um… They’re hearing things.

Radionics was a method of tuning a machine to do tasks like help plants grow or even input your signature number and make personalized medicines. You’d get your number using a pendulum and a number table and to anyone who knows pendulums do move for them you’ll know what I mean when I say there’s no mistaking its direction, they can really move far and ‘pull’ one way or another. Pendulums usually work for me (though dowsing rods don’t damnit :P ) but it just wouldn’t when trying to get my number, not even a zero. A bit like one of the parrots who got involved in discussions, debating with every part of his little body, properly into it, there was no stopping his opinions (not that we wanted to) but if you ever asked him for lottery numbers… Total silence. Keeping schtum, mum’s the word, you’re not getting anything outta me matey and sometimes he’d even fly off. That was what this pendulum and other pendulums were doing to me. Fine then, I don’t want a number anyway! I’m person not an asset/number/name etc! :-)

Unfortunately the machine didn’t seem to work for Mum even though she had a number, it was a second hand older model but still very expensive. It didn’t help that our neighbours were massively noisy and seemed to move everywhere we did at the same time – synchronized kitchen going, toilet, bathing. *Sigh*

Whilst I’m unsure about radionics I do find that white noise can sometimes be very helpful, some frequencies can be very oppressive, binaural beats do work (binocular vision colour discrimination and the pendulum phase coming into sync experiments interesting in themselves) and ambient sounds (waterfalls/rain/storms etc) aren’t my thing. I think with radionics or playing certain frequencies for specific effects on the body you not only need quality sound equipment but also close range and containment (decreased chance of conflicting with other frequencies). There might be other factors too like with yoga where it’s a system of breath, sound, nervous ending positioning (hands/feet), posture and movement and ideally within a peaceful, clean environment and diet – even with a few of those factors though people notice life changes and improvements especially as different types of yoga focus on different things but like parts of martial arts there are also direct manual overrides like forcing yourself to feel calm and ease chronic pain by applying forms of pressure to certain points. It’s not like acupuncture, it’s a bit more like acupressure but those two are hit and miss. Yoga and martial arts are more rigorous and get the job done imo but at the same time all these ways of life and health have a place, your body always wants to return to its ‘last best settings’ but you have to live holistically for it all to come together, not an easy or even doable feat for many.

Bugbear of the day – people constantly demanding and expecting above average standards, always going on about ‘high standard’, ‘very high standard’ and what are they paying? Minimum wage. Typical, everything and everyone’s a commodity, buy cheap sell high. The Long Earth really does sound appealing but I don’t think Earth inhabitants deserve to go anywhere let alone ‘start again’, we have enough levels of corruption..

Oh and being reminded of Nicole Kidman’s implication that it’s justifiable to get dressed up, have a big bash and pat each other on the back and at a cost that most people will never see in their lives (i.e. the Oscars) when the country went to war and soldiers were dying and killing others because their lives were worth less than her shoes. Why? “Because art is important.” Yes it is but in the order of things, people suffering is more important and unless you’re making films about that, teaching, informing, understanding, and focused instead of ‘look at how awesome I was in that, wasn’t I fabulous, I so deserve an award’ then it’s not worth it and you didn’t get the point of your part, other than your pay packet. You don’t portray the pain of a situation just to go celebrate and act like the filming of it was more important than the event(s) let alone pretend it’s over, and what – all films are lofty? No.

Obvious heroes get all the glory and non-obvious heroes don’t even want glory, but they don’t want their efforts thrown back in their face by the people they’re trying to help either. What is the difference between popular heroes and those who have heroic traits but are deemed troublemakers and a hassle? I prefer infamy to fame but without doing bad deeds, you can be branded infamous without being bad ya’know.

So I wanted to post this early yesterday morning but the network keeps telling me that the router in the office has been unplugged and has apparently been doing so for the last week and a half, usually after I just connect and it works it goes off whatever time of day or night :roll:

Yesterday was:

World Leprosy Day
Season for Nonviolence
School Day of Non-violence and Peace
National Inane Answering Message Day

Leprosy was renamed Hansens Disease and contrary to popular thought it’s not always contagious and if someone is treated early or cured they’re nothing to be afraid of. I understand people’s fears in life in general, the multitude of them and sympathise but when push comes to shove and people are too scared to help or even behave it really irritates me. The same goes for bullying and street theatre – when the govt told people to jump up and down and get attention if they saw someone in trouble it was just… But then most people will walk past you if you trip and act like homeless people don’t exist except as a nuisance and perhaps the trip hazard.

However today is Backwards Day (and Inspire Your Heart with Art Day) hence I’ve modified it abit and won’t use the examples I had for ‘tentativeness and trepidation about helping others’.

Below are some episodes from shows I’ve liked; the first from US private detective show ‘Monk’ (2002-2009, 8 seasons).

I rarely bought dvds and like the other media I did get they often ended up donated since I don’t like to get things that sit around taking up space. One day someone at ‘home’ had Monk on tv, I saw part of it and that was enough – I bought the season 1-4 boxset without knowing else anything about it or the characters – I don’t even remember what episode it was. I’ve always been a fan of private detective shows but I’ve not bought them without knowing I liked them.

It turned out I really liked Adrian Monk, really liked him (I liked Tony Shalhoub as Antonio in tv shows ‘Wings’ and Ian in ‘Stark Raving Mad’ too, and in the latter you can see the makings of Monk in Ian’s editor Henry). He’s weighed down by so many almost paralysing phobias (an increasing list that tops the 300 mark) which take their toll in stress and physical health, he’s also traumatized by the tragic loss of his wife Trudy, the one person who understood and soothed him. But he keeps fighting. He’d rather not have to face the outside world but he does it because he’s compelled to solve mysteries and he wants to help people; besides he has to keep going to find Trudy’s killer. There’s many things I don’t like about him e.g. he’s not biased but his fears lead him to being prejudiced so if you’re physically dirty for example it’d be hard not to be offended. He’s stingy and wasteful – again mostly out of his compulsions but he has so many that it’s hard for him to control although he manages both regularly and when push comes to shove plus at the cost of his own safety. It helps greatly that he has a group of people who really care about him, do their best to accommodate and protect him, and let him do his thing. They need each other and it’s a sincere affection rather than using & abusing. Would they care so much if he wasn’t extremely intelligent/different/special? I couldn’t say. I hope so. They admit that they can’t imagine why anybody else would like him but they do come to care, respect and realize he’s one of the most important people in their lives if not the only one they can ultimately rely on.

Monk (‘the defective detective’) is nowhere near infallible and certainly needs his friends to ease the harshness of society whilst he in turn forces them to be patient and actually use a few brain cells. He’s strong, not obviously but still, one of those few people who can see something through to the end no matter how hard, harrowing or bitter. He knows the meaning of true love and devotion too, he’s the type of person who’ll love for life; no game playing, cheating, using, lying, backstabbing, letting you down, trying it on with every person he found attractive – he’ll commit and cherish. That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t chastise him for the complacent and unintentionally cruel way he treats his assistants Sharona and then Natalie sometimes. I feel even more sorry for his brother Ambrose who can’t leave his house, lives in the sadness of their mother’s death, the guilt of feeling responsible for Trudy’s death and tries to help but is seen as a bother; he illustrates what Adrian could have been had he not had help/been loved/understood. Their relationship is that of Sherlock and Mycroft Holmes (though Monk is a mix of Holmes, Nero Wolfe and Poirot but with the physical mannerisms/style of Columbo) but those two were arrogant, obnoxious, conceited and privileged, caring more about the challenge/status than helping and never really knowing what’s it like to be one of the helpless and hapless being played like a pawn since they were doing the playing and in between Sherlock falls into his habits of drugs, violin playing, vain self-pity (rather than deserved since he’s rarely the underdog, suppressed/repressed/oppressed/mocked/scorned/taken advantage of) and bemoaning crime for being too boring for his great intellect (and physical strength). They were easy heroes/popular characters and sadly preferred intelligence, talent and narcissism over being ‘humane’. One who controls society and one who is a limelight icon. They towered over people, they weren’t one of them and Sherlock barely knew the feeling of sympathy/empathy though he could pretend but he wasn’t interested unless you could offer him something unusual or he was pushed by V.I.Ps, if it wasn’t for Watson as author/narrator they may as well have been machines or psychos who just happened to be ‘on the right side of the law’. I concede that at least what we saw of Sherlock wasn’t a socio sh*t stirrer if that’s any consolation and most people would love to have him on their side but that’s exactly it, if he would condescend to be on your side, patronize you and act like you weren’t important but rather the puzzle.

Anyway it’s young Julie that plays the standout commendable role here, poignant because her mother Natalie who is usually righteous and fair minded is even affected to the point of being quite shameful, whereas Monk as expected gets ridiculous.

This is an episode of a US family show called ‘Mr Belvedere’ (1985-90, 6 seasons. The original played in Black&White films by Clifton Webb) – it’s about Aids not Hansens Disease and more about how children even best friends can be affected (not that Wesley is a kind child anyway) and how different parents/authority figures behave. I’ve also just realized that it’s the daughter in this show that isn’t afraid of the issue, like Julie above. I generally like Mr Belvedere, he’s not manipulative like PG Wodehouse’s ‘Jeeves’ nor as unflappable but he was the quintessential English Butler, now he’s the avuncular bachelor housekeeper who eats too much and has caustic wit (knowing the difference between wit and just being insulting, and keeps the sardonic & sarcastic between those he’s close to and who find it funny/do the same). I probably wouldn’t like most of the company he’s kept and definitely disagree with his reverence to royalty and his taste in food but I do like his stance on most other things, and the way he tries to remedy the ills of those around him.

Last but absolutely not least is a story arc from the exceedingly interesting but not so well produced UK sci-fi show ‘The Tomorrow People’ (1973-79, 8 series). It highlights how people behave when they notice differences even superficial ones between them, how quickly and irrationally it can get ugly. The differences don’t even have to be real – remember the ‘blue eyes, brown eyes experiment’? In this story it starts by affecting the emotions of teenagers and spreads throughout the country which leads to the use of people’s dreams being turned into nightmares/terrors in order to concentrate and take that energy as a power source.


There’s a pet shop in town that constantly advertises its bred pets for sale (like there aren’t enough rescue animals that need caring homes) and it’s behaviour modifying equipment such as microchipping and shock leads. I don’t go into shops with animals in them, I prefer ones that just supply pet food and items. There was one where I used to live where the animals were all behind glass cages and sometimes with nothing in them and there were chinchillas who’d just constantly try to dig their way out. When I ask the people how can you just watch that creatures frustration and fear they always just turn away. Like people who put birds in cages where they can’t spread their wings and cover them with a sheet/blanket in the day time and when it’s not cold. I knew one person who did that just because she thought the parrot would have a prettier voice and it didn’t, FYI it had a normal parrot voice, it’s not supposed to sound like a chirruping woodland bird and she couldn’t understand my questioning her behaviour. Then another who I had to buy warm things, feeding, bathing things for just because she couldn’t care less. How many evils can a regular do without thinking it? Heroes who put up with neglect, lack of stimuli, everyday necessities and are often still loyal to us.

Read about the hell that’s been going on at Seaworld for ages e.g. the story of Lolita the whale?

Non-humans animals everywhere being treated the way we hate to be treated but treat each other too, would be balk if we found out the same was being done to us by another species? Probably depends, we don’t mind living in a pyramid class structure afterall.

This doesn’t mean I like all non-human animals, akin to people they have power structures, bullying, torture, rape etc. There’s some studies that just make your toes curl. I think we’ve all just been under the reverse influence of ‘the three wise monkeys’ where evil exists but it’s less punishing to ignore it and believe we’re not part of its perpetuation.

It’s A Jungle Out There – Randy Newman (Monk theme song)

It’s a jungle out there,
Disorder and confusion everywhere,
No one seems to care,
Well I do.

Hey, who’s in charge here?

It’s a jungle out there,
Poison in the very air we breathe,
Do you know what’s in the water that you drink?
Well I do, and it’s a-ma-zing.

People think I’m crazy ’cause I worry all the time
If you paid attention you’d be worried too,
You better pay attention,
Or this world we love so much, might. Just. Kill. You.

I could be wrong now, but I don’t think so!
‘Cause there’s a jungle out there.

It’s a jungle out there.

Whilst I don’t like the intro of the following video upto 3min47sec and I’m not keen on his interpretations of events for the people on Earth in his work generally (I’m not a love&light person and no that doesn’t mean I’m dark&evil :roll: ) but for those who need scientists to tell them their reality this video is helpful. It gives a timeline of astronomers who have researched Planet X (remember X doesn’t just mean ‘mysterious’ it also means ‘ten’) and shows that its taken the better part of a century for most of these people (started before that) – and ironically NASA themselves the usual detractors – to learn about the effects that Micheal Brown, his assistant Konstantin Batygin and those who are supporting them ‘discovered’ in short order. It’s unlikely they were unaware of the easily found research available before coming up with the same findings. The video does not mention the many, many professional and amateur researchers constantly using every means they can from satellites to cross subject reference with culture/history and religion (though it does mention other subjects and prophets briefly) to the ‘contactees’. No it’s not funny; there are many intelligent, discerning as well as lettered (qualified) people who follow or at least pay attention to groups like the Zetas who have been talking about this and many other subjects for a long time but have their own agenda for humanity (no I don’t follow or endorse them).

It’s available in other versions on Youtube, shortened/added to/updated by other uploaders, and without the ‘ads’ but this is the original. It’s feels slow because he speaks slowly and the sleepy (but beautiful) background music but I prefer to show you the source and it was Mum who showed it to me (also thanks to her for just giving me a mug of hot [proper, healthy] chocolate.)

EDIT – 28JAN – the video that was showing was NOT the video I wanted. I posted the original hour long video by the man who made it, not that 1/2 hour edit with other footage. Re-posting the original. I DON’T like movie style documentaries or event dates/predictions. They’re put up every month, every national event, every alignment mostly by headline grabbers and shills. If the video ever changes or you’re unsure look for the title ‘Planet X 101: Who, What, When, Where, Why and How HD 1080p’ published on Oct 28, 2013 by user ‘Your Own World Books’ his website is yowusa.com

Whereas this video is the type of news you’ll get from parasites and ignorants.


I read Sitchin’s first 6 books, ashamedly I haven’t read the 7th, when I was approx 16/17 so I don’t remember the books in complete detail but of course I’ve read about his work since. The first of the ‘Earth Chronicles’ was called ’12th planet’ (thanks for reminding me Mum, d’uh how did I forget the title even though I remember about the significance of the number 12; too much to know, too much to learn, too much to remember.) However thinking about Michael Brown (why, oh why) I’m reminded that when he was demoting Pluto (though its status was always controversial to the scientific community and whether they counted it as a planet at all) he was announcing another 9th dwarf planet (so actually a 10th planet, but 8 ‘normal’ and 2 dwarves) temporarily called Xena and it’s satellite Gabrielle, Xena was later renamed Eris (Eris being the Greek goddess of discord. That makes me think of – ‘dis-chord’ – remember the musical scale has been changed from the ‘divine’ scale of Asia which was based on 12 too and the Fibbonaci sequence and Lalita (way pre-dating Greek morphs) the Indian Mother Goddess and her Sri Chakra/Vidya – fibonacci being from the Matrika Devi from Lalita that deals with language and sound/frequency/vibration/music, the constellations so the zodiac). Latin Discord/ia’s opposite is Harmonia. At the time the public were told that it was not Planet X and that Planet X did not exist but now he’s admitting the effects of Planet X.

P.S – Xena being a ‘dark mother’ figure though not an original one, she’s also overtly fictional, but the later dark mother figures of world culture (fictional or not we’ll see) are generally portrayed as evil e.g ‘the wicked stepmother’, ‘the temptress’. Though look at the fate of desecrated&demoted Medusa, an African goddess incorporated into the conquering mythology/religion demonized for her natural Afro hair and made into a rape victim who is typically blamed instead of the rapist and vilified as a monster.

The usual number given for it’s time to go round our sun Sol is 3,600 years and that number was not only found by Zecharia Sitchin – it’s found in the Indian-subcontinental part of Asia too. That and other galactic times/patterns, the time it takes us to reach the galactic centre and back for example and the 15 Nityas of Eternity/the 21600 lunar/solar breaths i.e. the movement of planets in a Kali Yuga/432,000 years too. They were adept at mathematics. For the Eastern part (Western Asia being the focus of Sitchin) I read Madam Blavatsky’s amalgamation work ‘The Secret Doctrine’ when I was approx 20 and still find it the most ‘easily understandable’*, comprehensive/comparative work on that – yes you might have heard a lot of things about the Theosophical Society that was based on her work – but that doesn’t mean the work itself is not worth looking at. She used the terminology from numerous languages and explained it in English so it is jargon heavy but doesn’t go over the head and she (and whoever funded her/agreed to talk/got her into places to people most wouldn’t have a chance in a lifetime to get to or even know about) put together a lot of the work you’ll find separately elsewhere. That doesn’t mean I agree with it but it’s a worthwhile account and a large starting or early point since what she includes could easily be called a conclusion/the point where many searchers are at for ‘cosmic truth’ that relates to us. Sitchin’s work is more about what I call the ‘Cult of Celebrity’ but at the same time if true, even partially, is worth thinking about.

To all those that easily scoff at ‘dustbin/pseudo science’ i.e. what Planet X research has fallen into until now (well it wasn’t start with, but then was pushed there and is now being brought back), they usually fall into two major categories 1) those who actually know very little about science and scientific research and if they did follow journals and science media they’d be very shocked at all the projects going on and that have been going on, it’s not all ‘black ops’ ‘conspiracy theory’ – there’s plenty of crazy, useless, already known and mind blowing stuff going on that is published and updated all the time. It’s ironic the people who don’t look often talk about science like religion but get irate at that idea and look a bit too much at Californian film science without digging/looking for further explanation. 2) Those who know enough about those subjects to know it makes them uncomfortable, sometimes insecure and generally behave immaturely looking for every chance to jump on it. Funnily enough many of the people in those areas don’t behave the same and welcome/respect work done in areas that could be cross referenced with. Remember that geology was recently up until recently a soft-pseudo science and now has validity and psychology fought tooth and nail to be recognized as a social science (systematizing things being something they’re good at) and we also have ‘social sciences’ such as sociology who use empirical methods/statistics in research but aren’t scientific as a whole because things like social consciousness and behaviour don’t always follow strict guidelines. That said popularity I mean peer review doesn’t make things easy on anyone thinking differently but that’s going into a third group.

*It’s not easy, it’s not bestseller reading, you’ll need to use brain cells you forgot or didn’t realize you had but I don’t underestimate anyone – if you prefer not to look at just numbers and don’t mind what we think of as metaphors and interested in world/cosmic history/astronomy I don’t see why it should be mainly in the knowledge of elitist people even though it’s freely available online (just as a ton of researchers have made their work/updates available about Planet X but ridiculed/dismissed until now). Hitler and those (most likely the Thule Society) who twisted such learnings to place in a number of ways, the most obvious being the swastika also placed their ideal race up in the Scandinavian area and then claimed it spread to the Indus Valley and throughout Asia. However pre-Vedic old Hinduism (unfortunately it’s easier to call the different systems about Earth, life, health and well being ‘Hinduism’ in retrospect as it is the umbrella they were incorporated into) existed before modern/Vedic Hinduism when things got puritanical; class hierarchy, Sanskrit (younger than the Indus pictograms&symbols and Dravidian Indian languages*2) and the ‘lighter the better’ mentality for skin – that last of which was further entrenched with colonialism even though they broke up the country and they along with Islam decided which scriptures to transcribe and let the people believe as current Hinduism (it’s arguable that are are more non-translated Indian scripts than there are translated). I can see why they related the giants (both as a characteristic ‘they stand mentally/spiritually taller than us’ and as a 3D physical characteristic) of Europe with the idealized Aryan race of the Indus Valley but their reference point for that a place we don’t know existed and if it did, we don’t know where, at least Asia was there at the time. That said the insertion of ‘Blue bloods’ and ‘white skin, Blond but moreso Red hair and Blue eyes’ (and perhaps the RH-negative blood type according to some) is superior theme has had its effect, something many have noted and even complained about, in the casting for films for example (though Blonde became preferred and Red haired people stigmatized as seen with the Irish in particular in the UK and as immigrants to the US though quite frankly after Independence they were prejudiced against most new European arrivals) and ‘the perfect looking child’.

Where did the Aryan race come from? How did the Mesopotamian, Egyptians and Asians suddenly become more technological, extra ‘civilized’ master/slave style (whilst Mesopotamia and Egypt have shown to already have pronounced hierarchy, it seems the Indus-India side was slower to pick that up and it wasn’t until the Vedic that it took off) and their beliefs moved into the Vedic age making way for the Zoroastrian and later Abrahamic religions to spread throughout the world? Who knows; religion and many groups say aliens (albeit religion generically refers to space divinities, sky divinities but when you look at where/how they live on Earth they’re more mountain/our sky (rather than some unknown ‘heavens’/’up there’ above the planet place) and underwater beings and their workers e.g. jinn are fire beings and when you see characters like the greys (alien reference) they’re like watchers and then there are shadowy beings). Sitchin claimed they were the Hurrians (Horites to biblical folk). What about the supposed Annunaki supposedly from Planet X/its system? Hmm. Maybe that was just an excuse for a takeover bid or they were survivors from previous Nibiru flybys or ‘extinction level events’, underground societies (we’re building underground nowadays so the idea isn’t new though we consider ourselves better able to now), either way I don’t like ’em in general.

Ancient cultures (pre-Zoroaster/Abraham) agree that there have been five ages/stages, something we’ve only recently acknowledged/remembered with modern science.

*2 – I don’t often use the word ‘Proto’, too many people use that interchangeably or even replacing we estimate about written language by looking at it e.g. the later Indo-Aryan and Indo-European of which Sanskrit is a part of. ‘Proto’ is reconstructed – how we estimate language sounded, harder to do. I’ve seen the term Proto-Indo-European (PIE) used to, and probably unintentionally, agree with the Nazis and act like everything ‘superior’ started in Europe instead of the three ‘cradles of civilization’ as well as act like Iron Age*3 and younger European with particular focus on North Germanic/Nordic language to say they’re as old or older than the Indo-Aryan side i.e. to age them further and give validity. The oldest written languages we know of are from Africa and Asia before we get to Indo-European; verbal language pre-dating written would likely have been everywhere there were people who could make sounds and hand signs (though sign language is considered in a league of its own), we also have undeciphered languages and of course pre-historic painting. It’s not a competition people. What was before the ‘cradles of civilization’? It seems like just people getting on with life, revering the Earth as Mother, having the Cosmic Mother, a focus on androgyny and motherhood (those two are only conflicting in modern views; ‘androgyn’ and ‘hermaphrodite’ meanings have been changed over time, androgny was non-sexual or asexual/self-creative (if those chose and were worthy) and sometimes implies the meaning of the ‘original feminine’ rather than a person with no creative ability or to today’s standards no genitalia, and hermaphrodite is a later concept meaning having characteristics of two sexes but it can also refer to the division of the androgyn or creation of another sex) and weren’t ashamed of the Black and Red (Brown/rusty/reddish/bronze/copper) skin, the ‘dark’ mother and mother goddess are found internationally pre-historical record/pre-written language and incorporated into those later cultures but both demoted and demonized. Being the oldest historical civilization or one of them is as far as I’m concerned not something to be proud of, neither is much of human history in general that I’ve seen. You can keep your Aryans and superiority/inferiority complexes, talent does not compensate for lack of ethics and those ‘cradles of civilization’ and people since have displayed very little social development imo. We’ve taken mega-long and endless wars of so many kinds just so that some of us could realize the basics or treating other humans decently? Pfft forget that (no not literally, I’m not into amnesia). Tons of people can’t even accept that non-human animals have feelings, personalities or ‘souls’/consciousness and we come into contact with them everyday let alone the other potential sentient non-humans or super-humans. As long as you don’t act like some kind of vampire (blood, energy, anything that drains others) I don’t mind what species you are but I’ve seen little evidence of beings like that on this planet, and what I have seen like that or almost like that isn’t human.

Remember that the modern/Vedic Hindu pantheon top ‘gods’ claim they were given the vedas (all knowledge), they didn’t invent/write them or their contents, they may have even stolen them but the old knowledge of the world damned well got twisted for their convenience since!

*3 – This reference system of technological ages in archaeology and cross referenced in many subjects varies greatly from place to place, it is not the cosmic & yuga age system of ancient cultures.

Deformed Babies in India

When Mum tells me about an ‘out of the ordinary’ physical birth defect the conversation tends to go like this:

“There’s a baby with 3 arms”
“Is it in India?”

“There’s a baby with 4 arms”
“Is it in India?”

“There’s a baby with one eye”
“Is it in India?”

“There’s a conjoined baby with too few/many limbs”
“Is it in India?”

“There’s a baby with a tail”
“Is it in India?”

“There’s a baby with a trunk”
“Is it in India?”

You get the picture.

And most recently:

“There was a baby with half a head”
“Was it in India?”

That makes me sound like I’m stereotyping, birth defects aren’t always in India but they often are.

This really worries me and what pisses me off is that it’s always initially at least blamed on the mother’s diet. It gives the picture of seriously ignorant people which is easily compounded with poverty and there’s a hell of a lot of poverty there, but not necessarily stupidity – not when it comes to diet and strength anyway. These are people (women) who get up at the crack of dawn to start cooking and many are almost cooking all day for large families, cooking from scratch – lot’s of vegetables and fresh food. These are people who when they’re old can easily do physical labour that younger people here in the West couldn’t. I realize that no matter how many vegetables a pregnant woman eats it’s still not considered enough folic acid but seriously, for those that do have enough food their diets are not as unhealthy, overly processed and lacking in nutrition as the Western diet (which is unfortunately fast spreading there and they’ve already suffered the effects of GM food in terms of lack of repeat harvests at least). Blaming it on the mother’s diet is another blow on top of what these women and their suffering infants (who generally die quickly after birth) go through – these aren’t people who don’t know what ultrasound scans are but apparently these ancient people don’t know how to have healthy babies even though they’ve already gone through the ‘survival of the fittest – evolution’ bit. They have doctors, a lot of doctors, being a doctor is one of the most prestigious things there, everybody wants their child to be a doctor (they still do over here too). The problem is so many doctors claim the babies are born that way and they didn’t know beforehand and then blame it on the mother. However, we’re not talking about village doctors working alone here, we’re talking about clinics and hospitals, and not ramshackle temporary/emergency ones either.

These are also not limited to hereditary or ethnic specific defects.

Sometimes it’s admitted afterwards that there was another cause such as the Bhopal Gas Leak:

At other times the claim of a changeling:

This link (US National Library of Medicine) shows there are many other factors and yet the mother’s diet seems to be the most popular in articles I’ve read over the years:

Bear in mind the born birth defects like Downs Syndrome are also increasing in the West, as well as afterbirth effects like Flat Head Syndrome (though I’ve as yet to come across more literature about it happening in adults, and it does).

It also doesn’t help that these people have been conditioned (externally and by themselves – it’s very easy to brainwash people when they’re willing to do the work of enforcement for you) to ignore the magnitude of knowledge in their religion for the cult of celebrity parts i.e. praising or hating like sports fans the races of divinity and ‘demons’ rather than thinking about all those scriptures of their existence/antics. It’s also common for people to think babies born in a way that taxes their organs too much are godlike, even when they’re healthy the parents are too quick to name them after gods/victors and claim some reflected glory by association. But not everybody thinks it’s a blessing. China being the other country of most population, mass poverty, massive visible and not so easy to hide/dismiss pollution shares one of the attitudes that it’s a curse – and whilst those babies/children live they suffer even more because they’re not cared for.

There’s far too many cases of serious and fatal deformities there.

Anything can be turned into a profit of some kind, it doesn’t always have to be money but it’s not beneath some people to deform children afterbirth to use them for begging or mutilate them if they don’t beg. Akin to prostitution where a child/adult begs for help only to be grassed on by the of course uncaring ‘client’ who doesn’t care about the background of the rape victim as long as there is one at least is not a variety to choose from, if there wasn’t that’d be the problem. Those adults and children (and children who’ve grown into adults living their lives in that situation) are beaten regularly and even moreso if they talk. (Millions of people go missing each year in countries worldwide, not just the ‘third world’ ones, where do they go? And how are they linked to snuff porn?)

The anti-nuclear movement has been gaining more momentum since Japan had more nuclear catastrophe added to their history, but a particular movement in India near the Koodankulam Nuclear Power Plant. From general reading it seems there’s a shared observation that it’s staying power is due to women. Why? Birth defects is a major reason. From the following Friends of the Earth (no I didn’t just look at the obvious people against nuclear energy, when reading up on anything I tend to look at people who are against a movement/theory/issue before the people that support it) link I was reminded of the:

‘…deformed children of Jadugoda town, which hosts India’s 45-year-old uranium mine.’

It wasn’t only children though, people tend to focus on children as if they’re more important than adults or with ‘children are the future’ mindsets instead of focusing on the present, the people of the now and remembering lessons of the past before rushing to the future. Which is why I always say there are plenty of adults who’ve been suffering longer, plenty who started suffering as children too and who lose their ‘care by status’ [best before] dates when they get to certain ages. This post however is about birth defects so I’ve focused on the children but I’ll never stop being concerned about the people left behind, about the young adults and adults – and in this case about the parents, with focus on the mothers being blamed en mass if they survive that is, if they’re died because of pregnancy/childbirth we assume they don’t have to hear the **** poured on them.

Remember that company’s reaction to information about the sick and dying and born sick/dying?

Confronted with reports villages near Uranium Corp. of India Ltd.’s mines have unusually high numbers of physically deformed people, Chairman Diwakar Acharya said: “I wouldn’t be surprised if a lot of those guys are imported from elsewhere, ok?”


That brings to mind a film I saw recently dedicated to the people in the endosulfan pesticide spraying tragedy in Kerala:

Many people just don’t care and act like the victims are full of themselves/attention seekers, even those who haven’t been able to speak openly and finally do. Those who get bored of or conversely like the feeling they get from a ‘good story [about the pain of others]’ care when it happens to them/their loved ones though, of course.

I learned about shading in school, probably like most children with graphite pencils first then colouring pencils, we weren’t taught about tone and blending, that’s something I saw from Mum – she drew and still draws stylistically and at times cartoony. At school we were taught to draw ‘realistically’ – later on I thought we’d finally learn about art history and movements. It didn’t happen, we were told to copy animal skulls and stuffed animals in pencil, shown how to draw in perspective and made to do linocuts (which I got out of by delaying as long as possible because I thought it ruined my original.) That was it, all the rest of time we did whatever we wanted which was not very much, some of us did try at times – I branched out into chalk/charcoal/pastel for example and that I bought for myself. One problem was I wanted to draw my way, which I hadn’t really figured out yet though had ideas, but was told in no uncertain terms “you have to draw from life not from imagination, or you’ll fail”. Hmm I’ve never been one for modern art but I do like abstract to an extent and surrealism, plus I used to love fantasy art. Great. How to get round it, since Art was kinda relaxed I could bend the rules a little. So I still drew what I considered fantasy art but using objects from real life like clothing, facial expressions etc and with a focus on texture. That said I still drew the backgrounds at the very last minute so I could get away with drawing them how I wanted and she had to admit my use of colour and ‘energy’ was at least powerful in a complimentary way. That said, I didn’t leave much space for the backgrounds, just in case. (I also didn’t want her drawing all over my work, which she had a habit of doing unless you quickly moved it/got in the way and started talking about something else.)

The other problem was that not learning how to use multiple mediums/techniques meant come exam time we roughly knew what we wanted to do but not necessarily how to do it, I was told to look at the artwork of former students (because ultimately our work belonged to the school so they still had most of it) and learn from that i.e. copy what I saw. I didn’t like that.

I think nature is the ultimate science and art but I wasn’t keen on ‘imitation is art, imitation is life’ – I don’t think we comprehend the entire picture, we try to by sense parts of it by using machines and copying or literally using animals. So when it came to the art exam and I wanted to use watercolours I decided against it and stuck with what I knew; a couple of other girls were braver and used plaster of paris and acrylics (I was interested so helped both, yes that was not allowed but oh well – it’s not like we could get it all done in the limited time otherwise. Ironically when one of them tried to help me in return the resident bullies told her not to as well as their other usual crap.)

I didn’t and couldn’t keep up with physical art after school, materials way too expensive and no space, so I went digital/virtual. By that time I was stuck in a mental rut, I’m used to drawing what I see and every time I try to draw stylistically it just looks wrong no matter how attractive it looks when other people do it. I’ve done some pieces like that but I haven’t developed a personal style, however when I look at signature art I do find it lacks variety. For the moment I’m just sticking to shading and tone.

I’ve said it before but digital art takes aaaages, you can’t be free spirited or slapdash with it – at least it’s easy to erase unlike regular mediums. But still, people take for granted how much time/effort goes into it, I liken it to watercolours – it’s all about the layering. Something ‘simple’ and plain looking can still have 20-40 layers, a bunch of those just for the shading. Then if you’re drawing in vectors i.e. scalable images that no how you re-size them their proportions stays the same – that’s just hell because it’s like drawing backwards; erasing/removing sections is the way you get a picture there and it’s not fun or easy. My fingers swell up easily too so I’m not doing myself any favours with typing and drawing this way.


Anyway as unimpressive as the following examples may look especially since they are pieces rather than a whole landscape/picture they illustrate textures. It’ll also probably mean more to people like me who make their own brushes.

Many people are influenced by anime, this type of shading and outlining looks cool but it’s not realistic.

anime style 1

anime style 2

anime style 3

anime style 4



satin style 2

satin style 3

satin style 4



Fabric with a slight stretch (softer versions of the above)

jersey cotton

jersey cotton 2




faux fur 1

faux fur2

Or you could just leave them plain but unfortunately aesthetic value of the drawing is part of the appeal no matter how much I’ve tried to get people to understand it’s the quality of the potential design outcome that counts and hence give people who aren’t as graphically competent but still have good ideas a chance.


All of the examples above are entries into fashion competitions on Chicstar using their templates (compulsory). I’ve been entering for 8 years and never won even one of the minor prizes, recently they gave me a ‘chance’ to progress but took it back like it was a mistake lol. I also keep wanting them to accept more original design Patterns rather than Ideas – ‘Ideas’ is a competition where you submit images of clothes specifying the part(s) you most like which they’re then supposed to re-draw on their templates but much of the time they just copy the whole thing. That method pays less than Patterns, if either an Idea or Pattern is accepted you get to change the colours/patterns, if it goes public you and the other members can change its features but you can no longer change the silhouette, those alterations are called Designs. If a Design is accepted it’ll be made into a prototype for auction. If that’s accepted it’s considered a Win and will become part of their stock. Almost the whole shop consists of the Wins of two/three designers but that’s always been the way of it there. I’ve even been in batches where in one of their token acts of accepting other members they’ve chosen Design(s) from every other member who submitted but me. I haven’t even won the customer photo contest lol where you don’t have to jump through so many hoops and the rules (particularly the hidden ones) don’t change as rapidly and there aren’t anywhere near as many. Why do I keep trying? There have been other members who made a point of quitting after they finally won something, it’s partially like that but mostly because it started as a hobby but got more demeaning, frustrating and humiliating so I focused on helping other members, some who’ve been ungrateful and just ended up as a regime change, others who get acceptances after I say how much I like them or take a stance and then act like I had nothing to do with it even though I’m one of a few really old members and despite not liking me personally when I say something about the London fashion scene and how things do there ears do listen. Mostly though people give up and it’s understandable but sad.

It’s supposed to be a talent competition but favouritism dominates, that’s not to say the favourites aren’t talented but they’re certainly not the only ones, especially when it’s the idea of the end result that’s supposed to be the basis, not how well you draw. Most fashion designs looks messy and stylized rather than realistic but it’s very much become a drawing competition even with the new-ish standard templates. Before that we drew clothes with or without models and however we wanted, plus we could submit in colour/pattern without having to be accepted first. We’ve often had to submit what were our original pattern designs as alterations of one of the favourite’s acceptances when they went up for public entry otherwise we’d have little to no chance, however the changes you can make have been further restricted and there’s not much you can add so it’s the favourites who submit the most. It’s gotten to the point where they have to pay for votes, they previously had a coupon scheme where members could share a coupon with the public and get commission but two of the favourites hijacked that and others found their coupons being marked down as ‘fake’, ‘not working’ etc and that was scrapped to pay for votes. Now you have to enter the Idea competition to get that pay but if you wear their clothing and submit a customer photo you get cashback too. I wrote up all the rules in a user friendly way before but they kept changing and since members don’t have an equal chance I stopped promoting the place. I just keep trying myself now and supporting those who are there, when a conversation about the lack of transparency and unfairness starts the posts are often deleted.

Thankfully the one they temporarily accepted was a generic part of an Idea as intended rather than the whole thing which wasn’t a skirt to start with and so just ended up like a ra-ra skirt which I could then customize. I’m not happy with the Idea competition, though they’ve made it compulsory to enter to get your credits so I enter maybe once every two months or so, I prefer my own ideas i.e. original patterns unless agreed otherwise like if the acceptance goes public and other members can submit variations. I also found it a hassle when that one Idea was temp accepted since it wasn’t something I had thought about (plus the usual time wasting and entry restricting happened where they change the goalposts and tell you one thing then tell you that’s not allowed do the thing they previously said was disallowed, then do another etc etc), most members just submit them because they have to and don’t even check their progress.

This was the original from an image search found in various stores – a quick search just told me Lands End for example:


I changed it by adding another layer to the bottom and moving the buttons before even submitting it and said I liked the hem:

Coat 2

They drew it this way:


It was accepted and as you can see from the examples above I did my best to change it completely (I was also the first on CS to draw in different skin colours and fabrics when we started with designs fully drawn on paper, it was then picked up by a member who was a popular and already successful designer in manga and animation and then other members took her lead, she being what they aspired to be). If they had drawn more than the hem I would have declined it (yes I have declined and lost eligibility status in the past in contests they’ve had where everyone else eligible went along with it, it’s that kind of behaviour that probably got it rescinded, they were probably drunk when they accepted it anyway on the 26th Dec! Ha it’s been said that if I was up against mannequins in the photo contest I’d still lose! I’m the biggest loser on the site and I’m beginning to wonder if I’m kind of proud of that title now since I’ve stood up for many people, although unable to help myself…)

The problem with art, traditionally taught art anyway is that it’s very much about copying, for example all those masters who had workshops of artists producing works in the master’s style and forgeries that were often done by people taught there (like designer items that are called fakes when they’re made in the same factory or from the same pattern or leftovers/run off/unwanted parts of the order). The same applies to other subjects e.g. culinary/food. Most things have been thought of before but the norm is to change/adapt/add to and display them when they’re not in fashion, that gets people copying you and if you’re unlucky overshadowing/replacing/surpassing you whilst they often still keep an eye on what you’re doing to keep their position.

Imitation is part of involuntary/automatic life survival/propagation but I don’t find it flattering for conscious decisions, I find it insulting when it’s done to steal, claim credit for, twist to a different viewpoint, jumping on the bandwagon etc. It’s also something to watch out for when big business and organisations sponsor/fund/donate to schools. There are many motivations for wanting to make use of such a huge pool of potential talent/ideas and how often have you thought – “school students do better than that all the time” when looking at a famous person’s work? Not all the time of course, but often enough.

It’s easy to say ‘nothing’s unique, someone else just thought of it’ but I’ve been in enough situations where I came up with something and then someone else present/involved used it whole or a significant part and managed to elbow me aside, I’ve also had people ask me for help or involvement in projects and not get credited even when publicly presented and I was there with them (once even on stage – I was an original member that was taken off the bill but still there). On 1 contract it was admitted I’d done 70% of the work out of a team of 7 people but I wasn’t even mentioned and then devalued and lied about afterwards; another approx 35% but the other 55% person tookover, acted like they did everything and then said at the end ‘oh Dolly and ___ helped a bit’ and the 10% person didn’t care because their position was secured by high level nepotism. Ever lent or given someone money, even your savings for their business and they didn’t even give you a share or acted like they owed you nothing; worked for them and never got paid?

Imitation shouldn’t be the norm, if you’re influenced by somebody or saw/read their work then bloody mention them, what’s so difficult; why paraphrase, incorporate their structure/style etc without it? What are you afraid of? That you’ll get less credit, that you won’t seem so cool? So what? It’s pathetic. If you can’t think of ideas yourself or credit those you take from then you’re in the wrong area, do something where you can actually use that brain of yours yourself for something other than thinking about the best way to cash in. I use so many quotation marks in my writing that it can look funny to me sometimes because I use them for phrases too but if I didn’t think of it (and even if I did I acknowledge I might not have been the first or anywhere near it historically) then I’m not interested in presenting it as mine. If I think it’s better than mine I’ll say so, if I think it’s been done before I’ll mention it and sometimes don’t go over that ground again at all but direct people to the source instead.

It’s like when I was uni many lecturers just wouldn’t accept that you could think for yourself, they were obsessed with the bibliographies/citing, your work had no value (hey we weren’t asking for validity at that stage, just to have an informed opinion) unless it was regurgitated from someone established/recommended reading. Even the conclusions! I’d write my own thoughts about what I’d learned from other people and they’d still ask me – source? Excuse me!?!? Weren’t we supposed to have observations that weren’t mutually agreed in advance by qualified people? Then I realized, no you’re not. That’s for when you get to PhD level. :roll: What a waste, you could learn a lot of it yourself just by having the reading list and going to libraries/bookshops in comparison to tuition fees. Tuition should have been saved for lab, field work, seminars and going on the private projects of teachers, not to be practically read aloud to (that’s what audio books and videos are for) & expected to copy to a more plausible level than plagiarism. When I used other sources they’d get confused and unsure if they could accept them or mark above a certain level.

I don’t want your reflected glory, I find the idea of vicariously basking through someone else’s ability/work/achievement disrespectful to me.

It’s like when you’ve done everything and then some that the council tells you to do for a business, handed in the paperwork, but they won’t accept it unless you spend an arm and a leg to hire a ‘professional’ in that type of paperwork, explain everything to them because they weren’t there/don’t know the business like you do, and then have them put together that information in a nice shiny folder with pockets to hold the tables/sheets for you to fill in based on the info you provided and already did yourself that were just as effective but not as pretty oops I mean not as qualified as the contractor’s. Aw look they included a CD of the tables that anyone can make in Word or Excel and their contact details just in case you need more at a good (hundreds) price. People are obsessed with red tape. Akin to the amount of forms people can get themselves for little to no cost and fill in with free guidance from financial advice providers but still go to a solicitor and pay through the nose. We’re not encouraged to think or think about thinking, rather to defer thought to titled authority.


The story behind the Mario Savio speech is interesting, I first saw it in a Linkin Park music video ‘Wretches and Kings’ but then read up on it.

To end with: Mum has noticed Youtube getting heated with opinions about Michael Brown… Yes him again. Four days ago the git face, I mean the esteemed, eminent Professor (astronomer) Brown (not Dan Brown) came out with another big announcement. He and his assistant have come up with a way to fill our spiritual void after the loss he caused when he told Pluto to get lost shorty, you’re not big enough, be gone midget… Or words to that effect. So now thanks to God I mean Mr. Brown et al we finally have a 10th planet, oops I mean 9th planet? Did he demote Pluto just so he could jump on the decades nay thousands of years worth of research if we go by the Sumerians and claim the position of the missing planet as his own discovery by changing the name I hear you say? *Shock* *Gasp* *Horror!* Who would do such an awful, audacious, egotistical, arrogant, deluded, up his own backside thing… A lot of people actually given half the chance. The problem is he can make a claim about a real Planet X because of all the controversy and hysteria over all the possible things it’s (if it does exist) associated with and all the names it has e.g. a twin star making our system a binary one, a dark star system of its own that overlaps ours, Nibiru, Wormwood etc it’s size, distance and direction is ever changing though apparently on a regular orbit to the many, many researchers out there. There’s so much confusion and hysteria that it’s all considered conspiracy theory or mumbo jumbo until someone with a relatively household name and credentials says something. His observations about its effects on other bodies are not new and no he hasn’t observed it.

“I would love to find it,” says Brown. “But I’d also be perfectly happy if someone else found it. That is why we’re publishing this paper. [in Astronomical Journal] We hope that other people are going to get inspired and start searching.”

He’s. T-a-k-i-n-g. T-h-e. P-i-s-s. Proper.

It’s the ‘Hey we just discovered new land… Oh wait are those people over there…? Oh well stick a flag in the ground anyway and call it ______, we’re the only ones that matter here, go call the guards/soldiers, oh and we’ll decide from now on who gets to come and go and call them the immigrants and we’ll blame them and those we impoverish for everything!’ mentality on loop. (Seriously do you know masses of people actually think Anglo-Saxons were British and take that to mean native? And why start from there? Totally forgetting about the Romans beforehand? And those they conquered? And the vikings afterwards before the Normans? But that’s the problem, people use the terms ‘British’ and ‘English’ interchangeably and act like the English Nation is a representative of the rest/even all the counts.)

How do most people get through life? By imitation to learn and dependency. Even when we think we’re being original and independent we’re not really; we’ve been inspired, had influences and sometimes help. ‘No man is an island’. That said it’s not in the spirit of cooperation, peace, love and happiness. After we’ve learned via imitation and maybe racking some brain cells to put our own stamp on ‘it’ some of us question, some keep evaluating whether for the pursuit of ‘perfection’ or just because we like to improve/change. Some of us though just copy and bluff. I was told a few times by people from our ‘greaters and betters’ that bluffing is very important and that if you don’t know something, bluff. I generally gave no answer and just got on with what I was doing.

I recently found it ironic how a template of something I’d made was badly chopped and hastily put back together only then to be offered to someone I know as a job offer. The person the offer was made to was not qualified for it and it wasn’t in their field. :roll: It’s bad enough people copy what you do, consistently, and some even blockade your efforts so they can get ‘in there’ first and make it seem like you’re the copier. :roll: It’s also amazing how many successful people can feel self-satisifed yet maintain their success by such means. I guess it doesn’t matter as long as you’re a favourite and have enough money & ‘stuff’ to validate your position.

It starts early though, how many had a nasty surprise in school when they found out that the work (even competition entries) they submitted was property of said educational institution and not the student? I remember when Channel 5 launched and their style of news program revolutionised news presentation and aspects quickly imitated/incorporated onto other channels, even the presenters were scooped up. I wonder how many people’s coursework/exam entries went into that, it was funny how one of the questions we received in Media Studies beforehand was how to upgrade tv news. I saw all of my ideas staring me in the face but the perching on the desk was somebody else’s idea, maybe the presenters just weren’t fit enough to stand for a few minutes! When Mum was in college she did a project on a new food snack and lo and behold shortly after there it was marketed as a new product for a major brand – the design, shape, size were the same, the name was different but of the same theme. Just two examples and of course we’re not the only ones. It’s a ‘catch 22’ – if you want decent grades you have to do the minimum work but there’s so much copying as it is and all the easier with the internet (I used to debate online and someone re-wrote my posts as their university essay and thanked me afterwards!). Don’t submit your best work/ideas unless the establishment is paying/crediting you for it and you know where you stand; compulsory education is an obligation/duress/privilege/right don’t add a facade of giving your ideas away to it and keep your originals (seems obvious now but using a computer wasn’t always standard)! Sometimes and depending on the subject, like Art, they’ll let you have your work back (after it’s been messed up by ‘accident’) within a certain timeframe – not everyone is unscrupulous, all of the time – I drew Arnold Schwarzenegger with his skin turning into snake scales for an exam where the theme was ‘Metamorphosis’ and I haven’t seen him do that in a movie yet, though I may just have missed it ;-)

Whilst we’re on the topic of schools and teachers – don’t you find it annoying when you’d been hoping/waiting for something and it changes just as you get there? I wanted to do Electronics as a GCSE, the school had offered it for years but apparently I was the only one who wanted to do it that year so it was cancelled. I had to do a filler subject instead and I call it that because it really was a dossing class that didn’t teach us anything we didn’t know/couldn’t do already :roll: My favourite subjects as a kid were pretty typical – Paleontology, Astronomy and Maths but after that phase Physics was my best and favourite subject. Had a knack for it like I did languages earlier on (could understand people in different languages but unable to answer in their tongue so responded in English – the knack left with lack of practise. Abit like the Music teacher realizing I could play the violin without previous lessons or a background/home environment with classical music. That died though when classmates broke the violin and I left.) The strange thing was I had been really good at Maths but later on I just couldn’t learn it anymore, except from two people. If they showed me how to do it, it was easy peasy but from anybody else? Nope. I didn’t know why I couldn’t do Maths anymore (especially Pure) since I liked languages and especially because I never failed to get top grades in Physics (for some reason Mechanics wasn’t a problem in Physics but doing it by itself as Maths didn’t work either). I started to realize that I couldn’t really take in things that are not correct if they’re taught as true, if they’re taught as theory or even lies that’s ok but I had no patience with things that ‘didn’t make sense’ but are supposed to be real. Chemistry became another problem, I should have learned from all the students who intentionally switched to the other Chemistry teacher or changed location altogether. It started off well but for some reason when asking the class for answers he’d choose me more than the rest, some students and I asked him about it but he denied knowledge of doing it. Then he accused me and another student of copying each other. The ‘funny’ thing was his claim was about a team practical so everybody had split into groups and the girl I’d been accused of cheating with wasn’t in the same group as me! We weren’t even next to each other. All groups had varying results to write about and of course they discussed them with their partners during and after. He stuck to his nonsense though and we finally had to complain, only after that did he agree to raise the marks by one grade ‘because we’d complained’ rather than because he was wrong. I had been doing well until then but it went downhill from there. My work in Physics remained consistently good (and enjoyable) until one day when the other girls weren’t in (there’d been 4 in the class to start, whittled down to 1 by the end) and we had an impromptu test, for some reason the teacher (who spent far too much time in the closet getting ruffled with the teacher from the class below) gave me a different test to everybody else. Highly embarrassing when it became obvious that I wasn’t doing what the other students were doing. He still didn’t give me the right one though so I finished it and it was never mentioned again, we didn’t get them back. Shortly afterwards came exams – and until this place I’d never failed anything school related in my life, I was always on top and winning (lol the irony to my adult life) – and Physics was the one I was sure about. Despite my record I’d never been confident before/after exams but for once I knew I’d done well, I’d missed nothing out and there hadn’t been anything that stumped… Except the grade. One of the best in the class to the lowest mark possible. How was that possible!?! The teacher refused to speak to me after that, the Chemistry teacher spoke on his behalf, arranged my removal from the class and I couldn’t see my paper or go over it with anyone.

Reminds me a bit of an entrance exam for a private school I took, passed the interview replete with metaphysical philosophical questions about light & dark, poverty, depression and death with flying colours. Got to the day – a whole day of different exams which I’d been preparing for well in advance – and yes I stood out like a sore thumb, the only Brown kid and obviously in second hand but carefully altered clothing – things were going well even if the others wouldn’t speak to me in breaks until the teacher did something strange. During one test she stopped at my desk and left a stack of papers on it. Being brought up with good manners (and posture) seriously drummed into me I dutifully got up and gave them to her… And she got angry. She told me to get back in my seat whilst she huffed and puffed and that was the end of my chance there. I’ll have you know I didn’t look at those papers, they could have been blank sheets.

One thing I dislike about teachers is how they can tell you what grade you’ll get before the exams, I understand that they think they’ve ‘seen it all before’ and can estimate patterns plus having awareness of your classwork and possibly records but it annoys me when they tell you ‘you’ll get a…’ ‘You’ll be good for a…’ Etc. Even when it’s a good grade. Even when you decide that grade isn’t enough and so push yourself for better and surprise yourself at how much more you managed to achieve than usual and then you still get the predicted grade/range in the grade. :roll: Reminds me of a legal course I did where I was told my work was ‘too high level’ i.e. above my station and so she said she’d marked me down two grades and refused to talk about it, literally looking past my face and ignoring me whilst talking to everyone else who wanted to.

University was something I’d been eagerly awaiting. I’d decided on a place that was apparently one of the firsts in admitting women and ‘coloureds’ and had a syllabus I was interested in. Sadly the year I started was the year they decided to change directors of that subject, the whole course changed and apparently British students weren’t allowed to work in Egypt anymore either, and it turned out that the female lecturers were getting paid 30% less on average than their male counterparts. Someone stuck up a league table of university fe/male lecturer pay and it didn’t look good. Add to that the last minute notification of an introductory field course for the first years with an eye watering list of equipment to buy and the laughable list of recommended shops to get them from (the priciest ones you can think of before you get to the posh department stores) and the £200 fine for vandalising library books brought wholesale to us courtesy of the Law students. It wasn’t a great start. Yes I have known numerous Law students and being greedy bastards about their source material was not uncommon, it was well known that they’d deface, rip out pages or remove books altogether after they’d personally used them so that their co-students wouldn’t have easy access. Why were the rest of us being punished for penciling in things and then erasing them? And how could we afford £200 for a pencil anyway, not much of a deterrent really. Let’s not get onto the Medical students who in general are best kept away from the rest of us (and they know it).

My knack for languages came in handy for the Middle Egyptian [written] Language class as the lecturer was as boring as dishwater and the fluorescent lights bouncing of the whiteboard induced headaches and low energy, I also found his teaching of the language confusing. So Mum, who’d been getting me university level books since I was 11-12 (I wish I’d been home schooled), decided to go one better and find specialist ‘dictionaries’. The thing is they weren’t designed for students, they were designed as a reference for people who already knew what they were looking for – so unlike the recommended books and tutorial sheets the other students were using where they could search in the English and get the Egyptian my two tomes barely had any English in them. You had to find the pictogram you wanted first to get the translation (like any language you get ‘words’ that can have multiple meanings depending on context but the structure of those words don’t have to look or sound alike; the opposite is also true where you have similar looking/sounds ‘words’ that have different meanings) and there was no search method outlined but yes I found I really liked those books. I didn’t have to put images together to make the words and hunt for them – I just knew where to look. The problem was I couldn’t reconcile that ‘knowing’ with what the teacher was saying, even though I’d have the same answers, but he who sets the questions and marks/grades (regardless of whether they’re supposed to be sent elsewhere to be marked for ‘neutrality’) has the last word especially when they’re taught/think in mutually agreed peer [pressured] circles.

Unfortunately like most people I forget things I learned in schools quickly without practise, plus I’m not always able to show that I can do/know something as well as someone else. However those days of actually being able are probably long gone lol! ^^’

Then there was a course which I’d been misled into thinking was computing but it turned out to be IT and software admin rather than the hardware. I was against it from the start but learning that it was IT added to it, also there was no refund after something really short like a few weeks instead of proportionate money back depending on terms but I didn’t have any leeway. Then the college went bust before I could do the exams and I was on the road to getting a small refund given to those who got full marks. They were taking students right up until the last even though they knew they were going insolvent.


The Telegraph newspaper recently printed that libraries have had £14million less from the Tory government. I’ve seen a many libraries revamped into chic, airy, attractive buildings with more computers and wi-fi. Back when I used to half live in libraries there were more books because the aisles were much narrower, I don’t mind wider lanes and think they should definitely be accessibility friendly but there is such a thing as too much space and bright colours. Hanging out in libraries is fine and I believe they should be social hubs for everybody from the homeless to students to people just wanting to use the bathroom (if there is any), they should be comfortable havens where people can relax and learn and yes even talk quietly (thankfully shushing isn’t a big, awkward thing anymore :) ). In smaller, packed libraries I have run out of books in sections I liked but that was before they started circulating them. When I visit the local nowadays there’s always something different and the librarians seem to have become psychic and displaying books I ‘need’ to read in tandem with what’s going on with my life (no I’m not often a bestseller reader, unless you count classics, nor kept track of the latest books – the books they’ve been displaying which I find hard to miss let alone walk past now tend to be a little older and niche). Have I noticed more or less books? I’ve noticed less in the bigger libraries but that would suggest a surplus to be redistributed and with smaller libraries closing then the book cases should be longer and taller (if not wider) no? But they’re not. Hmm.

Similar to the ‘upgrading’ of jobcentres oh excuse me Jobcentre Plus’; seriously do they need to look so plush and fashionable, the smell of new paint, ever increasing and unreliable new technological means of signing on and job hunting? Ok so it wouldn’t be fair to make them look like shit holes where people are already going to be treated like shit let alone have to look at depressing, decaying interiors but why is it that people can’t go in an make appointments anymore? (The first time I went into one was as a secondary school student only to be told ‘you can’t find a job here, this is for…’) They have to go online first, then get an appointment for which they need a mobile phone to be notified, plus they have to register on a site called Universal Jobmatch which was just a big waste of money that they now force people to use as a diary to try and make it seem essential/helpful. It’s an aggregated site that doesn’t have as much content as major jobsearch sites, most of the adverts that are visible redirect to other sites, some of which don’t exist and its not exactly user friendly. So akin to the consumer advice site that was a major embarrassment for the government which MoneySavingExpert and other reputable financial info sites reported on this one’s only excuse is that ‘it doesn’t waste paper’ (yet they issue handbooks/physical diaries, appointment date notes, endless letters et al) but it does waste time, effort and you have to be able to use the internet regularly. Additionally who thought of calling sign-on staff ‘workcoaches’ and the people signing on ‘clients/customers’? Reminiscent of a ‘training course’ where the ‘advisors’ repeatedly told people they had access to ‘80% of the hidden job market’ but never once explained it and expected people to job hunt in the usual ways. There’s a lot of hatred and distrust towards people looking for work, people who are on Jobseeker’s Allowance, people who receive Housing Benefit etc; try looking let alone being able to move residence when in any of those categories and see how landlords view you as [potential] scum. But then landlords are getting pickier and pickier these days with many advertising in a way that a parent would oversee children in their own home or those nagging/restrictive boarding house owners you see in old films, heck disallowing children is getting more popular on the lists of ‘no this, that and the other accepted’ heck even when they say ‘this and this welcome’ and you actually get a reply it usually involves more criteria that wasn’t previously mentioned. Maybe some of that suspicion and dissatisfaction should be aimed at the people who spend far too much time in committees and not knowing what it’s like to be one of the people whose lives they organize.

Also whoever decided that apprenticeships should be less about on-the-job training and more about stealing the youth from youths sealing them in extended courses upped from 1-2 to 3-4 years on less than or at minimum wage hence narrowing and preventing their job prospects & elongating the climb to higher pay whilst milking them for all their worth – needs a reckoning. Why don’t you just go back to ye olde days and make them into lifelong servants of their craft masters waiting on dead men’s shoes for a promotion just so that they can then dish out what they had to go through to somebody else like an entitlement/rite of passage. Is it any wonder that employers ask for far too much experience and seem to expect people to stay in the same line of work for ages? Even if it’s cleaning for example or working in a library, filing/archiving or reception oh sorry receptionists have to be specific darling – we’ll only even consider glancing at you if you’ve worked in hospitality for this long with that particular system using this switchboard, in fine hotels, and you look like a model or at least flawlessly corporate. Why, because it’s that hard to have to a job handover/training? It doesn’t take long and isn’t hard to teach someone something mundane and non-complex that they’ll be doing frequently, especially if it’s been written down as a procedure. So many people I’ve come across act like they’re the bees knees and should be above you because they can do a calculation or macro on Excel. :roll: It’s not f*cking hard to show somebody and you don’t have to go through a rigmarole of ‘official training’, there’s a lot of skills that don’t necessitate hiring a contractor or constant supervision, it doesn’t have to be an expensive/tiresome chore but it does have to be done; you can’t expect everybody to know how you want things done and every possible deviance but demanding instead that they know the job inside out beforehand and to hit the ground running is elitist. Yes elitism and snobbery exists on every level about everything. Remove the pomp and ceremony, we’d have a lot less management. The longer job titles given to ‘appease’ people were probably intended to make them believe that their job was/is special and only they or those like them can do it, in turn those above them whose titles are equally unnecessary then seem more competent because their job description precedes them. How many job titles do you find you can’t tell what they entail upon hearing but later realize are just glorified for positions you do recognize?

To end on a metaphorical note – what’s keeping this boat afloat, be it the raft of humanity who are generally uncomfortable with nature and seem to be living off more polluted air which we can’t decide is hot or cold, or this planet aka a ship sailing through space?

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